RELINK. 1st.

2008-05-12T10:25:00.013+08:00

& yesterday was mother's day. happy mother's day to my mama ! celebrated yesterday with myself, mama & adeq.

MRT-ed to harbourfront centre. head to Breeks Café for lunch. it's my treat :D we had pasta with mushroom cream sauce, fish & chips, baked dory glazed with lime chilli sauce, deep fried calamari tail. drinks ; iced strawberry & lemon tea, blue dolphin. & of cuz the dessert, brownies with vanilla ice cream. yummy food ! :D

after the lunch, shopping at vivo. adeq treat mama to that box of expensive cosmetic stuffs. after that head to novena ; velocity. gosh. lotsy stuffs i wanna buy. haha. mama been looking for a new purse but there's none that she likes. next time uh ?

came back home at 9pm i guess cuz mama & adeq are werking & schooling respectively today. gaaaah. im bored cuz im not schooling today & tomorrow. plans ? ya there is but still it's not confirmed. how boring.

MSN-ing right now. at least im not so bored with them around to chat with. keep on nudging peeps ! conferencing with wani & zal. the M(3). haha. satu satu bobal jagong seyh. hahahaha. lina, my first scandal. pearl, my second scandal. zal, my third scandal & wani is willing to be my fourth. hahahahaha. skali kene scandal sak. karot siots. haha. chatting with indah, my dearest primary sch kwn. kau jiwer spongebob ngan aku laa. haha !

been stuffing myself with sweets ; gobstopper ! hahaha. tomorrow will be going out with my fazzy babe. watching movie. anything calling calling or sms aite. gaaah. i miss you babe !

one more thing, aku bukan minah rep siols ! babi uh kau. pape le bobal face to face uh. tak ya nk semunyi semunyi uh. takot kape girl ? da tau diri tu penakot nk step maner nyer terror. siots uh. wad malu jek sak. aku single aku nyer psl aku nk kuwa ngan saper. suke ati aku uh. @%&#*@^$*# go get a life bitch !

i love you.

2008-05-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

Hapie Burfdae To Bestfriend, Fuad ! :D

im tired. i don't know how many times i went in & out of my house meeting different ppl. okay i guess im mad or what. i get bored easily these days when im alone. okay like duhhh. haha.

met wani at around 6pm yesterday. aku tak caye kau wad gini uh babe. so ya, ask nicha to come down too. hang out with them than went home. reached home at around 11pm.

one thing that is weird is that mama did not nag or scold me for being home late. she's giving me freedom she said cuz there's no use not letting me go out as i always langgar. ya, true. freedom bebeh. but i know my limits so as not to let her worry so much :D

photo edit by IRUL. thengzx bestfriend cum abg angkat cum bodyguard :D

niwae, woke up super late cuz i slept super late. 0o0o0o0 it equals. okay im lame. wanted to bathe & than cik nana said not to go in first cuz washing machine is leaking. i was like, nvm =.= waited so long & than i get to bathe. hahahahaha.

my voice sounds so urgh. cm laki seyh. adeq aku tak abes abes tawekn suare aku siots. takpe adeq kn. ceyh ! kakak step baeq uh seyh. hahahahaha. i need something to get back my voice laaa.

sheeesh. weird. im missing ______. a lot these days. why ? i don't know. aaaaaaaaaaaaaah. get ______ outta my head pls. it's driving me crazy cuz i know it's impossible.

went out with mama today to buy a new refrigerator. so ya, head to AMK hub. refrigerator, ordered & will be arriving the coming saturday. had lunch at banquet & i just realise that AMK is super boringgg too just like yishun. gaaaaah.

than i had this sudden craving to go shopping. so i ask mama to accompany me to bugis. so we MRT-ed to bugis. gaaah. how i hate kanchong & impatient ppl. like fcuk seyh. just walk & bang into ppl. WTH.

bought a white & stripy dress + yellow & black tops + white tube. bought a top for adeq too :D intend to buy bottoms but nah. next time perhaps. bought food than bus-ed home.

you made me feel so guilty. pls don't do this to me :(

i love you still.

2008-05-09T12:09:00.004+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday To My Dearest Gf, LINA !
may all your wishes come true babe :D
hows the water splash ? heee.

yes yes yes ! exams are over. fcuking hapie. but if there's a choice, can i not see my results ? i never want to see my results. cuz i know that it's gonna be oh so perfect. okay sarcastic-ly. gaah. maths paper 2 today sucks laa. 2hrs 30 mins passed really fast. did not manage to finish that graph question. i know how to do it & it's 12 marks ! damn it.

fever gone but now it came back. it came back & it's getting worse. but still im able to do my daily whatevers. feeling cold. brrrrrr. sneezing non stop. soar throat never gets better & i sound like a guy breaking voice. hahahahaha. phlegm is like, urgh. i need the doc.

after paper, already had a plan with steadies. but sorie peeps, i gotta get home. am feeling not too good. you friends could go ahead ya. gosh. miss you ppl loads ! okay, this is weird cuz i kinda miss ______. a lot. gaaaaaaah.

okay. saturday, sunday, monday & tuesday. will only be back in school on wednesday. those days what shall i do ? had plans but still not confirmed. gaah. kinda bored without school huh ? okay im crazy to say that.

wani & zal, amacm movie jadik ? steadies how ? bbq jadik ? miss last year's sentosa outing with steadies. so the gerek laaa. ina, iqa, irul, fiq, lina, yana, yul, khairil, aisyah ; this peeps are missed by me :D

met wani & zalikha just now. lepak lepak at our usual. been sometime since we hang out. came back home & going out again later meeting wani. wani wani.. nape laa kau wad cm gini. ishk. jgn jadi cm aku. nyesal kau nanti dok. seriously.

my grandfather is still feeling the pain. werried for him ): i will pray for you. get well soon. atin sayang atok.

i love you still.

2008-05-08T18:19:00.003+08:00

yoha ! damn it. im DEAD for my MYE. no hope. gaaaaah. pathetic siol. why must i get sick on this year's MYE of all times !? grrrr. i cant concentrate & congratulations to me cuz im gonna FLUNK all my papers with flying colours =.= now only than im really worried for my O's :X gaah. it's a bit too late to say "OMG ! O level is just round the corner im not prepared" sheeesh.

chemistry paper was like abcheghikls. yes, flunk-tation gonna take place for that paper. for all other subjects too i would say =.= did not manage to do the paper. was having a terrible headache. gaaaah. of all times. pathetic.

&& my worst nightmare is gonna be tomorrow ; maths paper 2 ! urgh. my maths is like anhgkdihvldht. yes, its super awesome. okay im being sarcastic. sadly, im never academically good. oh well.

have to wait for like 1hr 20mins for the adobe to finish downloading. gaaah. how dumb can i get to accidentally left that adobe software cuzzy gave to me in his car. now i have to rely on the trials :/ oh well. at least there's something.

uh yes. im addicted to this one malay song. seribu kenangan - didcazli. oh yes it's sucha nice one. been repeating it for like 19369038323 times !

i've been looking for a new blogskin but to no avail. blame me for being choosy laaa :D so, am still stuck with this skin. im getting bored of it. than decided to create my own skin but nah. am just too lazy. hah.

MSN-ing for a while. yes yes azira. i do listen to hardcore + screamo. i may look innocent but im quite a handful actually. ask my mama. heh. oh you are asking again. she dont believe it cuz i look innocent & thinks that im the one who sits at home & study & never listen to those kind of songs. gosh. that is so not me. eyyy babe. sala theory uh seyh. yes i say it again. i do listen to hardcore + screamo ! my type of genre babe. head-banging ! yes uh ! pssst, jiwang too :D

took a nap & never bother those who wants to chat with me. sorie ya. forgot to change my status. am seriously F-ing bored right now. wanted to go out but than friends & me decided not to cuz we had no idea where to go. singapore is sucha a bore. pathetic laaa =.=

so, conference on MSN. conference on the fone & boom ! there goes up my bill again =.= it's getting higher & not lower ! gaaaah. pathetic.

my grandfather got admitted to hospital today. hope he's okay. my prayers will be for you atok.

was just listening to songs since just now. pathetic kns. the sites i went to ; okay they are actually from the same site laa. different bands. hardcore, screamo, electronica. been searching for new songs & reading up about those hardcore bands. rock on ! =D
http://vampirefreaks.com/S_T_A
http://vampirefreaks.com/alesanaisbettertheny
http://vampirefreaks.com/joeflyer59
http://vampirefreaks.com/AshburyHeights
http://vampirefreaks.com/akcbd
http://vampirefreaks.com/BTF
http://vampirefreaks.com/SKSK
http://vampirefreaks.com/avengedsevenfold
http://vampirefreaks.com/ESTK
http://vampirefreaks.com/COBH
http://vampirefreaks.com/TasteOfBlood_uk
http://vampirefreaks.com/DeathClocks

i love you still.

2008-05-07T16:22:00.008+08:00

hey peeps. okay im officially damn F bored. went to skewl. force myself to bathe & get ready for skewl. i felt like not going today cuz im having fever + terrible headache. but cuz of exam i came. had history paper today. was so not okay. sheeesh. i tried studying but nothing goes into my brain when im sick. pathetic seyh. grrrrrrr.

okay peeps. this post is gonna be SUPER RANDOM.

MSN-ing right now. conference with wani & khyrul. bobal kons uh satu satu. haha. conferencing with lina, fiq, ina & irul. gerek siol ! keep on nudging & keep on talking craps :D
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2nd post for the dayyyyyyyyyyyy.
mood ; happy + hyper :D

MSN-ing till nows. crazy i know. but god knows why im still stuck MSN-ing. gosh. blame it on lina, fiq, ina, irul, iqa, yul. yes. blame them :D they really made my day siol.
Arul ; fishballs ! hahahaha ! Fadzli ; yea. mats byk. Mujunor ; boi. hehe. Faieq ; wireless. i dont understand laa. haha.

abcdeFATIN. yes another new nick. given by bestfriend ; abcdeFUAD too. aku nga tolong ini bestfriend ngan blog nyer :D

new friends are loved oi. saper saper yg idong tinggi le brambos uh. tak heran aku. grrrrr ! freaks. fcuk. seriously i had enough of those kind. pathetic laaaa. only god knows how much i love them, my friends. gaaah !

tomorrow, chemistry paper. grrrrrrrr !

i love you still.

2008-05-06T11:48:00.007+08:00

hell yeah ! HARDCORE + SCREAMO !

woke up at 10:30AM. wanted to sleep longer but have to take medicine. suddenly yesterday night im down with fever + soar throat getting worse + voice cm suare pecah siols =.= alone at home with the cat of course.

wanted to go out but to where ? i don't know. how much more pathetic singapore can be. boringggggg. wani & me into hardcore + screamo :D she pass me this website. damn ! i love it to the max laaaaa ! to hardcore + screamo listeners visit the site okays ? (vampire freaks music)
http://vampirefreaks.com/alesanaisbettertheny

MSN-ing right now. conferencing with Wani & Khyrul. kecoh sak :D & ya, khyrul. goldfish will be supporting you ! :D than conference with Wani & Daus. wani irritating kn daus. random. nyahahaha :D chatting with Zalikha. she's becoming a hip-hop one & im turning into jiwang. but hey it does not equals to emo okay. chatting with Indah. babe, luper kn jek okays. cheer up ! chatting with Arul too. new nick given by him ; miss cutie fishball vampire. cuz i look like a vampire with that honey coloured contacts & that i have cheeks like fishballs & are cute. LOL :D

intend to change blogskin. but nah. am just to lazy to code this & that. hah ! lazy bum. okay no link :D changed song in my blog. yea, loving it. skarang into lagu lagu dari shahrin, wanted boyz, didicazli.

i miss all my close + bestfriends ! syg krgs okay ! (:

i love you still.

2008-05-05T17:12:00.004+08:00

mood ; super bored. tired. mixed emotions.

slept early yesterday nite & i forgot to eat my medicine, again. my gastric have been frequent lately. gosh. what's happening. i've been eating regularly now. not like the last time where i always skip meals. am getting bored of eating the gastric liquid medicine. yucks !

woke up early to do a bit of revision. tersmangat gitu. haha. had physics paper today. was okay. a pass at least ? i hope so. cant really concentrate with my gastric pain. grrrrr ! wrong timing laaa kans. sheeeesh.

one goog thing is that we could go home right after paper. early that means. but another thing is that it is super boringgggggg. what am i suppose to do ? some are busy with their darlings. some went home cuz they are not feeling well. other school friends are still stuck in their schools. gaaaaah ! pathetic laaaa.

next door neighbour is messing up with my house area. okay not their fault laa. having their toilets renovated. & stuffs are lying around right outside my house. & damn ! the cement covered my chairs outside. pantat uhs. the contractors are messing up my house area. sialan. after that tak tau nk bersih kan. kasot ngan slipe aku seme da kotor. babilu uh. pantat pantat pantat !

so ya, met ayun just now. rindu seyh lamer tak jumper. went to top-up my card first. thank god i went to top first or that 30 bucks i would have spent. haha. saw wani, syaza, daus while otw back to northpoint. went to mcdonalds + KFC but, FULL =.= saw irfan & zalikha. than decided to eat at BK. hungry hungry. saw the same few people many times ! hahahaha.

than walked around northpoint. rounding dont know how many times. boringgg sial. than we did something btol btol memalukan. errr, better not talk about it. paiseyh sak ! hahahahahaha. ayun & myself cant stop laughing. *laughing my ass off*

after all those hang outs, 804-ed home. ayun is reluctant to go home. haha. but ya she cant go home late.

MSN-ing right now. indah, fuad, khyrul, lina, fiq, irul. at least these great friends don't bore me :D

yes ! ader prison break new season =D

i love you still.

2008-05-04T20:11:00.002+08:00

boohoo ! pantat uh siots ! bunga sak kau. takde bodek pe. ishk. orang da tak accept tu abes cite laaa. tak ya ribut sane sini uh. le jadi kwn pe kan. tak ya nak majok than wad fitnah siots. stop being an asshole laaaaaaa !

woke up late, again. mama went out to buy lunch & than went out again with her friends ; trekking oi :D

tomorrow will be physics paper & im so looking forward towards it. okay i may sound crazy for looking forward to an exam. but hell yeah true i am. haha. but im so not looking forward to the 'leftover' papers ; history, chem, maths paper 2. grrrrrr !

i dont think im gonna be able to hit my targets. damn. i think i have a brain but holes are all over & cant absorb any info. is it to difficult to just get a C !? gaaaaah ! pathetic right ? dang. why do they have to make education an important thing on Earth ? how i wish this world could be a carefree one. gaah. it's impossible i know.

i think im going bonkers soon. there are many things i regretted not doing. gaah ! how much more dumb can i get. i always question myself & will regret. but there's no use regretting cuz what has been done can never be undone. sheeeesh.

MSN-ing with mursyahidah, fuad, lina, irul.

i love you, still.

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2nd post for the dayyyyy.

time check ; 7:35 PM

mood at the moment ; tired. missing someone a lot.

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tounge dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being

Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this hearts that's healing

My hands float above me

And you whisper you love me

And I begin to fade

Into our secret place

The music makes me sway

The angels singing say we are alone with you

I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this hearts that's healing

and so I cry

The light is white

And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand

I give it to you

Now you own me

All I am

You said you would never leave me

I believe you

I believe

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holdin on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this hearts that's healed

been feeling not so good today. coughing getting better but my soar throat is getting worse. gosh. it's so damn painful to swallow any food even liquid. but still i ate my apple cheesecake :D

went MSN-ing than offline at 5 PM & started my 3rd revision for physics. sheeeesh. i just cant seem to concentrate. i've been thinking. ask me what im thinking. i'll never be able to answer. i myself do not know what was i thinking. okay aku da giler.

nowadays i fear losing my loved ones. a lot. i love all my loved ones laaaa ! family is the number one. close friends + bestfriends complete my life (: syg krgs oi !

been wanting to buy loads of stuffs but at the moment nga budget uh. money all spent. 30 bucks left for this month. gaaaah ! how stooopid can i get to just spent it like that. spendthrift laaa atin oi. beruba laaa. okay aku da btol btol da giler :D okay, i guess it is a good thing mama confiscated my POSB card for a while so that i dont have the temptation to just *press* & the money comes out.

my studies now are at stake. seriously. been doing so not well now. like mama said "mcm maner atin nk ameq O level bler prangai da tanak blaja. tlg la make an effort to study. pass ur O levels & mama will be happy. jgn sampai mama confiscate hp ngan laptop". i guess i have let her down. sorie :(

im trying to start doing my revision. thengzx to irul + lina. love you many many laa ! priority ; to pass my O levels. firstly is to get over this year's O maths & malay. C6 & A2 respectively. than do well for C.sci, C.humans, Eng, Art for 2009 O levels. i'll prove you wrong mama cuz i know i too can do well :D

i love you still.

2008-05-03T23:38:00.005+08:00

damn it. damn it. damn it. fcuk. fcuk. fcuk ! binget siots. laptop problem tak abes abes. restart beribu kali jek tau. internet connection nta ape biol. friendster tak le view proffy sendiri. ah ! pantat la siol.

niwae, i woke up really late today. i was just feeling oh so tired. mama woke me up & ask me to go & pay my hp bill but i just cant open my eyes. so ya forget it. she went out to pay for me. thengzx yaw. okay, bill is going down. from $120 to $66.02. yay !

had my bath than went out with mama after having lunch. bought dark purple skinny & honey coloured contact lens. cats' eye :D today's weather ; hot hot hot hot !

terpakse aku gi madrasah tadi. mak aku biseng pasal aku ponteng class smalam. sheeeesh. usual laa. meet wani. wani said, dier rindu aku. hahaha. lepas class gi macdonald. da mengidam nak makan mcFlurry. hahahaha. okay mepek.

MSN-ing with fatin, faieq, fuad. all the F's. haha. fatin ; so you at KFC ! (: faieq ; haiyo ! gi tdo laa. haha. Fuad ; ah ah. i memang mcm mcm. haha. okay, im just being random (:

i miss you. i really do miss you, a lot. you are the one who puts a smile on my face. you are the one who made me laugh. you are the one who made my day. you never fail to make me happy. i love you.

2008-05-02T16:02:00.004+08:00

*yawn* im sleepy + tired. though im sleepy i just cant get to sleep seyh. did not sleep yesterday nite. was rushing for my MYE art prep work. but still it's incomplete =.= went to bed at 2am cuz i was feeling drowsy. woke up at 4am to continue doing art. now im giddy due to lack of sleep.

went online for the sake of going online while doing my art. haha. thengzx Fuad for accompanying me (:

stress stress stress ! im stressed up ! oh gosh. i don't know for how long more i can hold on with my studies. i kinda regret getting into normal academic through train class. gaaaah ! what a damn wrong choice i made. oh well. no use regretting now. what has been done cannot be undone. sheeesh.

had social studies + art exam today. ss, i dont know laa ehk. forgot about the ASEAN tingy. art exam, final layout looks complete but the background very bare laaa. 3hrs is not enough. i have everything for prep work but not coloured. niwae, aku hapie siots. art exam is over. yes uh ! now, can concentrate on other subjects :D

what's left ; maths paper 2. physics. chemistry. history. i gotta try to score in maths paper 2 cuz i left out a whole chunk of qns in paper 1 undone :X i need a maths angel & could tell me the ans. okay craps. physics, not much of a worry :D chemistry, yes it is a big worry to me cuz i just hate chemical formula & stuffs =.= history, need extra memory power. i just wanted a pass in every subject & it's hard to get it. gosh.

Atin ; MK :D
Waniie ; MS :D
Zalikha ; MC :D

im confused boi. if you still treat me as your bestfriend tell me the real truth will you ?

2008-05-01T16:00:00.000+08:00

it's 2am now & im still not in bed. im tearing. i just felt like letting it out but something seems to stop me from doing so. what is gonna happen to me ? i don't know.

was MSN-ing since yesterday nyte. thengzx faieq. felt much better (: idir, thengkiew (: & yea been sometime since we contacted each other. do keep in touch. indah, thengkiew too (:

i guess i should just let it rest & forget about it. start a new chapter ? i dont know. i seem to want to get away from reality but on the other hand i dont wanna leave. im confused.
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slept at 4am. woke up at 12 noon. im sick right now. oh what a bad time to fall sick. how i hate to fall sick during the exam period. menyekse tau tak. coughing, flu, fever, soar throat. not going to the doc cuz there's still medicine. it's not even a month & i fall sick again. how pathetic can it get =.=

was doing art. felt bored + tired. damn. it's only a day break & it's so freaking bored ! mama & adeq went to town. did not follow cuz im too lazy to get change, too sick & stuck with art prep work. art + ss exam will be tomorrow. gaaaaah ! how i hate to do final layout. one thing, i never like painting. seriously.

gosh. i just cant stand it when im having blocked nose. difficulty in breathing. my eyes are teary + red. like monster sia. my nose will turn red & looks like a clown's one due to constant sneezing =.= having all these but still have to finish up my art seyh. will be done in a few hours time 0.0" sheesh.

edited my friendster, again. i think im going crazy. okay nevermind about that. sorie for the late sms replies. i cant concentrate on my studies. oh gosh. another bad timing for problems to creep in. how much more worse can it get ? *sigh*

mama's laptop is much better than mine. hmph ! oh well. at least i have my OWN laptop. nyahahahaha :D

MSN-ing + art-ing at the same time. khyrul, kentot uh kau ! terpranjat siol kau ckp gitu. ish. wad suspect jek. haha. syahidah, you are sick & i am sick. so we both must take care tau (:

btw, who say i have change my hp number ? it's still the same one laa peeps. anything beep me aites. i miss those primary school days :( okay that is so random. haha.

i miss you, _____. a lot.

2008-04-30T23:40:00.001+08:00

woke up & i started crying cuz i dreamt of that incident. i never want to remember it ever again. but why must it appear in my dreams ? i just don't understand why my life became so miserable. i guess i rather not talk about it. it will just make me tear.

well, today there's maths paper 1 for the sec4. im so not looking forward to today. i swear. i just felt running away. but what to do. it's reality. im not prepared for today's exam. & i am never prepared whenever it comes to maths. yea i did study + revise all my sec1 to sec4 works but still my brain is stagnant & never receive new info. i did not finish the paper though it was 2 hrs long. i cried a bit while doing the paper. i just have to accept the fact that i will never be good in maths. maths ; no hope !

after the paper, went home straight. bath + get changed. met wani at 12:30pm at the usual bustop & head to woodlands. wani & me was like twins for today. black + pink top & white skinnies + black & white shoe. woohoo ! haha. niwae, had our lunch at banquet ; honeydew juice my addict. haha. than went to the library to do our art. i did not do much. im not in the mood. was just relaxing & forgetting about school. after that walked around at causeway point. i seriously want that PUMA bag. 81 bucks siots !

called zalikha cuz wani wanted to collect something from her. so ya, met her than went to eat at KFC. than went to lepak at our usual spot. snap pics. crap here & there. than zalikha went home while wani & me 804-ed to northpoint. walked around. than went to GV, bought bubble tea. 800-ed to the usual bustop. wanted to photocopy our art. found out that the shop is no more having that service. called zalikha asking which other shops provides that service & ya i totally forgot about this shop. STM siak aku :X coincidently she wants to photocopy hers too. so ya, waited for her. meet again. hehehe.

now i can do my colour schemes. no idea uh seyh. accompanied zalikha to buy some stuffs. wani head home first. after buying the stuffs, went to KFC cuz zalikha was thirsty. than saw the ex-op pupils. than this guy tot i was this person & kept calling me liyanna ? i did not respond cuz it's not my name kan. haha. ciyan dorang ehk :P

came home at 10pm & i was really tired. i cant get to sleep so i decided to blog. upload some photos.

am i shrinking or what ? my size seems to be getting smaller. damn. i cant wear my fav skinnies. i just realise something. my friends seems to like my second name. woohoo. my art MYE prep work ; finishing. yes !

really. i think i do (:

2008-04-29T21:25:00.003+08:00

photo edit credits to YANA.

Early in the morning & im already crying due to W. was not in the mood for school today. just felt like ponteng. went to school with zalikha. warm sia. during the reading period i almost fell asleep. sleppy uh.

history, free period. maths, sucky. MT, paper finish. no lesson. did my art. SS, did not pay attention. cried in class ; too stress with school + family. i just cant take it ! next 5 periods was art. supposed to have mock exam but in the end it's cancelled. yes uh ! the class are not prepared. observation + modification + possible layouts are incomplete. last minute she says that we cant exceed 10 single-sided A3 size drawing papers for MYE. damn it laaa. so i had to rush & re-draw my 15 observation drawings. only left with 4 colour schemes & also to touch-up on the other drawings. yes yes yes !

straight after school there's a short maths remedial. i did not know till the dismissal bell rings. pathetic laa kans. went to change into camp shirt. hot sia the weather. went thru set language & notations & it's a sec2 express topic 0.o

oh gosh ! tomorrow ; maths paper 1 :X am not prepared. really. i really cant take it with school. it's stressing me out. a lot. haix.. i hate school laaaaa.

hoho. i really love love cartoon + disney characters. spongebob + pooh bear + tasmanian devil + bugs bunny. i want them all. can can ? :D i just cant live without muziq. PUNK + HARDCORE + SCREAMO my taste. bands im into ; Alesana, All american rejects, A7x, Bullet for my valentine, Bless the fall, Emery, Eyes set to kill, Flyleaf, Ice nine kills, Linkin park, Matchbook romance, My chemical romance, Paramore, Pug jelly, Red jumpsuit apparatus, Rufio, Scary kids scaring kids, Secondhand serenade, Senses fail, Simple plan, Sugarcult, Sum41. okay, super random.

transferred pics. updated friendster. comments replied. deleted myspace, facebook, imelayu. not active in those. sorie to you friends. MSN, still using the same acc laa peeps. no change aite. not using the internet much. only to blog. internet is sucha bore nowadays.

sorie im not contact-able tonight. having some problems. if there's anything just leave me a msg & i'll try to reply or get back to u ASAP. sorie ya.

i think i like you (:

2008-04-28T18:00:00.000+08:00

today was a super hot day. came to school ; usually it will be a cool weather. but today was just so warm. urgh. okay watever. niwae, met lina before going to school. thengzx babe. no worries aite. my lips are sealed.

english, talked about our exam qns & watsoever. physics, no mood. PE, 2 periods. boringggg. notink to do. chemistry sucks. english again, self-study. chemistry again, 2 periods. sucks ! maths, im sleepyyyyyy. overall, i did not concentrate on any of the lessons for today. okay pathetic i know. the weather is really warm. nah. hot. wani & me felt like taking off our clothes. hahahahahahahaha.

after school went home straight with gernette. phew ! i really cant take it with the weather. panas siols. met lina again before going home. babe, like i said. no worries. everything is gonna be alryte. cheer up !

maths paper 1 coming soon :X

people says im, innocent & the decent type. when i heard that, i was laughing my ass off. really. i really am not what you think laa peeps. it's up to you to believe it or not :D only the closest knows the real me.

i just cant imagine how life would be without muziq. damn. life's gonna be super damn ultra boring. right ? loves ; simple plan ! alesana ! bullet for my valentine ! RJA ! eyes set to kill !

it seems that u are getting further apart from me & has started to hang out with his friends more often. oh well.

2008-04-27T13:50:00.000+08:00

okay. im seriously bored at home. alone laa. mama & adeq are out to buy a new laptop. kpo jek. haha. edited 2 pics, lazily. ina's lil bro saw the first pic with my name on it & he ask, "kakak atin, kakak ade tatto name kat tangan kakak ehk ?" i was like, shock with my eyes wide open. like seriously laa. i was super shock a 3 year old boi knows about tatto & all. shocking.

2 papers down & 7 more to go ! i have not finish my MYE art prep work. 4 more possible layouts to go + 4 colour schemes. revision is of no use. nothing goes into my brain. how pathetic can it get. i need to borrow some genius brain. anyone ? okay craps. y do schools have to have exams. troublesome you know. pffffft. exams are hated. bleaghs !

mama talked to me about my future yesterday nite. she told me that i ought to plan for my future now. it's a bit too late already she said. but criouzly i dont know what i want for my future. fickle minded you could say ; first it was this than it will be that than it will be the other one. cant make up my mind. pathetic pathetic pathetic.

i was looking for a new blogskin. it took hours. was so tired than. alas decided to just have a VERY SIMPLE skin. jadi laa kans. janji new look. haha. bobal cm paham jek. im still loving the song in my blog. nicenicenice(: ina wants to edit my pic for my blog. thengzx babe !

im so loving the colours BLACK, RED, WHITE + HONEYDEWS + SPONGEBOB ! any latest edition of handphone with spongebob as the outer appearance ? if there is i'll be sure to lay my hands on one of those. hahahahaha.

oh shut the craps & move on.

2008-04-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

okays. an update for today. im still feeling giddy since morning. niwae, met wani to do our art MYE prep work. sorie babe, i was really late. so ya, head to mcdonalds. it was a super hot day. gi ameq aircon jap. after which, we head to yishun library. found a spot & started to do our art.

than decided to ask zalikha to come down. she than came down. fuyyoh ! lime green skinnies babe. lawa lawa lawa ! jealous aku. suddenly wani & me thought of buying yellow skinnies. haha. reminds me of spongebob :D

wah. the place where i was sitting, i always have to 'smell' ppl's butt siol. wani knows. than there's also this auntie, put her leg on the sit & some more it was in front of my face siol. WTF ! uncivilised ppl. i said something than she went off looking at me. im not scared laa ehk. was half way doing art when this librarian came & told us to not do our work here & find somewhere else. it's like WTH laa. other librarians did not say anything. even the guard did not say a word. pissed off laa. forget it ~ niwae, went to mcdonalds to do our art. after a while wani went home cuz she's having madrasah at nite.

i only manage to finish 4 possible layouts from where i have stopped from the last art lesson. so lil seyh. after one whole day & only 4 small possible layouts are done. pathetic laa kans. than zalikha & myself went to the library again. went to the usual corner ; read magazines. borrowed zal's card to borrow a malay love novel. thengzx babe. was reading magazines. siol uh. byk bende bende tk senono sak. horny siol. dirty dirty dirty. haha !!

7+pm we went home. at least today i went out. much better than being stuck at home for one whole day. my skinnies are getting a bit too big for me seyh. from 27 shrink to 25. tanak laa aku jadi kurus sememek. no offence ya. damn it. i cant wear my fav skinny laa. okay watever. mama buying me new skinnies. yes ah ! thengzx laa mama.

30 april ; math paper 1. ahhhh ! maths siol. seram uh seyh :X numbers give me the shivers. revision started but still im not prepared. i'll be jumping for joy if i could get 50%. really. wish me luck eh :D

& im sorie.

2008-04-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

today is an examination day. sheesh ! eng papers was damn tough. i think im gonna flung for this exam :X paper 1 not enough time. paper 2, time is just right. my class is doing the same paper as the sec3 express. difficult difficult difficult ! i suck at language. gaaaah !

tomorrow will be MT paper. so, not so bad laaaa. can pass. ceyh ! haha. though i have started my revision but still im not prepared ! urgh. why do schools have to have exams ? leceh.

MSN-ing right now. having cramps + sore throat. how much more worse can it get ? urgh. pathetic siol W. like WTH + WTF. CB oxo laa. fed up fed up fed up with W. brambos uh sial !

sorie cuz this post of mine is super random + vulagari-tic :D

byee !

2008-04-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

In the morning, i cried in the shower. i don't know for what reason. but after that i felt rather relived. felt much better.

today kinda okay laa. assembly, sucks. MT, biyase jek. chemistry was okay. physics, paid full attention :D history, free period. english, i did not do the compre + summary homework & it's due 2 days ago ! :X SS, normal note taking stuffs. maths, 2 periods. i was damn sleepy laa. no assembly. yay yay yay ! arranged tables for MYE. everyone has to bring back all school books & files. darn it. freaking heavy siols though i have brought back most of my stuffs in the last 2 days.

than met lina, irul, fiq at my block void deck. thengzx to irul & fiq for carrying up my stuffs. my friends cum abg angkat cum bodyguards :D i bathe than got change than went lepak lepak with them for a while. sorie i took a bit too long. than came back home. hogging on the fone with ina. im sorie to hear about that incident. dun werrie sis, everything is gonna be alryte. trust me (:

im bored. having tuitions later. in the meantime im just friendster-ing & MSN-ing to kill time. chatted with fattah. been a long time since we contacted each other. he's sucha dear friend. thengkiew bestfriend (: lina, babe maot uh kau. HAHA. kekek siol chat ngan kau. perot aku saket sak. irul, bodyguard aru aku ! :D

i ought to wake up now. MYE is starting tomorrow ! & i still am not prepared. i had only revised my maths + physics. i also had tried memorising history & SS but only get a lil info stuck in my brain. tomorrow will be english paper 1 & 2 :X im suck-ish at language. gaaah ! how pathetic can it get.

i'll only treasure & love those who accept me for who i am.

2008-04-22T17:05:00.008+08:00

morning, i cried before assembly cuz of _________________. thengzx zalikha for being there (: & also thengzx pearl, daus, wani for asking. lessons were as per normal. no morning assembly. a good sign for me cuz there's no need to listen to P's' lecture' :D history, free period. wei shen was behaving kinda weird. seram pon ader :X daus & wani will know wad i mean. he's being random & horny siak. haha ! maths, boringgggg ! MT(malay), free period. SS, boringggg ! 5 periods of art was okay. finished my 10 observation drawings. just need to touch up. finished my 15 modifications. just need to outline & 'pop' the drawings out in black & white. only left with the 8 possible layouts + 4 colour schemes. busy busy busy busy!

came back home straight after skewl. am tired. tired of crying ovet that matter. tired of going thru the misery. tired of having arguments with friends. tired of quarelling with mama. tired of school. tired of studies. tired of not being able to sleep well. tired of everything ! frustrated + annoyed + fed up ! *argh!*

advance papers starting this coming thursaday :X i suck at language. criouzly. brought back almost all of my books that i left under my school table today. darn it. heavy siols. naseb tangan tak patah. okay okay, tu rabak laa kans. haha.

oooh im just being random here :D i dont give a damn laaa cuz this is my blog. if you wanna read, go ahead if not, brambos laaaa ! get the hell outta here ! hahahaha, okay craps. has my eye degree went up ? 0.o im beginning to see blurs with the current spec. this means that i have a reason to get a new pair of that black & red specs ! mama has to give me the green light.*smiling broadly* oh, i have to stock up lots of stuffs. mama, $$$ pls. damn it. im going to be broke soon. but phew ! april is ending soon & i'll get my next month's allowance, soon. mama confiscated my ATM card, for over spending. sheeeeesh ! padan muke aku.

i want that red crumpler bag ! i want that red earpiece ! im in love with spongebob & im so over with the colour, RED :D i want my room to have spongebob theme. hehe ! imma honeydew freak !

ever since u are attached to him you seem to have change & kinda gone from me & the rest. i understand of cuz you want to have sometime to be with him. that i dont blame you. but you seemed to be getting further apart from us & are starting to hang out more with his friends. it's not only me who said it, even the rest said that. dont u still regard us as your friends. we're ur childhood friends mind you. oh well. i have nutink to say. since u are already much more comfortable hanging out with his friends rather than us. i have nothing to say. i think you only came to me when u have no one else. get this straight, im not a thing which u can just take & throw anytime u want !

only when you are in low spirits. feeling down. sad. crying.
than you will know who ur real true friends are.

Hapie 4th month anniversary dear <3

2008-04-21T21:20:00.003+08:00

those were the pics taken when the fazzies were out bugis-ing :D i love her laaaaa oi. thengzx for teman-ing me babe. her addictions for that day was, kopiko milko sweets & mine was honeydew fresh juice. haha. rabak-ness seyh.

niwae, for today. it was sucha freaking boring day ! punyer laa mendak nk mampos. & also today i was feeling really really sleepy. the 2 periods of english was oryte. failed test :( physics, i paid full attention :D 2 periods PE, obtained a bronze award for NAPFA. oh ya, wei shen can't stop talking about his dimples & he can't stop doing that retarded-looking face. HAHAHAHAHAHA. was laughing our ass off. aper steam siak. 3 periods of chemistry, freaking bored ! failed test :( was suppose to do the 10 year series but instead i was doodling on my chemistry textbook & now it is full of art. my masterpieces :P maths was just okay. oh yes ! tomorrow, GCS is not coming :D

after school, there's english oral. waited a total of 56 mins before it is my turn to prepare. talked to dragon. craps laaa. about the murder tingy at the newspaper. the eyes sot sot. HAHAHA. im speechless during the picture description part. darn it ! at least, the examiner said i read well & i speak quite well at the conversation part :D

orals over but the papers are still yet to come. study study study ! concentrate concentrate concentrate !

i just realise that even ur closest could be ur worst enemy. i now believe this cuz im going thru it myself. sad. heart breaking. pls, stop it. im sick & tired of it. i need to rest. pls, i beg you to stop it. i wanna forget about W. like seriously yea. i might turn into a mad person if i don't stop thinking about W. life has not been so good. oh well. maybe this is my destiny ? god knows. but y now ? it's too much for me take. O levels + W + prob + yana's condition. im worried sick about her.

am doing my art but half way thru i tot of switching on my laptop. for no apparent reason, actually. i miss the latte from starbucks. i miss the oreo cheesecake from secret receipe. okay, random. HAHA. pathetic gitu kans.

i guess we're getting further & further apart. its sad that our 6 years of friendship goes away just like that. my heart broke into pieces. go ahead & blame me. but i just cant get it y am i the one who u must say ? u have no evidence to say that of me just cuz of that prob. but if that's the way u want it, what could i say. i just have to accept it. now u guys may go ahead & call me bitch or watsoever. but sooner or later the truth will be out & that u guys will be much surprised to who the real culprit is. i dont wanna say it. i want u guys to slowly find out & feel the pain that i m going thru. ya true, we're frens. close frens rather. but u hurt me & u ought to feel it. its not a revenge. i just want u guys to understand how i feel. hurting inside though i look happy on the outside. so, just wait & see & than u guys will fall on my knees & begging for me to forgive u guys. i'll just wait & see the show.

i miss you, dear :(

2008-04-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

oh, hey ppl. im tired. im sad. im hapie. im confused. i myself am not sure. oh well. life is unpredictable. the unexpected will come but the expected may never come. take it like yesterday. i did not expect it but it came. how much more worse can my life get ? i thought i could have a good & happy life with my precious but end up to quarell & fight more. i need a miracle. for me & my precious to fight & quarell no more. i want us to have a happy ending.

well, today was just another an A-OK day for me. woke up kinda late cuz i slept at 2am. i just can't get to sleep. kept tossing & turning. only manage to get some sleep at 4am. dreamt of mama continuing her studies at Australia & that my sis & i followed along & continue our studies there too. been having this same dream quite a few times. i wish it will come true ?

had my bath. got ready than head to causeway point with mama & adeq to have lunch. i had honeydew fresh juice. i had already drank 3 cups yesterday ! favourite laaaa. to go with the drink, i ate honeydews ! hahahahaha. oh yes, imma honeydew freak ! walked around after that.

than head back to yishun. went to the salon where i usually go to, to trim my hair. have not decided to change to what style, yet. adeq than decided to have her hair rebonded. while waiting for the 3 long hours to be over, mama & me walked around. than came back to the salon & waited for another 2 hrs. mama & me was chatting about lots of stuffs. she helped me in choosing the contact lens colour which suits me. which hairstyle suits me. the fashion wear that suits me. i could say that she's up to date. she's my mama cum sister cum bestfriend (:

after the 3 long hours, mama went to trim her eyebrow before heading home. adeq aku da rebond seyh. makin preetaye laaa :D came back home, was feeling really tired. did not do any homework at all. i just packed my school stuffs for monday.

tomorrow is monday. oh yea, 2 periods of PE (: damn it ! 3 periods of chemistry. urgh ! maths. oh, after school there will be english oral. owh, i hate the conversation part. aku g...ga...ga....ga...gap kat tu part laaa. not literally. i just mean that, i'll get nervous & i can't speak fluently. MYE just round the corner :X

was bored just now. so i went to read my friend's blogs & friendster shoutouts. seems like almost evrybody is facing their own problems. darn it. it all came at the wrong timing. lina, be strong. need someone to talk to ? u can call me aite sis. irul, dun werrie too much. she will be okay. stay strong. remember, OUR prayers will be with her. nana, no worries. everything will end soon. daus, thengzx. u will find ur princess soon aite. iqa, thengkiew. & u t0o last long with syaizairi. yan, thengzx & all the best to u t0o bestfriend.

& yea, i can't stop thinking. life is really unpredictable.

2008-04-19T23:40:00.001+08:00

im sorie. i really really am :(
i really don't mean it to happen.
but due to some circumstances, these has to happen.
my heart & mind won't stop thinking unless you forgive me.
MYE is coming soon & that my O level malay & maths comes next.
i won't be able to study with these stuck in my brain.
i may look happy on the outside but inside im crying.
i msg-ed you, but you did not reply.
pls, can we forget about it. you are making me feeling so guilty.
forgive me, will you ?

2008-04-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

oh well peeps. today was okay. kinda sucky too. in the morning before going to skewl, mama had already kicked a big fuss about me not wanting to go madrasah anymore. fed-up early in the morning. oh great, u 'made' my day mama. thengzx. urgh !

assembly was too shawt for me. haha. was reading this malay love novel. a very nice one. MT, 2 periods. just went thru reading & finishing up our malay 4A textbook than cikgu went to youtube & the whole class watched ; ms swan, HAHA. hosen leong, HAHA. kekek sak. english & SS, free period. read the malay novel during SS. maths was okay. Lskills was the usual. did something about career guide.

after skewl, met dear. he send me home (: & sorie dear that the plan for tomorrow cant go on :( i'll msg u after the check-up aite. had my bath, got change & went to the usual to meet ayun. went to withdraw money ferst. sorie aku lambat babe. i like her pink top. *jealous. haha. aku rindu banget sama kamu kok. its been ages since we meet each other. xo ya, went round & round northpoint. she asked me out but end up im the one shopping. HAHA.

bought a red sleevless from G2000. thengzx to adeq for indirectly blanja-ing me (: bought my foundation powder. kirimkan pooh bear for adeq for mama's burfdae present. bought a comb to replace the broken pathetic one. than went to eat at BK. oh, i saw fyqa. hello ! :D

than rounding rounding again at northpoint. nothing better to do laa. haha. after a while, decided to go home. than saw indah :D wa rindu sama lu babe. 804-ed home. enjoy enjoy enjoy my day with ayun a.k.a lil sis cuzzy a.k.a junior :D u made my day. thengzx babe (:

came back home & adeq too just got back from tuition. she's getting ready to meet mama at northpoint & xo i followed to northpoint, AGAIN. aku patah aleq laa. mama in skinnies :D walked araound. mama was looking for a new purse. adeq was looking for a new pencil case. im looking for a new pair of white sneaker. adeq at last bought OP pencil case. 18 bucks. nice oi ! && i like that OP black & red file. super nice. mama din get her purse. i got my new pair of white sneaker. & also bought new hot pink shoelace :D hapie siols. like at last.

mini toons jual patung patung taik. wakakaka ! i forgot to buy my contact lens =.= i forgot to buy adidas perfume =.= i forgot to go & trim my lion's-mane-to-be hair =.= STM STM STM :X ish ish ish. niwae, than 804-ed home. saw my pri skewl & sorie i forgot ur name fren :X niwae, hello ! :D miss my pri skewl frens.

y izzit now everybody is having problems. conflicts. haix.. i hate to see all of these happening. to myself & the ppl around me. zalikha, dun think too much babe. anitink u can talk me sis. be strong. wani, u t0o. never give up on sumone u love very much. a reminder from my cuzzy. thengzx sis. i just want all of these to end SOON. so that everyone could have a hapie ending.

2008-04-17T19:10:00.005+08:00

oh yea, today just an A-OK day for me. just the usuals. adeq indirectly blanja me. she gave me $10 & told me to buy & replace my white sleeveless top which got dirty. but the xtra amount i top up laaa. thengzx lots sis. how sweet of u deq (: went to skewl early. did my maths which is half way done. how i hate VECTORS. urgh. borrowed irfan's work & damn, i only got 2 correct answers. pathetic laa.

morning assembly sucks like hell. P treated us like kids sial. oh c'mon, we're in secondary & not in primary laa okay. MT, had listening compre. was okayyyy. history was the usual. all about hitler. physics was super okay & sheesh, i forgot to do the humwerk :X maths, G pathetic siols. like WTH. is not as if we do not want to do. it's that we do not know how to solve it. where else can we get the ans from other than u !? sucky freak laaaa ! english, 2 periods. gerek ! went to CR3 to record our voices to practice for our oral. computer was according to our register no. had to share computer with dragon cuz the so-called mine is spoilt & still it is not repaired. how pathetic. funnie laa elson. hello ? hello ? hello ? HAHAHAHA. dragon also. the way he reads. was HAHAHAHA. laughing non stop. mrs liew kinda pissed off with the class. pathetic.

after skewl met zalikha. ate than went back to class. maths remedial. how boringggggg. went thru last year syllabus. the graph tingy. my mind was total absolute blank. i cant recall a single tink about it & that's y i kinda struggle just now. 2 hrs of remedial on just 2 qns. yea, sounds pathetic. elson cant shut his mouth laaa :D G tak gerek uh seyh.

after remedial tot of asking ayun to meet me & accompany me to buy my top but nah. am tired so decided to postpone it to next tymp. went home with gernette. than daus came. gernette went off ferst cuz im taking 811 without E. daus was with me. we talked about pasar malam. HAHA. && also my small black sling :D aku rindu burger ramly laaa. HAHA. okay, random-ness :D

otw back home, saw irul & his gurl, aina. awww, sweetness. lepak with them a while before irul send his gurl home, just 2 blks away from my house. heh. gerek laa them. aina & me just met a few tymps but we're really close with each other. sisters beb. lepak or go out again aite beb. wa da rindu sama lu :D irul, u still owe me chocolate ! HAHA.

y do now, many ppl change ? it's kinda irritating i dunno y. its suck-ish u know.

asl ngan kau aleh aleh nak 'serang' pat aku ? tak faham. is like so suddenly. ade pape le bobal pe. tak ya nak carik pasal uh seyh. that's so not matured. i tink u shud be ashame cuz u can be considered older than me though in the same year, GROW UP ! mentang mentang da de guy, luperkan kwn kwn seme. baeq uh kau !

2008-04-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

hoho ppl. skewl was an okay-one todayy. to skewl alone cuz zalikha wanted to go earlyyy. i was feeling really giddy but lucky i cud manage myself. came to skewl, tied my hair & sheeesh. forgot to buy & replace my pathetic skewl comb. yea, skewl comb. i have seperate combs for home & skewl. HAHA.

MT, boringggggg. chemistry, yessa ! free period like at last :D physics was super okayy. pay full attention laa :D history, boringgggg. punyer laa mendak. recess, ate the so-called spaghetti, malay version. HAHA. super delicious ! english, i almost slept in class. SS, free period. maths, pathetic 2 periods. damn it. i almost cried when we were given a mini quiz on vectors. i know NOTHING. im not joking. absolute zero understanding ! this is really pathetic. assembly was okay okay. been listening to the same old topic on drugs for the past 4 years. pffffft.

i then went home with zalikha. daus came along too. bought bubble tea first as usual & also cheese fries. than daus went home while zalikha & myself 800-ed home. had my bath, change & than went out to mit wani. sorie daus u had to wait for us. went to photocopy sumtink. nice. sweet darkness :D it was raining HEAVILY. takle angst babe. wetwetwetwetwet. bus-ed ourselves to yishun library.

than search for books for our art research. pathetic laaaaaaa. not a lot of books about birds =.= manage to get ONE & lucky it's a good one. borrowed a storybook too to read. smangat laa seyh :D im addicted to reading xpecially about life & love (: happiness. sadness. sweetness.

after that went to northpoint. wani wanted to print sum fotos. than went to LJS to eat. hungry like again =.= than went back to np to collect the fotos. alemak blur laa. chose the wrong pic. pfffft. daus kept admiring my bag :D i know cuz im the one who chose it. HAHAHA. kay kay, was only joking.

than daus went separate ways. wani & myself 800-ed ourselves to our usual lepak-ing spot. talked about her parents & my mom's attitude. criouz talk laa, it sucks. we both cant stand their attitude. binget siols ! wani was already wanting not to go home. just the feel that's it. actually, me myself to dont feel like going home. we are given a total freedom, NO. damn it. pls laa, we are no more kids. we need our teens freedom. ppl may think that im given freedom but in fact i go against my mom cuz i cant stand being at home all day. im an extrovert. i love the outside world.

at around 9PM we went home. i was kinda tired. energy is going down. this always happens when exam is drawing near. weird. my hp will start to go 'upside down'. internet connection at my laptop will start to lag. all this will be back to normal only after my exams. this sounds really weird 0.o

i've decided not to do any humwerk. im tired & my fingers are slowing down cuz im going to bed soon. HAHA. okay craps. *yawn*

im sick & tired of being nag cuz of my poor results in studies. eyyy hello ! here i am trying my best to cope & there u are saying im being lazy & not wanting to improve myself. u said u understand wad im going thru but wad izzit that u understand ? oh c'mon, ur zaman & my zaman are totally different. the standards now have gone up. higher. get it ? im trying to cope with the express studies. im so use to the NA standard for the ferst 2 years in sec but im put into an express class in sec3, of cuz i need tymp to get use to the so-called life. it's hard for me to cope in just a few mths okay. urgh. i just wish i was back in NA. it wud be much easier for me. i told u to sign & tick do not agree but u urself put agree. hey ! are u or am i going thru skewl huh ?! it's bcuz of that stoopid decision of urs that im in this suffering state. urgh ! geram laaaaa.

supergirlYsuperboi (:

2008-04-15T18:50:00.002+08:00

as for today, it is boringggg. like really. punyer laa mendak. woke up in the morning & im so totally not in the mood. was sad + moody + frustrated + fed up. urgh. im so not looking forward to today. mama wad hal. kwn biken kecoh. cher biken pasal. urgh !

went to skewl with zalikha. wani came afterwards. told them what happened & i felt better. at least they are the ones who understands. the bus was super late laa. was almost late for skewl. pfffft.

history, did not pay attention cuz i was sleeping :X maths was okayyyy. have to do my maths practice. takpe. aku nga smangat untok maths :D MT boringggg. came to class & JUST got to know that we're having a test. cikgu did not tell us. like wth laa. rushing thru the qns but still did not manage to finish the paper. darn it ! SS, free period.

next 5 periods was art. the first 3 periods, we could slack a lil cuz mdm loy will only come to class at 1pm. the last 2 periods. i did nothing much. was looking for artefacts & specimens to draw. cant make up my mind so decided to just colour the drawings i've done yesterday nite. topic chosen is, flora & fauna. kinda boring one but im not interested in the other topics. from the sea, many are doing it. i dont wanna compete with them :D unusual perspectives, done it for this year's test. enlarge, done it last year. odds & ends, i have no idea on what izzit about. ascending, not interested at all. what's left is the topic which im doing now.

after skewl the sec4E & 5N malay students had oral. darn it ! i can read but i dont tink i make it in the conversation part. i just cant translate wadever i wanted to say in malay. instead i use a lot of english words & end up having the teacher to think that i have nothing to say & that i dont understand the qn. i really do understand the qn it is just that i cant translate the words to malay. wasted. sheeesh.

after oral, waited for dear. he send me home (: i was about to open the house door when my adeq pop from the bec. it may sound lame but i got shock with my mouth open & big eyes. HAHAHA.

oh gawsh. lots of humwerk ; art ; 6 more observational drawings. 15-20 developments. 8-12 possible layouts. 4-6 colour schemes. gotta finish everything cuz on the 29th april will be having mock exam before the MYE on 2nd may. maths ; paper 1 & 2 to practice for MYE & O level. O level MT coming real soon. i want an A2. i gotta buck in a lot of my subjects. in fact, all of them ! im rushing for time & lucky that im in NA through train cuz i have an xtra year to prepare for O's.

there's a lot of things i wanna achieve. the things i wanna achieve :-
- buck up !
- not too slack so much.
- put aside all the unnecessary stuffs.

MYE.
*hoping to improve cuz i failed all subjects for CA1 & only pass malay & art*
- English C6
- Maths C6
- C.science(phy,chem) C6
- C.Humanities(SS,hist) C6
- Malay B4
- Art B3

O level '08.
- malay A2 .
- C6 maths. (i'll be more than hapie since i've been getting an F9)

Health.
- not to get sick often.
- to eat accordingly everyday (cuz i've been skipping meals)
- Drink more plain water than drinking sweet drinks.

im gonna try my very best to achieve all of the above. my priority now is my studies. ceyh ! but really, im gonna concentrate on my studies. for the more upcoming ones is to pass all my subjects in MYE. if i achieve that, it is gonna be my history in my upper sec life :D

gotta memorise for tomorrow's history test. jiayous to everyone for ur MYE ! =D

2008-04-14T17:10:00.003+08:00

oh well. today is a not-so-good day for me. went to skewl with zalikha. wani than came afterwards. i almost trip on the 811 busteps. paiseyh siols ! came to skewl, tie my hair & my comb ; the 'teeth' rather was broken. pffffft. luckily wani came in to the toilet just in time.

assembly was normal. today's IN newspaper there's nothing interesting. so boringggggg. english was okay & i accidentally hand in my halfway-done humwerk :X physics, free period. mr saktun was not in skewl. i want physics seyh. did my maths pre-test with gernette's help. next 2 periods, PE. those who failed any of the NAPFA stations are suppose to re-do. those who wants to play games could go & play. im none. i passed my NAPFA & was not in the mood for games. continued my maths. thengzx gernette for the help. damn ! i might have at least got 13 out of 25 marks rather than the pathetic 9 marks. sheeeesh. than a few minutes before recess, sat with wani, atikah, rasul & fayyad. wani was super belo laaaa. HAHA. rasul call me & wani minah seyh. wad seyh. chemistry, sucks. english, again & i slept in class. i was criouzly super duper tiredddddd. lucky mrs liew did not caught me sleeping :X another 2 periods of chemistry & it was okayy i guess. i dont understand the chapter on metals. darn it. i cried. maths was okay. mdm loy came in before maths. she issued us a paper each to the art students. the instructions for what has to be done on a certain date for our art MYE. i still am thinking of what topic to choose.

after skewl, went home with gernette. met lina, ina, iqa, irul, fiq & yul at our usual spot with our skewl uniforms. HAHA. all of us were lazy to go home ferst. but they accompany me to put my bag down at home ferst. heavy sia my bag. patah tangan sebla aku. we hang around as usual. we chat a lot cuz its been a long time since we get together & lepak. one common thing, all of us are facing our own problems. is this the time for problems to surface ? haix.. i just hate it when problem arise. it makes me mad. it makes me feeling sad. it made me tear for hours. that is why sometimes my eyes look kinda swollen.

came bec home. had my bath & put on the clothe that my late father bought for me. i miss him badly :( my life change after he left the world.

checked my friendster. thengzx falena jack for editing my pics (: sumone says i look like baby doll. HAHA. faieq got HIGH after drinking red bull. LOL. indah, my sis wants to apply part time job with me for camwhoring. HAHA. wani, my lepak partner cum kakak =D mash, my lil miss slenge sis (: fatinfilzah, my twin (: yanna, my kakak =D zalikha, my fazzy babe cum pari dance partner =D ayuNisa, my adeq sedare cum junior =D syaiful, my dear (: pearl, my one-day stead. HAHA. love u ppl lots laa !

oh gawsh ! lots of humwerk. day by day is piling up like soon it's gonna be like mount everest. im not joking. it's piling ! sheeesh. i just hate sec4 life. the skewl part rather. i guess it's just the way life is. no choice. everywhere we go we need EDUCATION. darn it. how i wish i could go back to my childhood days. where my late father would still be around. my mom who cooks delicious food & even cakes. younger sis who dont quarell like now. everything seemed to be so carefree. how i wish.

MYE coming real soon ! its raining heavily with thunder & lighting. brrrrrrrr. im feeling cold even with my long sleeves & long pants + my comforter. the prob is solved. im just oh so freaking damn hapie that it has ended & that we're bec together like we use to be =D

sorie frens if i reply to u all late at MSN. im online for a purpose. so, sorie ya. anitink just leave a msg & i'll try my best to reply ASAP. easy one, anitink sms my hp. thengzx.

ily dear ! (:

2008-04-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

12 April 2008

this update is for yesterday ; 12 april 08. i really had fun & enjoyed myself. woke up late cuz on the 11 april i was chatting till the next morning :D had my bath. get changed & went to mc to meet wani. kiterorg sempat touch-up kat tandas mac. haha.

we than went to np to have our lunch or what wani kol 'brelunch' breakfast + lunch. haha. shared carrot cake & bought drinks. aku blanje air laa. haha. than went to touch-up again. girls. HAHA. quickly go to yishun MRT to meet zalikha. sorie we're late babe. met up the rest at khatib MRT last cabin. xenosis were there t0o. they went off ferst cuz fan & wan was late. zal was feeling not too good. zal, kau tak le cam gini tau. must at leaz mamam siket. nanti kau saket cm ne ? risau tau aku.

than when everybody was here, MRT-ed ourselves to dhoby ghaut. daus says my blue contact lens are nice & he wants to dug my eyes out. HAHA. than bus-ed ourselves to national stadium. watched the bands from different schools play & OPSS manage to get a silver. congrats.

at around 6pm ? we move off. hungry laa. xo pearl brought us to this place at bugis to eat. shared with wani but end up letting her eat cuz the noodle was so spicy. cant take it. my spicy-ness level not high. haha. after eating we hang out & walked at bugis street. it's really tempting for me to buy clothes, accecories, shoes, bags ! & wan keeping stepping on my shoe. haha !

than decided to go home. MRT-ed home. zal & irfan alight at yishun i guess. wan, wani, myself & pearl alight at khatib. pearl & myself head to khatib mc cuz we're still hungry. haha. wani send wan home. awwww, so sweet (:

she came to meet us after that, smiling. iWANi. get what i mean ? nvm. read on to know more okays. sat at mac, chit chat & was laughing about one of wani's foto. skirt sak. HAHAHAHA. than walked to pearl's blk. lepak lepak jap. snap 2 pics. after a while, pearl went home ferst. wani & me was looking for a good lighting spot to syiok sendiri. amek gambar laa aper lagi. HAHA.

we than decided to head bec to mcdonalds. was otw when we saw one big cockroach. we run pass it like a mad person. HAHA. frankly, we're really afraid of that blackish brown creature. at around 11:15pm we decided to head home. 811-ed home.

came home at around 12PM. had my bath than went MSN-ing. chatted till 3AM. than went to get some sleep. sorie wani, aku tak le reply msg kau. nta asl.

Last long WAN & WANI =D

wish u couple many hapie & sweet moments.

13 April 2008

super tired. urgh ! gotta finish up my humwerks. & there's a lot to be done in sucha short tymp. MYE coming real soon ! im not prepared :X

edited some of yesterday's fotos. uploaded a few in friendster. uploaded here in my blog t0o. a total of 60 fotos yesterday ! a history for my hp. HAHA.

im tired to do any humwerk. i shall ONLY do maths today. that is if i know how to solve the sums. wani called just now & said that she quarell with her brother just bcuz of transformers !? HAHAHAHA. kekek seyh.

i've been munching sweets non stop. darn, i dun wanna have decay laa. ugly seyh if there's 'goalpost' wen smile. HAHAHA. of cuz i brush my teeth laa not like _____. not to be mentioned. hahah. the mouth of _____ stinks like hell. *vomit* okay, im mean i know :D

tomorrow, monday. sux !! 3 stoopid periods of chemistry =.=

2008-04-11T23:30:00.001+08:00

okayyyy. update for today. MT, 2 periods, boringgggg. english, had spelling ; 19/20 :D SS, superrrrrr boringggg. recess, copied humwerk :X maths, suck. i failed my maths test, again D: Lskills, about the study smart & study hard stuffs.

after skewl, met zalikha. sat at the canteen with zalikha, irfan, ridzwan, wani. talking & laughing away. at around 2:30 we went off. zalikha went home while wani & me 859-ed to sun plaza.

bought eyebrow pencil. went to THIS FASHION looking for what to buy & wear for tomorrow. was like thinking of just what to wear. cm stress gitu. HAHA. than we decided to wear simple. being simple. skinnies & sleeveless top with pump shoe. simple ? okay go ! wani bought one black one for herself. i decided to wear white one tomorrow. i so like that 40 bucks dress & that 30 bucks mini skirt seyh. next shopping list ? HAHAHA.

after that, waited in the queue for 859 & than look at the watch & realise that it was already 4:30pm & that later we have class at nyte. rabak rabak. 859-ed than 800-ed home. had my bath & than met wani. sorie i was late babe. xo ya, sms-ed nisa to mit us at nothpoint mcdonald as wani & me was going dere to buy sumtink.

was sitting at mc than nisa came. zalikha & pearl was with us t0o. zalikha sms me that she wants to meet us. xo ya. they had PTM. lucky that my claz will be next year. phew !

after that they went home. nisa, wani & me 800-ed to madrsah. we were really tired. sleepy. we went for class, super late. i dont give a damn to the class aniway. && fed up siak aku. aku nyer hal laa seyh. susa asl sak ? mak aku tk cakap pape pon. heran betol laa aku. pape laa ehk. shitta :D

we only had like only half an hour of the class. HAHA. gerek laa. malas seyh. nak quit, mama tak bagi. ape seyh. pape laa. we din do any of the work given. i criouzly dont give a damn. say watever u want cuz my ears are SHUT ! its my lyfe & u are in no position to control.

class finish at 9pm. snap some pics with wani than went home. tot of going out again to mit steadies but sorie peeps. im tired.

cam minah tudung sak. HAHAH :D

&& tomorrow i have a date with pearl. HAHAHAHAHAHA :D

2008-04-10T21:10:00.001+08:00

woke up early for no reason. had more tymp to get ready & prepare skewl stuffs. was packing my skewl bag & i found $2. HAHA. came to skewl with my mp3 stuck in my ears. && i suddenly totally love one song. hit or miss by new found glory. repeat the song a few tymps. hehe. came to skewl & was tinking about the prob. its really stoopid seyh. okay watever.

before lessons, watched the band performance for the SYF. MT was boringggggg. history, i was so sleepyyyyy. physics was fine. maths, suck. english, report writing test & i write super longgg laa. in the end, it MIGHT be the wrong facts. darn it ! HAHA. so paiseyh laa like that :X but overall, i was not in the mood to study xcept for physics :D was so sleepyyyy all the way.

after skewl, went home with gernette. my hair is 'in place' today. if u get wad i mean. okay, but it sounds so not right. HAHA. firman, stop koling me mariam laaa. tak suker seyh. niwae, 811-ed home. had my bath. get change & met dear. sorie i was late. njoyed the tymp with u dear (: than meet wani.

off to northpoint. was looking for eyebrow pencil but the one im using is no where to be found. going down to sembawang tomorrow to buy it, maybe. wani went home. i went down to causeway to meet my frens. lepak lepak jap. told them about my prob. thengzx u guys for the advice (:

MSN-ing. than daus send me 2 video clips from youtube. kekek siots ! funnie to the max. HAHAHAHA. click to watch it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wk51lfLfIQ&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flTqYYRTIZc&feature=related
laugh ur ass out :D

daus, nombor 2 nampak. hehehehe. WANi. hehehehehe. this year, it is like everybody has got that special sumone with them. in a relationship or not but styl there will b this sumone who has got our heart. & it happend this year wen we are in sec4. even my frens t0o. in sec4 this year. it is like, woah ! but sweeeeeeeeeeet (:

elson send me an sms. was like LOL. haha. thank god tomorrow is friday. tapi, alaa, besok ader madrasah uh. wani tompang my class. maybe her cuzzy t0o. tomorrow going for the band SYF. the rest couple couple. than tomorrow me & pearl will b the couple of the day. haha :D

i've save quite a bit. woah ! im saving it without anyone's help for the ferst tymp. w0oh0o ! hahaa. recived MYE timetable yesterday. gawsh ! it is coming real soon. its super fast ! if i cant even make it in the MYE, i dunno what to say. i guess i slacked too much ? still thinking on wad topic to do for my art paper 2. all the topics are, boringggggggg.

just one thing to mums & dads, (ceyh !) the generation now is different. boiz & gurlz are equal now. no more of that gurls cannot stay out too late or watsoever. so KUNO !

2008-04-09T20:00:00.002+08:00

i just feel that skewl on wednesdays are LONG. it bores me. niwae, in the morning, i cried while bathing wen the tot of the prob came to my mind. just hope that it will end soon. real soon i mean.

MT, free period. chemistry test, no hope :( physics lesson was great. paid full attention :D history was okay. english was preetaye fine. SS test, no hope :( wasted seyh ! maths, 2 periods. was kinda great. lots of humwerk laaaaaa. assembly, another free period.

after skewl, outsyde the classr0om. ish ! wani, tak sangke seyh. heheheheehe. than went to causeway point with wani. tot of piercing bec but the person in charge today is a guy. dont like laaaaaa. xo, decided to hang arawnd dere. was looking for a top. went to metro & i was so in love with that KAPPA haversack. so preetaye ! 5o bucks oi. no intention to buy actually. && i saw kak yanna ! :D kak, i miss u so much !

after that, 962-ed to sun plaza. went to this fashion. i so like that dress. 40 bucks ! after that, 859-ed bec to yishun. walked arawnd northpoint. than 800-ed to our usual spot. lepak lepak jap. than went home.

was feeling so tired. dunno if im doing my humwerk or not. felt like going to bed early todayyy. at least tomorrow skewl starts late.

i so cant wait to be 18. freedom bebeh ! okay laaaaa. there's nutink else to sayyy. im just t0o lazy to type any longer. byee !

i cant help to solve ur probs but i can be a listening ear (:

2008-04-08T19:15:00.004+08:00

& today was ANOTHER typical skewl day. i felt like taking an MC today. i do have a REAL sickness for not coming okay. HAHA. but i wonder where do they get fake MCs ? o.0 okay okay. today went to skewl alone cuz zalikha is werried about her syg. awww, so sweet (: my leg hurts with the skin peeled off. yes. ouch !

history was okay & i pay FULL attention for the first tymp ! :D next period, had maths test & damn ! wasted seyh. the qn that i really know how to do gone to waste. was about to write & "pens down". MT, free period. ss was okay & again i pay FULL attention :D i just realise that today i pay FULL attention for my combined humanities. HAHA.

next 5 periods was art & i din know that to day there's art test. i was like " huh !? damn ! i din bring my art works " wasted seyh, again. din manage to finish wadever that has to be finished. observation drawings ; drawn 3 out of 6 without colouring. modification ; done 12 out of 15. im xo not gonna pass my CA test 3 :(

after skewl i went home. i was feeling not t0o good. came bec home, had my bath & than went to meet dear. i miss him so much ! & dear, u notie seyh ! HAHA.

wanted to upload a few more of ytd picchas but blogger gave me probs. wanted to use photobucket but also giving me probs. pffffft. next tymp huh. im so lazy to go skewl tomorrow. oh ya, having chemistry & SS test tomorrow. have to really revise. my weak weak subjects :X

im saving money for a lot of stuffs. yay ! i din ask money from my mom to get wadever i want apart from my monthly skewl allowance laa. hehehe. independent laa gitu. HAHA. but im not allowed to work till i complete my O levels she said. oh well. studies first. ceyh ! HAHA.

im still not satisfied with mama. sad case seyh. mak sendiri cm gini. haix.. naper org panggil aku minah nie ? ish ! rabak seyh. pape laa ehk krgs. kau panggil aku minah kan lina, aku pon panggil kau minah. sajak uh gitu babe. HAHA :D okay, aku rindu sgt sgt pat steadies ! ble mau kuwa togeder togeder agik ? calling calling tau.

& oh, gotta start doing my prep work for art MYE. 3 weeks to prepare everitink. sounds like there's a lot of tymp but nah. its to0 short. still deciding on wad topic to choose. im so gonna have to buck up ! i nid encouragement. HAHA. okay craps.

after reading, tag okay ? for those who dont know, it's on the right side. under 'okay talk now ppl' okay laa. this sound super lame. but im shutting my ears & trying to do sumtink else to not hear the nag. urgh !

i want freedom !

byees !

2008-04-07T21:50:00.002+08:00

okay. im xo gonna update today. dunno for wad reason that i really feel like blogging. okay, sounds so, watever. HAHA. niwae, today's post gonna have lorts of picchas. uploaded all the pics today from my hp. Unedited. all are ORIGINAL. heheh.

& so today was another typical day of skewl. as for me, mondays always suck after recess ; for the lessons only laa. the day started with assembly wic i felt like going to the front & say hey stop treating us like kids okay ! i was like so fed up laa. had to repeat singing skewl song. lame laa okay.

english was kinda funnie. physics was interesting. was paying attention :D next two periods was PE. wooho0 ! i like. haha. quickly get changed. re-take my 2.4km run & i passed ! 15s faster than last year ; 15mins 45s. HAHA. was like sweating & felt like jumping into a pool of nice co0l water. after recess was chemistry & the class got scolded for like no reason ? like watever laa ehk ! next was english again, okay laa. next two periods was chemistry again & it sux to the max ! maths was free period. yes !

after skewl, met zalikha & pearl. zalikha met her darling ferst & than went bec home together. zalikha & me went to mc ferst to eat cuz i was feeling hungry. after that 811-ed to northpoint. walked around northpoint. i want to buy ZA makeup set. saving money :D after that 800-ed home.

came home. called daus bec cuz he called me 4 times & i din get to pick it up. after that, had my bath. got change & than went to mit zalikha at 5:15PM. after returning our books we meet wani & daus to lepak. fulemak ! gerek ! we were really very childish. but watever it is, it is hell yeah fun :D

wani berjiwang jap uh tadi. maklom laa nga rindukan R. hehehehe. we snap lorts of fotos. kiterorg punyer laa belo. we were like laughing our ass off. non stop of laughters & we played block catching. HAHA. ya i noe it sounds childish but fun. haha. zalikha & wani look like they were kissing in one of the pics. HAHAHA.

we were really enjoying & having so much fun. make lorts of noise & hack kaiire to wad ppl say. HAHA. at around 7:30PM we head home. wani went home ferst. zalikha & me accompany daus till he get on the bus. he told us sumtink. daus, go for it :D

& oh, HAPIE BURFDAE PEARL ! :D

dear, i miss you a lot. ily (:

2008-04-06T14:00:00.001+08:00

5 april 2008

okay. update for yesterday. i woke up with my eyes red for dont know what reason. for the whole morning i did was, NOTHING. punyer laa mendak. adeq went for her SYF practice. mama came bec & we started to talk. A LOT. really.

we talk about whole lot of stuffs. i just realize that mama was like so open minded siol ! i was like shocked for a moment. we talk & talk & talk & talk & i forgot that im going out that day. HAHA. i was like so blur laa.

i quickly take my shower & got changed. 800-ed to the bustop at 174 to meet wani. sms her & she told me to give her another 5 mins. byk dier nyer 5 mins. lambat seyh. HAHA. after that 965-ed to causeway. walk walk around, bought sum stuffs than 965-ed bec to yishun.

went to pearl's bbq at orchid park condo. gerek-ness ! =D manage to snap 2 picchas. blurr laa seyh. we LAUGH a lot. kekek siol satu satu. had a shawt karaoke session. jiwang babe. but gerek :D after that walked around the condo. nice place.

we were like really tired after that. stedies told me to cum down to usual to ton but sorie peeps i din manage to cum down. i was really tired. at 10:30PM, went home with nadz, wani, daus, irfan & zalikha. nadz went to take MRT. irfan went home. the rest of us 811-ed to interchange. daus went home in another bus. zalikha, me, wani 800-ed home. super tired. was like yawning all the way home. came bec home at 11:55PM. had my bath & went to bed.

dear sms me & teman me till i go to bed. how sweet (: ily !

6 april 2008

today not going out. plan, cancelled. once again, sorie peeps. i really cant make it. im having fever though its not high fever. but my throat is killing me. its burning. want to swallow food really difficult seyh. doctor said i cud not eat spicy food & chocolates ! i was like, argh ! i like spicy f0od but not to the max one & chocolates are my everyday drug. pffffft =.= oh well.

MSN-ing with ADIPURE, wani, indah. wani is not in the mood for humwerk-ing & studying. im also the same case as her. im still tired from yesterday. *yawn*

alemak ! i feel like running away from home sial ! mama tak abes abes bagi perangai siol ! tk pasal pasal nk marah aku. asl sak !? aku betol betol tk paham sak prangai dier. sorie to say but kdg kdg cam sial ! CB. sorie uh. but aku tak le angkat uh. its like t0o much ! mmg betol dier tetap mak aku. but really this is t0o much ! mama pls laa ehk ! atin betol betol rase rimas laa pat uma ngan prangai mama cam gitu. rase cm pat penjare seyh. the place wic is kold home is not a home to me at all ! one more tink. plss laa. stop controlling me. im not a bird whom u can cage me up okay ! im a human being. im already in my teens & u still treat me like im a 3-4 year old kid. criouz talk. i really hate ur attitude ! cm sial !

i want freedom !!!!!!!!!

2008-04-04T16:45:00.001+08:00

i guess i shud just forget about it ? oh well i guess i shud. im confused. i just dont get it. why is she always picking on me. fed up ! it is like she's putting all the blame on me without even investigating or even to ask me. that really pissed me off. i really cant take it for the way you behave towards me. though u are my mother but still u cant treat me this way. im still a human being okay. i do have feelings. im 16 now & u are the only one who knows me well. but now it is as if u dont understand me. at all. sedih seyh :(

u told me to tell u if there's anything that im not happy about or watsoever. i told u but still u are, the same. no change. at all. i wrote a full 4-page letter to u. i did that cuz i don wanna hurt u, directly. i dunno how else to. but i guess that's the only way i cud tell u how i felt. wic is by writing to u a letter. sorie ma, but really u are being UNFAIR to me. u want to know the truth ryt. ya that's the truth. i've written everything. the way i felt. the way u behave or react about me. the way u treat me & adeq. ALL i have written inside. it's up to u now. sorie to say it, again. mama pilih kasih ! *crying* that really hurts me, a lot. how sad :(

why cant i just be, happy ? im always sad. 2008 has been a bad year for me & it's only 4 mths. okay, lyfe still has to go on. but i can say im blessed. i have steadies, i have cuzzins, i have frens, i have fazzy babe & i have my dear who can make me happy & smiling. i love u ppl a lot (:

niwae, skewl was just okay. MT free period. 2 periods babe. sat with pearl, man & rasul. rasul played a lame magic trick just now. HAHA :D did my maths pre-test. english, mrs liew got angry with the class =.= ss, as usual, the notes. maths was okay. thengzx daus for the help in pre test just now. Lskills, boringgggggggg. & true enuff im under the pressure of stress. sad seyh.

after skewl. went lepak-ing with wani. today was super hot. phew !~ oreo choc bubble tea our drug laa. haha. the usual. walked arawnd 200+. sat at the place near 253. than arawnd 3pm went to library tompang toilet. haha. my hair was like, MESSY. malu nyer aku. HAHA. paiseyh paiseyh *cover face* haha. than went bec home.

alaa..aku malas uh nak gi madrasah nari. like so not in the mood. aku da naeq sedap slalu ponteng. but im FORCED to go today. like watever laa. wani, jumper kau nanti ehk.

MSN-ing with wani, FR, aisyah, irul & lina. fuyyoh ! the gerek ppl laa oi. FR asyek kol aku jek tau. kdg kdg naeq malas aku. haha. sorie uh dok. maen maen jek. but still kau tetap kwn aku :D && jgn luper chocolate aku tau ! HAHA. & oh, FR, aku bukan minah okay. that's just the way i m laa. btw lina, i dont trim my eyebrow myself. i went to suhavana to trim my eyebrow.

okay laa. that's all. nk brambos uh. oh ya, pape cn msg me at my usual no. hp aku da okay ! :D HAHA.

2008-04-03T20:40:00.001+08:00

today was okay. skewl starts at 8:30 but went to skewl early with zalikha. met wani t0o at canteen. MT was gerek with all of us singing. it became a muziq class instead of malay. the class sang 'cinta arjuna' & cikgu sang the chinese version 'tong hua' (sorie if it is the wrong spelling). gerek :D history was just okay. physics was super fine. maths was like, urgh. i got pissed off la. stop picking on me can ? just bcuz im SLOW in understanding maths. last two periods was english & its super boringggggg. suppose to do compre but i end up doing only 2 qns & talking to wani.

niwae, after skewl i went home. my ears are stuck with my mp3. purposely turn the volume to 20. i just wanna shut off the noise around me. ROCK bebeh ! haha. im criouzly getting addicted to one song. super sweeeeeeeeet la. been repeating the song for the whole morning otw to skewl. hehe.

xo ya, got home. get change & mit wani at my blk. walked to mcdonalds & had ice cream. talked about stuffs. than 804-ed to 300+. lepak at the new park area. listening to songs. than this NVPS boi laa kn. came to us saying " yo wassup, ckp ckp klua asap " wani & me was like, okay watever. lame sak dier. cm ader sinting pat kepale otak dier. HAHAHAHAHA. than it started to rain. i was like brrrrrrrr. it was real COLD. my nails turned blue-black. haha. saw my adeq, yg minah tu. haha. tak baeq ehk aku. ye aku evil. wani & me ran all the way to one of the void decks. wetwetwetwetwet ! freezing cold. brrrrrr. than 804-ed bec to usual stop. adeq went home. wani & me went to mc, bought fries than head to 273. lepak jap. chill chill. than 6:30 went home.

otw home saw kawans kawans ku. aper lagi. g lepak laa. haha. hang out with them but not for long. at 7:45 i head home. im feeling kinda tired. sorie kawans, i cant join u peeps. next tymp perhaps ? miss u all laa seyh.

im having flu like suddenly. okay sounds so weird. really weird. achooooo-ing non stop & the tissue in the box is finishing s0on cuz of me. HAHA. oh yea, friendster comments are all replied. lazy to update proffy. lazy to delete old pics. lazy to do watever that has got to do with friendster. da malas uh babe. xo be thankful that i at leaz reply to ur comments though it might be late. HAHAHAHA.

&& i dont get it why they kol me minah ? just bcuz i went to trim & shape my eyebrow & just bcuz i wear skinnies & just bcuz the way i dress they kol me that ? wad kind of theory is that laa siol ?! okay watever laa ehk krgs. krg aper kurang nyer. samer gak pe. pls laa. seblom ckp pape tgk diri sendiri. jgn malu kan diri pat org yg krg nk kenekan. kn da paiseyh. HAHAHA. kekek siol aku tgk muker muker krgs. btw, aku nye psl uh aku nk dress cm ne. krg susa asl ehk ? tk paham laa aku. krg nye dressing pon lagi open open tanak ckp. ehk, mak aku pon takde ckp pape laa ehk. okay watever it is. i dont give a f****** damn to ppl like krgs. a bunch of DL !

i have to tie up my hair wen going to skewl laa. haha. humwerks are piling up every single dayy & im getting sick & tired of it. seeing humwerks everyday is like, urgh ! i wanna go bec to primary skewl days. it is like so FUN & gerek to the max laa. okay laa. its impossible. im so in love with one song ! really. gotta change song in my blog. read the lyrics xpecially. oh so sweet !

okay laa. till here. gotta do my humwerks. a lot laa seyh =.=

2008-04-02T19:15:00.006+08:00

hello humans. & oh, i was kinda early in miting zalikha. yay ! haha. was tinking about stuffs in the morning. but i dunno really wad is going on in my mind. there was like so much stuffs that i was thinking but when i think bec, there's nothing i cud recall. hmm.. weird ?

niwae, MT was okay. just that the classroom stinks with the painted tables. chemistry was okay, i guess. physics was fine. was interested in the lesson :D history was like HAHAHAHA. funny seyh. recess & than it was english. was okay. went thru on how to get thru for our oral. heard the 3 different kind of pupils went thru their oral. one was superb. the second was okay. but the third one was HAHAHAHA. so monotone seyh. okay okay. i sound so mean laa. SS was like usual. copy notes. than 2 periods of maths. today's lesson was sucky ? im not interested for maths today. i dont know anitink about vectors. i do know but my mind t0ok real long to get the facts ryt. really. im SLOW. than it was assembly. upper sec for today's assembly. kekek gak. HAHA. about social ettiquets. dun mind the spelling. the speaker was like, kekek siol ! HAHAHAHAHA :D

xo after skewl met zalikha with wani. tied my hair. i felt really hot just now. panas dok. zalikha went for her rehearsal than. wani & me decided to lepak. she followed me home ferst to collect my hp & put my stuffs ferst. than head off to mcdonalds. ayun kold saying that she's coming down. xo ya. waited for her. helped her with the hp tingy. at mc saw a grp of nss stewdents. watever it is, chill ehk wani. than went to yishun library. after a while ayun went home. stayed with wani till about 6 ? than did our usual of the big round tingy. takpe laa kalo tk paham ehk. kiterorg nyer keje laa. haha. if u dont understand, than its okay :D

sat for a while at my blk & play with a cat. HAHA. wani kekek seyh. the foto above. our tired faces. heheh. came bec home. had my bath. water heater spoilt =.= the water was super cold laaaaa. okay watever.

i dont wanna be told to grow up ! pls laa ehk. adeq minah, kakak minah. uh. sajak laa tu. HAHA. asl ble jek. kay pape laa. i dont even know wad m i typing about. i guess only me understand it ? haha :D like ina said, i have not eaten my medicine yet & that's y my screw went a bit lose. HAHA.

internet is not working well. it either took real long to get connected or it will get disconnected like every 5 mins ? it irritates me. a lot. urgh !

okay im so lazy to do my humwerk laaaaa. i have only completed my physics wrksht :D malay, 2 comprehensions. maths, vectors =.= chemistry theory wrkbk. no use cuz i din bring bec any of my chemistry stuffs =.= im so getting tired with humwerks. boringggggggggg. okay watever.

oh i so cant wait to get that CRUMPLER bag ! saving money at the moment. a few more bucks & i can lay my hands on that treasure. HAHA. okay, i know that i sound really lame laa. haha. but i've been wanting to get that CRUMPLER bag. red or green ? hmm..

ily always(:

2008-04-01T19:10:00.002+08:00

these are the yesterday's pics.

Today was like so not in the mood laa. freaking bored. zalikha & me was almost late for skewl. sipi sipi sak. criouzly seyh. we were just in tymp. 1 min before we are the late comers. siol nyer bas laa. okay watever. & oh, hapie april fools day ! haha. though its lame.

niwae, assembly was like blablabla. history, free period. mr nair was kinda busy. copied maths humwerk. oops ! haha. maths next. was okay but mr goh said i nid xtra coaching & that's so ture. gonna ask mama to sign me up for tuition :D one to one will be a better choice. SS next & its another free period. ms koh absent from skewl. wani & me was like planning on how to save enuff money to buy the crumpler bag, everlast & kappa shoe. total count & its about 150 bucks ! rabak rabak. rabak gler maot aku tau. MT was next. laugh non stop. my cheekbones became painful. kekek seyh. HAHAHAHAHA. than it was maths. terrible. im getting more & more confuse with vectors. bingung seyh.

after that recez than 5 periods of art. gawsh ! super boring laa. colouring all the way. but the part that i like is wen its my turn to go to her & she xplain sum stuffs. i was so amazed. really. i was really jealous at their standards. its the 2007 O level students final layouts & prep werk. it was like wow ! xpecially their fashion designs. so beautiful ! & mdm loy even said, "cool ryt !" hehe. yeah i agree with her, super cool-ness ! how i wish i have that kind of creativity. *jealous*

after skewl met zalikha than accompany gernette who is waiting for her dad. she vomitted a total of 6 tymps during art lessons. take kaiire fren. than i went bec to claz for my maths remedial wic at first i felt like xcape. nk cabot. xo we went thru last year's topic ; trigonometry. wic i dont like. i din concentrate much cuz i was feeling really sleepy. cant tink properly. i was like OMG. i cant even solve a simple sum ?! was so shocked at myself. woah ! im really not prepared for O maths this year. its like a bit to0 faz of a tymp for me to catch up. i cant even do NA maths & now i have to take EXPRESS maths. stress laa gini macam.

after remedial. went home. wani was with me. than met my dear (: he send me home. & wani saw her 'members' jgn luper kirim salam pat drg babe. ramai member kau ehk. KAKAK rabak. lepak ngan drg tak ajak ADEQ. aper seyh. HAHA. kay kay. karot uh nie :D

aku panggil adeq aku minah. dier panggil aku aleq minah. sajak laa tu. HAHA. adeq beradeq katekan. karot siak. haha. kakak da cm gini adeq pon ikot samer. sajak. memang sajak. samer samer laa carik psl. HAHA :D

alemak. byk humwerk laa doks. finally it, rains. at least its much cooler. if not, the day wud be so freaking hot. takle tahan uh dok. panas terik sak. okay watever. DM ask me to tie up my hair laa. but at least she din caught that i dyed my hair. oops ! haha.

post for my two new frens ; khairil & lyana. they say i look decent. looks may be deceiving hunnies. heheh. im not the goody goody girl. im just a normal teenage gurl who likes to hang out & chill out with frens & who always cum bec home late nytes. i told them that & they dont believe a single tink. khairil, lyana, i noe u wont believe it but next tymp i'll ask u to cum along if i go lepak & u will noe that its the truth. i dont smoke or drink though my frens do. i dont kaiire. really. its their lyfe aniwae. it dosent mean anitink if i hang out with this kind of ppl. they are not just ppl. they are my frens. we had 10 years of frenship. i noe i've change. but sorie, thats just the way i m. but im glad u still accept me as ur fren (: u peeps said u wanna follow me the next tymp i lepak with my frens, i really dont mind. xo, if im going lepak-ing i'll ask u peeps to cum along t0o aites. looks may be deceiving yea.

tomorrow miting ayun. babe, aku rindu kau uh seyh. lamer tk jumper ehk. kau maken lamer maken rabak. rabak uh kau. HAHA. pape picit uh dok.

ala ! friendster went bonkers. i cant accept fren request. i cant reply comments. imeem t0o went bonkers. log in into my acc but after that cant click to go anywhere. watever. pape laa ehk. cant be bothered with it already. so, im sorie for any late replies or late acception for fren request.

i dont wanna lose u dear. ily(:

2008-03-31T21:00:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhh ! f****** shits laa ! my fone ; BLACKOUT ! out of a sudden. CB laa. fed up siak. my laptop bluetooth tingy went bonkers ! DB. wad a day laa today ! sorie for the language. not okay with it. brambos uh ! get the hell outta here laa kay.

& today skewl sux laa siak. xpecially puar lesson. like WTF laa. PUARLANG ! attitude sak dier. pls laa ehk. get a lyfe laa. jgn nak carik pasal ngan kiterorg uh sial. da laa kau tu bias ! ngan bangse kau jek uh. abe kiter yg mlayu ni aperhal siol ?! ukan anak murid kaper ?! RACIST gler maot sak. ish ! aku cm nk tumbok tumbok muker kau siak ! pls laa ehk jgn asyek nak carik pasal ngan aku atau wani laa ! CB. **** !

after skewl went home with zalikha, wani. zalikha din wanna follow. xo ya. had my bath. than got changed & mit wani & daus. went to mc to ameq aircon jap. than head off to usual, 273. did a bit of humwerk. i mean A BIT ONLY. haha. than took pics. upload next tymp laa. fone BLACKOUT uh ! than wani & me cm paiseyh laa. nemind. don wanna tok bowt it. haha. at 7pm went to np. walked arawnd looking for stuffs. than at arawnd 7:30, daus went off. wani & me 800-ed to our usual. walked another BIG round before heading home. we dont feel like going home but wani had to head home.

ARGH ! really seyh. today is sucha a bad day siol. if i noe i MC today uh & not last friday. ah ! PUAR like CB. than my hp BLACKOUT ! how m i gonna contact my frens & my dear ?! pls, dont wad hal laa hp. ahhhhhh ! i can go crazy without my hp WORKING ! *bonkers* sorie steadies. change mind. i wont be coming down to the usual to mit u peeps. & sorie dear, i'll get bec to u ASAP. i'll send my hp for repair tomorrow. ily & imy dear ! muah !

FED UP SIAK ! CB betol laa !

2008-03-30T18:10:00.000+08:00

29 March 2008

hello. did not update yesterday ; was not in the mood for blogging. xo ya. woke up at around 8:45am. pagi pagi kau da wad kecoh sak. nk tdo pon susa laa oi. binget siol ! niwae, had my bath & got changed. met dear (:

accompanied him to skewl & he has the flag day tingy. reminds me of myself, wani & daus when we had our flag day. step wad jek. padehal lepak nta kemane mane ajek. haha ! tapi gerek laa oi. okay, bec to where i stopped. was just really hapie that i got to spend tymp with him (:

went to causeway point. i sat down & they did their job. & the day was like super duper freaking hot ! received a call from ina saying that me, ina herself, iqa, aisyah, lina, yul, irul, shafiq, khairul are needed at the police station. it was like WTF ! mama knows about it. F****** shits !

dear send me home. 859-ed bec to yishun. than 800-ed home. dear, sorie i asyek kenakan u aleq. tapikan, fair & square i kene u kene. haha. i maen maen jek. thangzx for listening to my prob & thengzx for the advice t0o. ilysm ! (:

came bec home. mama decided not to lecture me cuz she said its no use cuz im not gonna listen. that's quite true actually. the whole day we did not talk. we give that 'i-dunno-you' look. i really feel lyk running away from home. i cant take it anymore with watever that is happening at home. it sux ! mama pilih kasih ! *cries*

told dear about it. sorie if i make u sad. i'll try not to cry over this anymore. bec to where i stopped. went down to the station. the interrogation was like for 2 hrs ! after the questioning, i cried. the rest t0o. 3 of us, detention. i cried my heart out. i was feeling so sad that it had to turn out this way :( mama wanted me to leave those frens of mine. i dunno wad to do next. shud i or shud i not ? im confused.

30 march 2008
woke up at 12am. called iqa up. she's awake, still. decided to call the rest up. conference thru yul's hp. seems that we cant sleep. tinking to0 much of it, i guess. we talked & talked. consoling one another. it was really sad. we decided to meet up later at 3pm.

stopped the talking at 3am. catch some sleep. woke up at 10am. mama, adeq went to JB with uncle, auntie. im still upset with mama. veryyyyy.

i tot about it. the one about mama saying she wants me to leave those frens of mine. i've come to a decision. im not gonna leave them. im still being frens with them. im not regretting my decision ma. sorie, but they are the people whom i call my frens & i treasure them a lot. how cud u xpect me to end my frenship with them ? its a 10 year frenship u r talking about. sorie, but that's my decision. steadies are the frens :D

okay. gotta do my humwerks. there's lots for me to catch up. maths ; vectors again =.= malay ; karangan & dialog. chemistry ; theory wrkbk. the chemical stuffs wic i dont get it =.= it's HALF WAY done. english ; composition. DONE. art ; 3 diff view drawings. i have no cultural items at home laa =.=

niwae, MSN-ing + humwerk-ing + blogging ryt now. o0oo0h, multi tasker seyh aku nie. step jek. haha ! chatting with zalikha. kekek sak ! HAHAHAHA. awak awak kiter kiter. haha. kiwakk. & the foto man send. aku ketawe sampai perot aku saket seyh. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. zal send me this song. 'No you hang up' by shayne ward. goodness ! its sucha nice song. im addicted to the song :D listen to it yaw ! the lyrics xpecially. she than went offline cuz nk _____. hahas ! was chatting half way with frens when suddenly my MSN went ................... i dunno wad happen. tried signing in again but styl its ............ watever laa ehk. sorie peeps !

mama & adeq came bec from JB already. they bought me spongebob keychain :D tags replied. relink-s done. friendster comments replied. friendster is going bonkers. once again. oh watever ! zal, im repeating the song again & again & again & again. i blame u for it. u made me addicted to the oh so nice song ! haha :D i told her bowt yesterday. paiseyh laa aku. babe, jgn lang saper saper tau. aku btol btol malu. da laa ramai org. *cover face*

pls, end this conflicts. i dont wanna break down, again.

2008-03-28T19:50:00.004+08:00

i ain't what you think.

im one stubborn bitch :D

i wanna be a barbie doll :D i wont have to suffer anymore hardships.

i did not attend skewl todayy. reason being, im having the stoopid menses cramps. terribly painful. woke up at araound 9am & was crying cuz i cant stand the pain. it's unbearable. slowly made my way to the toilet & had my bath. did not know what to do after my bath. xo i just went MSN-ing. chatting with ina. coolio ! she's on MC t0o for the same reason. coincidence ! haha ! was lauging my arse off ! funnie. kekek siols !

dear sms me saying he wants to mit me under my blk. i went down & mit him. he's fren were there t0o. i missed him xo much-ness ! spent some time together. than he & his fren went bec to skewl for watever tingy.

i went bec up home. wani sms me saying if i wanna go lepak. i said okay though im still kinda sick. but bcuz im gonna be super bored at home that i agreed. met wani than head off to mcdonalds. the afternoon was lyk blazing hot ! phew ! it's pocking thru the skin. went to mc, bought mcFlurry, sat down & amek aircon. heheh. talked about lots of stuffs. otw to mcdonalds, saw abg mamat ! :D

than she accompanied me to the doctor. thengzx babe. i've got gastric laa. like, again. im always having gastric although i usually eat at least a lil. hate the medicines laa. it cost me 26 bucks. after that went to continue lepak. lepak pon le continue ehk. haha.

walked around & lepak near 258. was sitting down & chatting & laughing when this man came. he came asking how are we, what's our age, what's our name. wani & me were already scared. REALLY SCARED. my heart was pumping fast. this OLD MAN asked for our number & wanted to make frens. we did not respond anything. wani & me grabbed our stuffs & wanted to run off. than this man said, " dont go laa " we wanted to stand up & quickly run away when he said. " ok laa ok laa. i wont disturb u girls " it was like a BIG PHEW ! ~ we were like really really scared. da laa tua ! tak sedar diri siol ! eeeeee ! geli sak aku !

we were just enjoying & talking craps when this MAD MAN came. we quickly grab our stuffs & ran away. woah ! what a day at that blk. scary sak. xo than we walked & bought bubble tea & than sat under my blk. lepak leapk jap. was talking about lots of stuffs. & there, wani bcame my sedawe (not sedare). HAHA. at around 6:45pm we went home. i had a lot of fun with her today :D wani, kakak ngan sedawe aku laa. HAHA.

dear, im already missing you, a lot ! ily.

2008-03-27T20:10:00.004+08:00

Hello Humans ! 'gangsta rap' is sucha nice one. but t0o bad i've to return it to mrs liew before i could finish reading it. oh well. niwae, assembly was like, okay watever.

MT & history was super bored. physics was fine. maths was so not fine. i was feeling so sleepy that i fell asleep :X english was okay. the birds. HAHAHAHA. kekek siols !

after skewl met zalikha. pearl & nadz t0o. sat at the canteen than got changed into PE attire for the 2.4km run. i hate my timing though i did pass. but 18 mins. it's like WTH ! i run SO SLOW seyh ?! im not satisfied uh. slack a lot seyh. shud i retake ? hmm..

was feeling freaking hot. relaxed a while. i took off my shoes & socks. my feet was like BURNING HOT. tebakar siol kaki aku. while running, the heat was super duper HOT to the core. it's pocking thru the skin & everyone end up having sunburnt. pfffft. im black-er now. HAHA. it feels as if the heat is cooking my feets. zalikha helped me asking ppl for ___. haha. thengzx.

had my bath in skewl. wani aiming kau jauh seyh. haha. refreshed. changed into sandals. my blister, burst. OUCH ! at 5pm wani & me went off. zalikha wanted to stay a lil longer to do her humwerk & babe, maceh blanja aku air ngan tissue. hehe.

bought finger food at old chang kee & 800-ed to sumwhere near chongfu. than went to library. than 6:50pm we head home. im having fever & flu + menses cramps now. was achoooo-ing non stop. urgh. i dun wanna attend skewl tomorrow laa. make it last longer can ? so i could MC tomorrow. haha. okay, craps laa atin.

i want more $$$$ & i wanna go SHOPPING !

im sorie, bestie K______ :( wen izzit gonna end ? day by day we're getting further apart. i really dont want this to happen. it breaks my heart. pls, lets just resolve this without violence. i cant stand seeing u ppl, my frens getting hurt. yul has already broken his arm. irul got bruised eye & having probs with his eyes now. wad more do u peeps want ? pls, lets just end this soon.

sad :(

2008-03-26T21:40:00.001+08:00

woke up late, AGAIN. im always late this few days. was upset. veryy. was so not in the mood in the morning. felt lyk just wanna run away. haix.. ears was stuck wit mp3 all the way to skewl. i cried wen i reached the skewl canteen. i was really really sad that moment. i just felt lyk letting out everitink. i guess i bottled too much of my feelings. dunno who to tok t0o. felt so lonely.

i was okay wen lessons started. MT was sup boring. chemistry was worst for me. physics was sup okay. history was okay. english, i was bored. ss, the usuals wit notes. maths. 2 periods ! & yay ! at last i manage to understand vectors xcept the equation stuffs. thengzx mr goh for being very patient wit me. sorie cuz im VERY SLOW in understanding maths. half the battle won. ceyh ! haha. no assembly for upper sec today & that's a GREAT news. heh. ms chang toked about stress management & she told us the symptoms or signs showing sumone is suffering from stress. i cud say that i tink i m under stress. most of the signs fits me.

after skewl. met zalikha than went home, wit wani t0o. 800-ed home. i met up wit wani again at 4pm & head off to yishun stadium. wanted to practice 2.4km run but than it started to rain HEAVILY. alaaa, spoil uh babe ! so ended up not doing it. played in the rain instead. FUN ! really. was sup cold. we were wet from the ends of our head to our shoes & to our toes. wetwetwetwet ! hahas. walked to one blk & had maggi mee. wani & her cik li. HAHA.

than head off to cc, i tink. got changed & it took us more than 1 hr. haha. i love my new tee ! guitar wit wings :D coolio-ness. than 811-ed to northpoint from our the usual opss bustop. i bought my hairband. lyk at last. striking orange ! & i forgot to buy perfume seyh. my new 'drug'. okay, craps laa atin. haha. went to the toilet & cam-whoring before heading home. part time job laa :P aku step adeq, wani step kakak. HAHA.

bought our usual at GV than 811-ed home. we tot of lepak-ing but than it was already 7:30 & was already tired. was otw walking home & saw mama & adeq. sat wit wani ferst at mc while waiting for mama after sending adeq for tuition. dear called me. oh i miss him so much ! && wani pon ckp adeq aku cm minah. she agrees wit me. HAHA. & adeq panggil aku minah sak. ape jek :X pape laa ehk. i went home wit mama than wani went home. kiterorg suker ton petang petang ! HAHA. okay, craps :D

im having a headache & feeling kinda feverish. tu laa maen ujan agy. haha. im feeling lazy to do any humwerk. im so tiredddd + sleepyyyyy. at least i cud sleep longer tonyte. tomorrow skewl starts late & there's napfa 2.4km run after skewl :X & hooray ! tomorrow there's no chemistry. no monotone-ness ! HAHA.

songs stuck in my brain cells at the moment ;

cinta - flop poppy,

hanya ingin kau - republik,

stop & stare - one republic,

it ends tonight - all american rejects,

pieces - sum41,

is it you ? - cassie,

just another star, hands of blood, suffocating under words of sorrow - bullet for my valentine,

famous last words, this is how i disappear, the sharpest lives, dead ! - MCR.

minah ke ? nta laa ehk. okay watever. y izzit bad ehk ? i dont understand laa. really. anyone volunteering to answer ? wads wrong wit, minah ? it's actually another word for girls & how come it turns out to be.. oh watever.

sorie for the late reply of sms-es & sorie i din pick up ur calls. was bz settling something. once that thought came into my mind, i start to tear. was just really sad :(

byee.

2008-03-25T22:00:00.001+08:00

okay now. updating. today, overall was okay. met zalikha as usual & sorie i was LATE again. xo ya, assembly was okay. 'gangsta rap' is sucha nice book (: *recommended* ceyh. haha.

before lesson. ya i did cry. i tear a lil. tot no one noticed it, till daus ask if im okay or not. im never gonna be okay till the prob is solved. oh c'mon frens. can we get this over & done with ?

history was okay just that i nid to study how to answer the qns in a correct way. i wanna & i nid to pass my combined humanities ! maths was, errrr, sux ? i became stoopid. nutink gets into my brain. O level MATHS this year. scary ! :X MT was boring & there's this killer bee. we were lyk screaming & shouting laa. haha. SS was okay. the last 5 periods was art & its STUPID ! get the facts ryt laa cher. shits ! uat darah org up jek laa ! pala p*** ! i REGRET choosing ART as my elective subject !!

after skewl had NAPFA, 5 stations. passed all. only average. janji pass. heheh. shuttle run ; 11.6secs. sit-ups ; 43 in 1 min. standing boardjump ? ; 166cm. sit & reach ; 32cm :X inclined pull-up ; 3 :X WORST ! m i that heavy ? pffffft. cher ask me to put on more weight oxo have le. my worst worst nightmare is gonna be my 2.4km run. i cant run laa. if u noe wad i mean by that. lari jap da pancit sak.

went home wit wani. sat at khatib mc for a while. ameq aircon. heheh. wani was lyk SUPER BELO seyh. kekek siots ! HAHAHAHA. 811-ed than 800-ed home. as usual. we '10 rounds turn'. that's our sarcastic shits laa. haha. nemind if u dont understand. it's 5+ but din want to go home ferst.

xo decided to lepak jap at 274. sat there. toking craps. about minah, mat rep, marriage tingy, skewl, shuffling. we were just lepak-ing & making a fool of ourselves. belo-ing arawnd. panjat sane sini. tried shuffling tapi tk menjadi. HAHA. wad malu jek seyh :P

at 6:45 we head home. suddenlie toked about nss. if not, wani wud have been transferred there in sec1 & i wud haf been transferred there in sec2. but alas, its cancelled. we were toking about wad wud happen to us if we were transferred there. lots of tinkx gonna change. A LOT i mean. minah kots. tanak uh. but really, we were just wishing we cud b transferred out from opss to another skewl but all was cancelled. nemind. it's over. can we turn bec tymp ? okay, craps laa atin.

came bec home. had my long cold bath. refreshed ! hahas. friendster kinda okay now. i wanna buy adidas perfume laa. addicted to the sweet smell. woots !? :X hahas. tomorrow going jogging wani ? pape kol jek ehk. haiya, aku nga budget uh this week. im sucha spendthrift eh ? say yes say yes ! okay, dont bother. lame shits :D

it's 11 ryt now & i've not even touch my humwerks. urgh. im feeling super lazy to do any humwerk now. any angel wud want to help ? okay, i've been saying this for centuries. okay, sarcastic laa.

laptop charging at the same tymp now. charging mp3 t0o wic i've not been charging it for the past week ?! woah ! haha. im lazy to charge my hp. so, sorie if u peeps kol & cant get thru. just kol my house can laa ehk & sorie uh. sms wont b replied till tomorrow after i came bec from skewl or late nyte today. patience okays ? HAHA. the song 'no air' is sucha nice one (:

i guess we're geting further apart bestie :( pls, cum bec. will you ?

imy dear !

2008-03-24T19:30:00.002+08:00

wani in action. hehe.

muker nmpk penat maot sak.

tie it up ! :D

water arts ? by wani. haha.

okay. todayyyy its kinda bad day for me. not that kind of bad. if u peeps noe wad i mean laa. woke up LATE. met zalikha, LATE. mit the DM, LATE. assemble at the parade square, LATE. everitink was lyk all in a mess. wad a tink to start the day with. LATE-ness. pffffft. i dunno y i was feeling freaking WARM just now. there's gonna be hair check, AGAIN. pfffft. i have not dyed black, yet.

niwae, english was okayyy. & yay ! all her humwerks i've completed for the first time ! haha. physics was super fine for me. & again, humwerk, done. yay-ness ! haha. PE the next 2 periods. changed & than teman wani to find sumone to lend her PE shirt. practiced the 5 stations for napfa. woah ! bronze this year ? i guess so. fitness level not so high now. o0ps ! haha. chemistry was okay. manage to understand the topic. a lil though. english AGAIN. that another 2 periods of chemistry AGAIN. but at leaz for today's lesson was not as bored as it use to be laa. last period was maths. gawsh ! i felt lyk crying during lesson just now. really. i cant understand a single tink. my brain is not working. i was totally confused. 100% confused. gonna read up again.

after skewl. met zalikha. bought patty from canteen than wani followed us. bought the usual at GV than 800-ed to the usual lepak area. ceyh. area uh. haha. we were just making a fool of ourselves tapi gerek. haha. sat arawnd, lepak-ing. 4:30 we head home.

wani & me met up again at 5pm for jogging. zalikha dosent want to follow. to practice 2.4km laa konon. tied my hair up. after jogging. went to mc & wani bought fries. otw to find a place to lepak jap, ate fries. walk & walk & walk but at laz at the usual, 273. making a fool of ourselves. buat cm uma sendiri katerkan. hahas. panjat saner sini. cam org giler plak. hahas. t0ok pics & wani create water art. hahas. & saw priya. toked a while than she went off.

im so not gonna do well in my 2.4km napfa run seyh :X 18 mins oxo nemind. xo long i pass. but i want that 15 mins timing lyk the last time uh. okay, watever atin. oh well. tomorrow is the 5 stations ; shuttle run, incline pull up, standing broad jump, sit-ups, sit & reach. lyk tak sabar gitu. haha. okay, craps laa atin.

&& adeq clumsy laa. tsk.. tsk.. tsk.. biyase laa. kakak nyer pon cam gitu. HAHA :P

gawsh ! ders lots to be done by tonite laa. thought of sleeping early seyh. to haf my beauty sleep. okay, craps laa atin. haha. art ; 12 layouts + anti drug poster. ahhhh ! i lost my researches ! urgh. malay ; karangan. maths ; vectors. & i dont understand a single tink. any devil wud want to help my maths ? oh shut up atin.

Hapie Belated Burfdae FIRMAN !

&&& also,

Hapie Burfdae YENLING !

2008-03-23T15:00:00.000+08:00

memories ;

0203 ; ayun's burfdae !

at blk 273.

skewl sports carnival 08 !

141207. i received a burfdae gift from her (:

okay. update for today. i just had my lunch. the pics on the top are just memories. was just browsing thru pics in my pictures documents. memories ~ there are sum that made me cry. haix.. saddening. one of us has left leaving the werld :(

i really miss those fun tymps. there use to be 10 of us in the grp ; steadies. but now, 9 are left. but styl memories of her remains. niwae, wanted to upload a few more. but, there seemed to be a problem wit blogger. pffft. next tymp uh ?

at last, manage to reply all comments at friendster xcept for those irritating & tk tau malu nyer. go get a lyfe. pls laa ehk. manage to accept new fren requez. after adding, talk okays. mutes, will b DELETED. i've already deleted some. sorie, mutes are out of my list. lyk there's sumone whom i've just deleted said, "eh, nape nk delete delete ni???sombong sey!...aper seyy..org da add den delete..kat msn pon nk delete..mintak no. pon tk le..aper seyh kau..sombong!.." oh pls laa. if u haf already added, talk laa. wad for u add to just increase ur frens list. wads the use ? any prizes given ? wtf ! & to the person hu said that ; ehk, aku da byk kali ckp hello kat kau. kat friendster, kat MSN. kau tk reply. eh, hello ! saper yg sombong skrg uh !? kau add aku pat MSN tapi tk bobal wad pe kan. tu psl laa aku delete. lagy rela aku ader siket kwn yg KEEP IN TOUCH. daripade ader byk kwn tapi langsong tk bobal. buang maseh aku jek uh ! ehk, kau ngat aku delete kau aku da takde kwn kaper !? jalan da ! & kau ngat hp no. aku for sell kape uh ? aku senang senang kasi pat orang. memang tol aku ader g no. aku pat kwn friendster aku. tapi ukan semuwe mintak dapat. ehk, no. aku per ?! kau susa asl !? kau asl kat luwa nmpk aku nk carik psl ? sorie ehk aku tk layan losers cm kau. aru psl nie, nk besar besarkan. gler laa org cm kau ! skali lagy. sorie, i dont entertain ppl lyk u !

o0o0o kay. dat was long. haha. but really. irritating laa ppl lyk dis. pffffft. niwae, it was sucha relieve. though the prob is only half solved. at least its better than notink. no more crying, i guess (: owh, tomorrow bec to skewl. i nid another week of break, can ? okay, that's a wishful thinking part of me. im xo not in the mood for skewl this few days.

oh ya. this is a RANDOM post. notink to toked about. dats all peeps. mama wanna borrow my laptop & my hp is going bonkers ! pfft.

byee.

2008-03-22T17:00:00.007+08:00

Well it rains and it pours
When you're out on your own
If I crash on the couch
Can I sleep in my clothes?
'Cause I've spent the night dancing
I'm drunk, I suppose
If it looks like I'm laughing
I'm really just asking to leave

This alone, you're in time for the show
You're the one that I need
I'm the one that you loathe
You can watch me corrode like a beast in repose
'Cause I love all the poison
Away with the boys in the band

I've really been on a bender and it shows
So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember
And you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
So you can leave like the sane abandoned me

There's a place in the dark where the animals go
You can take off your skin in the cannibal glow
Juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands
Drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands, Romeo

I've really been on a bender and it shows
So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember
And you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
So you can leave like the sane abandoned me

***********************************************
okay now. slept at 11pm last nyte. than woke up at 3am as planned with those involved. we chat & chat trying to solve the prob but sadly, it is left unsolved. sad. veryyyyy. stopped the chats at 6am. i was crying. i really cant help it. y is this happening ? it's happening for the second time. y do my lyfe suddenly turn out dis wae? i cried myself to sleep.

woke up at around 1oam than had my bath, watched a bit of TV. mama had gone for her gym claz early in the morning. adeq went for her tuition at 1pm. mama bought bec lunch & i ate a bit. not much appetite.

been trying to create a blogskin since just now but i always get distracted by stuffs. pfffft. but i manage to create one. a very simple one. but not gonna use it ferst. styl loving this skin (: i've been doing nutink since centuries ago. okay, thats sarcastic of me laa. i dunno wad im supposed to be doing other than humwerks. urgh.

wanted to go out but so not in the mood to go out. than went i decided to go out wit babes, the rain started to pour ; heavily. so irritating laa. pfffft. changed song in my blog. MCR styl rocks my werld ! muziq is universal to me but styl jiwer ngan ROCK ! hahah. okay, craps.

okay laa. gonna do humwerk now. & it's styl raining ; heavily.

&& Hapie 3rd Month Anniversary dear ! ILY !

after reading kan. tag laa ehk. if u dont ; i'll come chasing after you & bite ur heads off ! HAHAHAH :P

2008-03-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

went out for lunch wit mama & adeq. head off to jurong. mrt-ed there. was not really in the mood cuz of the prob. had my my ears stuck wit my earpiece. the song titled pieces by sum41 really shows wad im going thru. slowly i tried to forget about the prob & yea, i did haf fun & njoyed myself. the funnie part was when mama direct my attention towards dis person. bapok siol ! really. mama & me was laughing our ass out. HAHAHAHAHAHA. okay, mean-y us :P

had lunch at banquet. than had fruits ; honeydew ! walked araound looking for internet-modem adaptor but none of the shops sell it. pfffft. we walked around. lots of stuffs i want seyh. okay, i sound xo materialistic laa. but shopping is my fav part :D but not todayy. went shopping the other tymp & i went bankrupt laa. mama said im sucha a spendthrift. i guess i m. blegahs ! gotta learn to self control atin !

mama bought a new pair of shinyyyyyyy blackkkkkk shoe at ice lemon tee. nice oi ! *jealous* i lyk one of the tops dere. but it wyl cost me 50 bucks sak ! super X laa. so i decided to scrap that off from my mind. pass the converse shop. ahhhhh ! it's really tempting me to buy the shoe i wanted so much. pass the kappa shop. ahhhh ! another shop that is tempting me to buy the shoe i REALLY wanted. im xo going crazy over shoes now. shoes oh shoes. hahas. & that baby converse show it's oh so CUTE ! *imagining harjuna wearing it* cute nyer !!! :D

mama bought me a tee. black one. thengzx mama (: cute laa the tee ; know your mushrooms. mama bought adeq a top t0o. white & pinq. so sweeet ! after that went bec to the banquet & bought tako balls. prawn ones. reminds me of my late father. i missed him a lot :( than i told mama that i wanted to go to causeway point. i dunno y. xo she said, okay. mama is my bestfriend for todayy :D xo ya, we head off to causeway point. mrt-ed there. byk ________ uh. tak suker seyh. cocok mater krgs kasi buta baru tau ! urgh.

walked around. than went to the shop ; Outfitter Girls. i bought myself another tee. it cost me 20 bucks after discount from 25 bucks. coolio. i lyk the tee xpecially the print of the guitar wit wings. super nice ! went to banquet, again for fruits. healthy u noe. hahas. went to handifix to look for sumtink & than bought double choc muffin ! delicious ! than went to the civic & to tom & stefanie. mama & bought their stuffs. than head home. tiredd but had fun & njoyed myself.

& to that bitch. u are in no position to comment about me. not anitink from my dressing. my attitude. my behaviour. even my mama din say anitink. i dunno y suddenlie u called me & where the hell did u get my number. nemind about that. just one tink, get a lyfe, bitch !

i'm drowning in my own tears

2008-03-20T22:35:00.002+08:00

the day started with myself crying, again. okay, was supposed to be in skewl by arawnd 7.30 miting wani but in the end it's cancelled. received an sms from her saying that she woke up late & myself in the same case. hahas. waiting for the bus & met with zalikha. off to skewl together.

came to skewl. tried to do my maths but failed. i dont understand a single tink laa. how frustrasting. lessons were fine. for sum.

MT was okayy i guess. how i hate karangans. history was preetaye fine. physics was super fine for me. understood today's lesson. yay-ness ! haha. maths was not okay. i was super sleepy during lesson. owh, i miss the maths lesson laa. only managed to store a lil info in my brain ; at least. english, 2 periods. went to computer room. funnie seyh. HAHA. elson created a 'nice' desktop display. haha. okay, i was saying it sarcasticly laa. laughing non stop seyh. but really very bored during the 2 periods in the CR.

after skewl. ate in skewl. than rasul & fayyad was lyk, OMG ! haha. den got caught laa for appearance. pfffffft. watever. went home with zalikha. 800-ed home. zalikha, degree celcius. cert tinggi dok. kekek seyh. HAHAHAH. sorie. aku bastard sak gini :X

head home. had my bath. got changed. than went out again miting zalikha at 4:30. she accompanied me for my eyebrow threading. Ouch ! its painful but nvm. heheh. eyebrow trimmed (: than it's my turn to accompany her to KFC. i din eat cuz im still full. was talking & suddenly she toked about swensens. i was lyk, *drooling* haha. no laa. joking only. suddenlie had the craving for ice cream. tot of buying ben & jerry's cookies & cream from 7-eleven but aiya, forgot to bring my money down. xo i had to so called downgrade. went to mc instead to get my sundae hotfudge. ehk, not really laa. one of my 'drugs' to0. haha. than walked to 312 to fetch zalikha's younger sis & bro. kiutt laa dey both (:

i followed her all the way home cuz i forgot to take bec my maths book + my maths file from her. after that i went bec home. chill ferst den at 8pm i went out again to fetch my sis. came bec home feeling tireddd + really sad :(

a fight broke out juz now. the rest & i were trying our best to stop it but to no avail. i was lyk screaming & shouting telling them to stop but dey din listen. i just broke down & cried. i couldn't stop crying. it breaks my heart to see that our 5 years of frenship is gonna b gone. i cant take it. i love u peeps xo much. i treasure u peeps a lot. we haf gone thru a lot as close besties. dont u guys feel anitink that our frenship is on the brink of breaking up ? i really dont understand. i want us to be bec as the good old days. our kecoh times. non stop laughing our ass out. being hapie all the time. i dont want this frenship to end. pls, can we solve the prob as soon as possible without any violence ? i dont wanna see anyone of us get hurt. this is happening for the second time this year. y must it happen again ? :( i cried seeing irul got a bruised eye. yul fractured his arm. pls, i want it to end soon !

while waiting for the time to go out & fetch my sis. dear called me. i was relieved. i was tinking too much about that prob. i smiled wen he called (: ILY.

friendster is going BONKERS laa ! it sux okay. how frustrating. i cant even log out laa. CB. not gonna MSN-ed for quite sumtymp i guess. not in the mood. probs not solved. haix.. how to concentrate dis way ? sorie if i dont reply just now at MSN. i went on9 for the sake of on9. no intention to chat.

im not gonna entertain any calls or even any sms-es tonight. sorie. i nid sumtymp to be alone. dear, thengkiew for understanding. ILYSM ! to the ppl concerened, i really hope deres a way for us to step out of dis misery. out of the darkness. out of the gloomy werld. i really cant take it animore ! if dis is going to go on any longer, im gonna drown in my own tears.

*crying*

2008-03-19T20:10:00.003+08:00

Photo editing ; credits to INA darling. thengkiew babe (:

i start the day by crying, again. Had my bath. a long one rather. i was crying, still. i can't help it. i tried to but i really can't. then got ready for skewl & off to skewl together wit zalikha. my left ankle still hurts & swollen. the bus ; 811. was superrrrrr late laa. luckily we arrived skewl on the dot.

MT. boringgggg. karangan again. pffft. chemistry superr NOT OKAY. physics was SUPER OKAY. history. i failed my test :( out of 20. i've got the pathetic no5. english was super boringg. SS. okay laa. i failed the test t0o :( out of 18. i've got 6. maths. 2 periods. gawsh ! i fall asleep during the lesson. i dunno wad has come over me. maeb cuz i cried t0o much & that my eyes were sleepy. maybe. vectors making me confused now. assembly sux. really. super boringggg.

the claz were asked to stayed bec for a while after skewl. to collect report books. ahhhh. it's the time where i dont wish to b in. i hate getting report books cuz im scared to see my marks. xpecially wen im in upper sec. worst nightmares ever. ahhhh ! every single subjects, i DROPPED A LOT. how disappointing atin. BUCK UP atin ! BUCK UP ! O levels is THIS YEAR mind you ! sumone give me another wake up kol, pls ? i really nid it to knock me into sum sense.

xo after skewl tot of going home straight but than it was raining heavily. xo ya, sat at the study tables wit nadz, pearl. it took xo long for the rain to stop. nadz & me decided to run out of the skewl to the blks. haha. lyk fun gitu :P

once i reached home. my house fone was ringing. wani laa. ciyan dier. hehe. xo got changed & met her at my blk void deck. we had no idea where to go. xo we just walked round & round. than lapar plak. walked to the malay food stall. pack the food, sat at blk 270 & had our food. keje biyase jek. haha. at arawnd 5, head to mcdonalds at 200+. than we saw dis couple, i tink. black metal abes abes siol ! maot dok ! takle angs babe. bought adeq fries than went home.

i cried a lot today. im sad. very. though on the outside it doesent shows. its too much for me. crying is the only way i can let out my sadness. i just wish that all these miseries will end SOON. pls bestie. im having too many tinkx to tink about. i hope u understand. & fren, we wyl b bec lyk the old days, soon. lyk i said, patience my fren. thengkiew fer standing by me all this while but really i nid time.

cuz of the prob, im crying & im xo not in the mood for anything. pls, i wanna b my old self once again. i wrote a letter for fren in between my lessons. i cant pass it to u since you are in sengkang. i'll ask fiq to pass it to you. i really hope that u will understand.

dear, im missing u. ily.

2008-03-18T20:00:00.001+08:00

i dont noe y i lyk to blog. though sumtymps watever i blog was just craps & shits. haha. niwae, gonna update todae.

HAPIE BURFDAE MR JOKER ! :D

i cried wen i woke up. had my long bath & was crying, still. i hate it wen it turns out dis way. made me feel xo miserable. saw lina at my blk staircase & said she was waiting fer me. dont werrie bowt me sis. i just nid sum tymp to cool & tink bowt it. thengzx fer ur concern babe (:

came to skewl with a heavy heart, though my xpression din show. during assembly while reading, i was tinking bowt it. sad :( but slowly im trying to ferget bowt it.

ferst was history. free period fer my claz. mr nair is not in skewl. zalikha's claz t0o. xo we sat togeder & were crapping. next up was maths. mr goh ; fed up wit my maths group. though i hate it wen tchers get pissed off & start to scold the claz but watever he said do make sense. it's a wake up call fer me. he made me realised that im taking my O level maths THIS YEAR & that maths is a subject NEEDED to qualify into poly. im gonna buck up ! i promise myself that. MT ; baskul ! HAHAHAHA. SS ; was not in the mood for no apparent reason.

ART ; 5 straight periods ! mdm loy got pissed off. we noe the reason. humwerks ol not done. if im the tcher i'll sure to get angry t0o. im xo not interested in art now ; fer the drawings & paintings part only. the reason. ________________. fill in the blank. i dunno. we got a 'lecture' from her fer the 1st period i guess. than went round the skewl fer the skewl art tour since out work is not done & so we cant move on. i realised that my skewl kinda cool ? okay, sounds so wrong but really. no joke. my skewl looks lyk an art skewl wit ol the art pieces put arawnd the skewl & my last year's acrylic painting is still up. haha. so malu. if the skewl had enough funds, OPSS will have a cafe laa. how nice it will be. the last period, she gave us 8 qns to do. im really really really interested in BATIK PAINTING. my interest is dere. i dunno y. but the ferst tymp i did batik painting im already interested & wit mdm loy saying i have potential in it. maeb dats wad made me lyk it. heheh. lucky O level art will be doing batik painting & not the acrylic painting.

den went to the canteen wit gernette & ate sumtink before maths remedial. during remedial we did last year's work. the one on solving problems wit quadratic equations. the topic that i HATE ! i just cant seem to understand the topic since last year sak. so fed up. mr goh taught us the steps & now i tink i understand better. gonna practice more. im xo wanting to pass my maths. desperately. haha. now i have a total of 3 maths books ! sec4 maths textbook + 2 10 year series. wow kan ? okay, craps. my one & only prob now is to pay attention during that monotonous lessons ; chemistry ! wads the use of having A2 fer physics & F9 fer chemistry. sucha a waste kan.

went home wit wani & bought oreo choc bubble tea as usual. ouch ! my left ankle hurts. i tink i sprained it. oh pls dont. i wanna complete my NAPFA on the day itself. but saket laa. i cant even walk properly. met up wit lina & irul at my blk. really peeps. im gonna b okay, soon that is. lyk i said, i just nid sumtymp to cool & tink about it. to ______. stop contacting me, ferst. i nid tymp. u're forgiven & we're gonna b lyk we use to b, soon. patience my fren.

im buck-ing up on my english, E maths, phy, chem, ss, hist, malay, art. hahahaha. yay ! :D

2008-03-17T20:10:00.002+08:00

urgh. the ferst part of the dae, SUX. really. bec to skewl after the one wik break. felt lyk ponteng. but nah. xo ya. as usual met zalikha in the morning. klaka seyh tadi. haha. met dear before skewl starts (: oh i miss him xo much ! ILY :D

assembly was lyk oh xo, urgh. timetable now has changed. wah ! tot dat its gonna b better. but siak seyh. CB.

ferst period now was english. din had any lesson. next was physics. yay ! i passed my physics test. im starting to love physics now :D after dat was 2 periods of PE. woohoo ! gerek-ness. todaes's PE lesson was FUN oi. run. run. run. run & run. i had fun :D ol dis were before recez. lessons were ol superb but wen its after recez. lyk shit siots. after recez it was english AGAIN. boreddddd. i almost fell asleep. den it was chemistry AGAIN & to add on to it. it was another 2 periods ! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. was yawning thru out the lesson. MONOTONE sak. punyer laa mendak nk mampos. attitude laa chemistry cher ! den it was maths. was okayy. went thru vectors & mr goh dont seen to c me arawnd during the march holidays maths remedial. 0.o m i invisible to him or iz he potek ? haha. okay okay. craps. now i HATE MONDAYS. total of 3 periods of chemistry ! im hating chemistry & im loving physics + maths =X

after skewl. planned to go home straight wit wani. since she said she's tired & want to _____. hahah. took 811. hakim was lyk, hahah. storyy lamer seyyh. hahah. den alight at interchange & was otw to GV to buyy our usual. oreo choc bubble tea. den saw zalikha. pari aku. hahah. xo, she followed us. kecoh sak. bought bubble tea & d funnie part was bowt the 'telor' HAHAHAHA. kekek maot sak. den walk to yishun library. accompanied zalikha.

in the libraryy. mcm mcm laa. ketawe tak abes abes. hahah. made fun of manyy books dat we c. sumtink bowt acting kiutt & preetaye. bowt love & watsoever. hahah. tak le angkat babe. HAHAHAHAHA :D den at 4 we went bec home.

here i m now, blogging. my laptop giving me probs. oh pls dont. i cant log out of my friendster laa. wad sak. friendster sux laa now. i cant view my own proffy. i cant accept fren requez. i cant send or reply comments. i cant view my own fotos. i cant edit my proffy. fcuking shits laa ! sorie peeps. wyl b replying ur comments LATE. blame the stoopid friendster. this sucks !

sorie fer my bad command of language. i scored A1 fer singlish & F9 fer english :P

2008-03-16T14:45:00.001+08:00

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dis post gonna b a RANDOM one. no topic or watsoever to tok abowt. i'll type watever dat ~~caem~~comes across my mind. im superrrrr boreddddd ryt now =.=

todae. deres nutink. im juz gonna rot & slack at home ol dae. oh, how boring kan. changed blogskin. its super simple but styl nice. song changed t0o. songs from dis band are ol oh so sweet & nice (: links ol done. replied ol tags. friendster comments ol replied.

alemakk. boredom is killing me laa. wanna go out. but no idea where to go. pfffft. im juz being plain lazy not wanting to do anitink. lazyyy bum ! sayy dat fer a thousand tymps laa. i dun kaiire. hahas. okay, crapping again.

i really njoyed myself yesterdayy. thengzx babes. thengzx guys. the prob. oh well. styl not settled, yet. probs after probs after probs. i cant stand it ! tried going fer counselling. but styl, no use. really. ina & irul accompanied me. i dont find the counselling useful.

wads the use of counselling aniwae ? ya true dat dey listen to ur probs & watever u want to sae but dey wyl end up saying the same ol stuffs. sucha waste of my tymp ! urgh. im feeling xo fucked up ! but i dont do those watever those freaks do laa. ol the slash & everitink. ewwww ! never in my lyfe dictionaryyy.

luckyy i haf my best buds arawnd me. dey listened to my probs. tried helping on how to solve it. console me. real big thengkiew ! pls kip this to urselves steadies. i dun wanna any stranger or watsoever suddenlie ask if my prob is settled or not. i hate dat. xo kpo laa ! urgh.

i juz hope dat ol dis misery gonna end soon. real soon i mean. im xo pissed off ! xo fucked up ! mixed emotions. i dunno if i made the right choice. but i hope it is cuz i don wanna regret it after some time. i haf too many regrets to bear. i cant take another regret thru my lyfe.

it hurts. hurting me xo much. ol dis dat im typing making me cryyyy. okay. dont bother bowt the crying. to the person in concern. dont bother looking me up cuz im never gonna c u. u cause xo much misery in my lyfe & im never gonna tink or tok or see u ever again. juz take it dat we're strangers whom haf no connection. not even frenz. im sorie. i dun wanna haf another misery in my lyfe. watever im going thru now iz enuff. its alreadyyyy to0o0 much fer me to handle. pls. sorie. take kaiire siots !

byee laa.

2008-03-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

lepak-ing 8 in the afternoon :D

oh. gonna blog bowt yesterdayy, 150308. xo ya, woke up styl feeling kinda drowsyy due to my flu medicine. bathe, had my lunch. did nutink. was hogging on d fone wit ina, iqa, yana while waiting fer wani's kol.

she came bec from mendaki she kold me. arawnd 2pm we mit up. went to skewl ferst. deres carnival or bazaar by d band. after dat sat at mcdonalds. d dae was lyk superrr HOT. d past few daes was lyk superrrr COLD laa. global warming ? okay, watever. sat dere fer a while. nak dapatkan aircon jek. haha. & oh saw khairil. sorie tk tegor cuz i tot it was sumone else. u look xo different laa fren. hee.. at leaz i call u on ur hp okay. haha. niwae, nice hair. coolio ! :D

den head off to woodlands libraryyy. 969-ed dere. saw dis man, ewwwww ! dandruff-ness. GELI siol ! kay kay. craps. did our humwerk at d libraryyy. & i've finished my maths. yay-ness ! haha. we toked bowt lorts of stuffs. wani..wani..

at arawnd 5 i guess. we packed up & rounding rounding at causewayyy point. bought bubble tea ferst. funnie seyyh. aku ni step de uma sendiri jek. wani kau pon ehk. bobal byk nyer sopan. hahas. kekek sak ! i realised dat i haf manyy stuffs i want to buy. but budget uh babe. $$$$$ takde uh dok. save laaa. hehe.

ferst, its d 'blues' shop. i wanted to buy another bag ; 20 bucks. & oxo d iron on skulls ; 4 bucks. second, its d 'CHECK' shop. dat PUMA brown sling bag ; 80 bucks. superrr X laa babe. cant remmeber d shop name. but sells d headfones & computer stuffs. white headfone ; 33 bucks. chameleon. rings ; 3 bucks. haha. 'outfitter girls' shop. wani & me superrr love dat tee. wit a guitar printed on it. it wud b nicer if d tee was blackkkk. but styl dat tee was superrr loved ; 25 bucks laa. mama, i want to werk can ? sure she does not allow me to werk again till after my O's next year. grrrrr.

d tymp flies really fast. den to0k a bus bec to yishun. lepak at 273 a while. saw dis maid & her guyy ? dey were lyk xo, no werds to describe lerr. juz xo oh watevers. maids dis daes. bobal cm paham sak aku nie. HAHA. den dis boi laa. bicycling arawnd d same area where we were lepak-ing non stop. den decided to dusturb him. haha. klaka siots. " tunggu gurl kepe ? ciyan mak dier tk kasi turon " haha. wani kip disturbing ppl hu walk pass us laa. klaka sak. HAHA. kekeks. bangla lalu ngan kain. " bang, nk g sembahyang bang ? " HAHA. asl ble jek.

suddenlie it started to rain. heavily. tibe tibe sak. wanted to go home. but oh well. lepak jek laa da ujan pon. yea of cuz. snap pics ! heheh. part tymp job laa kans. hahas. arawnd 9pm we head home.

den i went out again to esplanade. mit kwns kwns. gerek oi. & hafiq, nice songggg. i lyk. jealous* dey noe how to play guitar PROPERLY. im in d process laa. styl under training. haha. 12.30am we went home. njoyed myself a lort :D

i dunnoy dis few daes i dont feel lyk going home. wads happening to me ? i criouzly dont understand myself nowadaes. i myself can c dat im changing. changing fer d worse dat is. oh how great. sarcastic* oh well.

byee.

2008-03-15T11:40:00.000+08:00

ouch ! i hurt my hand. bleeding. how clumsy can i be. ah, nemind. mama, adeq are out buying lunch. i've recovered from flu sickness. no more of d irritating blocked nose & d non stop of achoo-ing. haha. mama, wen are u gonna help me set up wireless internet tingy on my laptop ? im styl waiting. im getting really irritated by adeq arguing non stop wanting to use d internet. one tink adeq, dis laptop is MINE. get dat straight into ur brain cells. i bought it wit my own money. dont act as if u own it laa ehk. sure i'll allow u to borrow SOMETIMES cuz ur my adeq. but pls dont make a scene laa =.=

yesterday nyte watched 'apa artinya cinta' again at suria. i dunno y. but i seemed to lyk d story though sum ppl might sae dat its sucha boring one. but oh well. everiebodie has deir own opinions on everitink. democratic pe. haha. okay, craps.

as i said in my post, yesterdayy. urgh. i din manage to finish wad i want to finish. my maths i did half wae on d vectors & i din even touch on my english compre + touch up my maths notebook. how disappointing kan. blame my flu. i cant concentrate wit d flu. achoo-ing non stop. 2 boxes of tissues 'ate' by me.

i guess i shud try to finish up on yesterday's undone stuffs by todae. maeb going out to do humwerk, maeb not. going to d skewl carnival ? styl haf not decided. waiting fer wani's kol. mama, i want to move out from dis house ASAP ! i cant stand living here animore ! i nid my privacy. lyk everie sixteen year old nid. pls, understand.

byee laa.

2008-03-14T20:20:00.000+08:00

oh, im being murdered by boredom. its killing me laa. punyer laa mendak nk mampos. i dunno wad to do. any suggestions ? =.= & oh, lucky my laptop is okayyyyyyy. phew ! i accidentally gave a hard kick on my laptop. clumsy me.

okay. humwerkx. styl not done. not even one. i'll do it later. anyone wanna go esplanade library & do humwerk wit me ? okay. watever. i guess i'll try to finish ol my humwerkx by todae. at leaz my english compre & maths on vectors + touch up on my maths notebook. superrrr messy laa my notebook. hahas. deres styl art humwerk. no mo0d fer art laa. elson & wani not doing art. kalo gitu aku pon tk wad laa ehk. haha. im xo not in the mood todayyy. skewl re-opening real s0on =.=

the cycle gonna begin again. skewl. humwerkx. xtra classes. i kinda hate sec4 lyfe. honestly. senang kater, secondary lyfe. as in d studies laa. i wanna go bec to my primary skewl daes. can ? okay. i noe dats super impossible laa. but i miss the primary skewl daes xo much-ness.

oh im getting boredd using the internet. lyk deres nutink now i cud do. friendster now sux. MSN-ing ; rarely. kip in touch thru hp. games ; i dont play games. not a game freak laa. the only tink now is blogging + editing picx. okay. dat sounds really superrrrr boringgggg. kiwakkkk. lyfe getting boreddd. duncha tink xo ? or izzit me. ah, nemind laa. i shud promise mysef not to use too much internet wen skewl re-opens. lyk irul said, " u gotta pull up ur socks girl. taking O maths & malay kans " i guess, i really shud.

hafiq, wad u said really hit the nail on my head. i shud say thengzx cuz u knock sum senses in me. really. i was superrrrr blurrrr at dat moment. thengzx fer saying those shits :D lina, ina, iqa, yana, hafiq, irul, fiq, asyraf, yul, aisyah, aku miss korangs laaa. zalikha, aku miss kau laa pari. cant wait fer another gathering wit steadies. rindu oi !

aru kau tau yg aku ni ukan gud gurl !? tsk. tsk. tsk. slow laa. haha. i agree im not a gud gurl. cuz im not a goody goody type hu always sits at home & never hang out wit frenz. dats xo not me. im stubborn. veryyyyyyyyy. even my mom agrees on dat & i dont deny it cuz i noe dat i m. siti, juz remember dat im not lyk u & can never b lyk u hu cud sit at home ol dae. though we're cuzzins, but dat dosent mean dat cuzzins share d same interest. same behaviours. same attitudes. ryt ? sedangkan adeq berqdeq pon tk samer perangai. dats juz not me laa gurl. xo, dont waste ur tymp on me trying to change me & to b lyk u cuz i get boredddddd wit d kind of lyfe ur leading. sorie hunney cuz dats juz ME.

liyana, thengzx fer d silkygirl make up set (: owwwwwh, i've caught a cold. aaaaccchoooooo-ing non stop. flu. my eyes kept tearing. fever coming bec. i hate it wen im sick.

zalikha, bsk g ke tak ? im styl waiting fer ur kol babe. wani, kalo kau nk ikot, aku tk kesah dok. nanti pape aku kol kau atau kau picit aku jek ehk.

byee(:

2008-03-13T22:35:00.001+08:00

xo ya. had skewl in d morning. conquering the last lap course. its boringgggg. really. course ended at 12. head off to khatib macdonalds wit gernette & i get to c dear (: gawsh ! its raining lyk cats & dogs.

went home. get changed. meet ayun at yishun bus interchange at 2:45. den t0ok 965 to causeway point. went to d library & ya gernette, i've returned d books fer u. went up to level 3. borrowed one english & one malay book. reading kinda fun now. hehe.

after dat mrayap kat causeway. decided to take neoprint. been sumtymp since ayun & me neoprint-ing. heheh. den walked arawnd & saw this group of pri5 gurls. minahs tak menjadi. HAHAHAHAHAHA ! kekek siol ! tak le angkat babe !

tot of going fer high ear piercing. but nah. maeb next tymp uh ?

ngat nak lepak kat library jap. tapi ayun nak aleq. xo yar, aleq lurh. 858-ed bec to yishun. went to toilet ferst at np & hah ! snap pics. haha. kejer biyase doks :D after dat 804-ed home. d queue was superrrrrrr longggggggg. but at leaz deres seats fer us. heheh.

friendster skrg slow gler maot urh. lambat siots. sempat aku tdo dulu seyh. siket siket tak le open proffy lurh. comment tak le send lurh. sensetive urh tu. aper siol nie ?! watever urh. fed-up siak ! sorie fer d late comment replies. sorie fer accepting fren requez late. friendster prob urh. sorie korangs.

& its styl raining went i was otw home. watching shrek now. kay lurh. & ayun, aku tak majok lurh ehk. hmph ! :P

one more tink. aku bukan minah okay !! pls lurh ehk. stop koling me dat coz u ursef r one lurh. cermen diri sendiri dulu lurh ehk. satu agi, jgn nk prasan lawa lurh. pls lurh ehk. lyk watever urh. && kau jgn nk mengate matair org urh. kau tu diam diam g jage laki kau jek lurh. jgn nk asl ble hembos jek. CB. aku tk cm kau. maen timer. maen maen timer ni tkde dlm dictionary idop aku siol. aku setia lurh ehk. tk cam kau. dlm satu mase 2, 3 kau ader. GATAL SIOL ! meluat aku tgk. it gives me d goose pimples.

dear, ily u oh xo much !

2008-03-13T12:35:00.000+08:00

okay. ferst of ol. to my bezfren, lina & my bro, hasrul. hapie fer u peeps. last long ! (:

im suppose to b asleep ryt now. it's already 12.30am ! but my fingers are itching to surf d net. oh well. todae. no. i mean yesterday. had FUN siots ! went to bugis. frenz. mama. adeq. t0ok 851 instead of MRT. damn. it was a longgggggggggggggg ride oi.

bought my blackkkkk & off-whiteeee skinnies + a blackkkkkk top ; off shoulder. NICE. haha. den went round & round d bugis street looking fer adeq's white skinnies. she's small lurh. at laz after a few rounds. haha. gort her white skinnies. hers nicer den mine seyh. hmph ! jealous* haha.
&& woohoo ! mama bought blackkkk skinnies t0o ! my mother oxo cool tau. maot dok :D

sorie dear i msg u lambat. was superrrr tiredddd.

received an sms from ______. i better not sae d name. i dunno lurh ehk. but i kinda pity ______ & at d same tymp kinda pissed off t0o. okay. im confused. but sorie. i've moved on. aku rase kau pon patot move on, okay. i pity u coz of d probs u told me about. i wanted xo much to help, really. but sadly, deres nutink i cud do to help. im sorie. pissed off coz.......... even after wad had happened a year ago & styl u r.......... ah, luperkan jek lurh. but ______ dun werrie u are styl my dear fren eventhough u haf chnged & dat ur behaviour & attitude kinda suck now. honestly. but i can c dat u r slowly changing into a better person. im hapie fer dat (:

i shud thank u. thengkiew fer being my bez dearest fren. i really treasure our frenship xo much-ness. thengzx fer putting up wit my craps, my shits & even my sucky attitude wenever im not in d mood. & i guess, i shud say sorie to u t0o. i owaesh look u up wenever i haf any probs & u tried to help but sumtymps i end up punching u, treating u lyk a punching bag & throwing tantrums on u but styl u put up wit it. i dunno wad to sae. i cud oni say a big THENGKIEW ! ur sucha dear fren. 5 years of frenship & styl counting....... (: i love u my ______, my dear fren !

if ur reading diz ______, tag me ya. aku sms tak reply. aku kol tak angkat. wad happened ?

tomorrow deres skewl =.= lazyyyy urh. malas seyh nak g. xcape ? nah. jgn carik pasal. alemak. humwerkx ol not done. not even a single one. pfffffft. okay. i superrrr hate doing humwerkx lurh.

oh well. i guess tymp fer me to poof into my dreamland. wyl b having skewl in a few hours tymp. pffffft =.=

dear, imy ! <3

2008-03-11T14:45:00.003+08:00

okay, go. had maths remedial in skewl in d morning. 2 hrs of maths ! =.= dear fetch me & accompany me to skewl (: todae was superrrrr cold. brrrrrr. luckily my cardigan came to my rescue. okay, i noe, craps. haha. came in to claz, 5 mins late. phew ! xcape punishment. heheh.

xo ya, went trhu d laz humwerk on probability & den move on to d next chapter, vectors. dang ! i dont understand. not even a lil tiny weeenie bit. really. i was lyk huh ? easy said, blur sotong gitu. i wanna pass my maths xpecially in my O's diz yr. a C5 will do. really. i'll b hapie fer dat.

& oh, thengzx xo much-ness to irul ! (: u made me 'wake up' from my slacking mode. he made me change into a more hardwerking person. he made me realise how important studies is & he told me he regret fer not studying properly. ya, he's story motivates me to do better. oh, he's damn gud in maths lurh. *jealous* haha. d rez of steadies, thengzx much-ness to eu peeps t0o. u peeps really motivates me to do better in my studies. love u ol lurhs (: ol d bez fer ur N & O levels diz year steadies ! (:

its raining. raining. raining & raining. its cooling, yea. but its making me sick. fever + flu + blocked nose. urgh. y nowadaes i get sick easily ehk ? heran seyh. im not wad i use to b. d supergirl. hu dont get sick easily. okay, watever.

oh sumone pls rescue me, pls ? im getting superrr boreddddd at home. boredom kills. haha. mendak siots. one more tink, ALIFF ! GET A LYFE DUDE ! im not here fer ur entertainment. once again, get dat straight into ur brain cells. okay !

kay lurh.
byees.

2008-03-10T19:45:00.002+08:00

ina says i look lyk a japanese bitch in d pic. do i ? haha !

todae. not great. juz okay, at leaz. mama & me. oh well. we're patching up. woke up early. had my bath, changed & went to d bank wit mama. after dat, t0ok a bus to tampines. accompanied mama to her new werkplace. wyl b werking dere after d march break.

from dere we slowly start to tok. lyk d usuals. hapie (: after dat, head off to tampines mall. had lunch. my appetite had been not t0o gud. i've been eating much less den i usuallie eat. y ? i dunno. i dun wanna b skinny lurh. mama & me den walked arawnd d mall. deres a sale going on. d converse shoe i wanted, usual i saw was 60 bucks & now its selling at oni 30 bucks ! gawsh ! but din buy it. waiting fer year end sale. den i can buy ol d tinkx dat i've been wanting. *evil grin* haha. okay. lame-ness.

i criouzly haf lortz of stuffs i want to buy. wit my own savings of coz although i get my allowance from mama. heheh. at leaz i din ask money to get watever i want. save to get wad i want. ceyh. haha. dat converse shoe, dat everlast shoe, dat converse jacket. juz wait & i'll grab it s0on ! hahas. *saving* hehe (: owh, too bad im werking no more or i cud save up faster. oh well. nemind. i'll get wad i want if i perservere. ceyh ! okay, craps :P

met ina, iqa & lina after i came bec home. sorie i yelled juz now. i was pissed off by u noe wad. oh, lets juz not tok bowt it. u babes, thengzx. u save me from turning into a red hawt burning monster :D

i guess i'll stop here. gotta do my maths. pfffft. tomorrow deres maths remedial. 2 hours ! gawsh ! *faints* owwwwwh, how i wish if d MOE said dat pupils cud drop maths in O level. how i really wish. pfffft. yea i noe, its super impossible. *dreaming* i'll b d happiest bitch if dats gonna happened. heheh :P

byess(:

& im not here for ur entertainment dude. get dat straight into ur brain cells. aite ?

2008-03-09T16:22:00.002+08:00

mama, im sorie. im really sorie :(
i regret for wad i did. i noe dat im in d wrong.
im ashmed dat u r d one hu said sorie to me ferst wen im d one hu's in d wrong.
i really felt ashamed of myself.
im d eldest daughter & diz iz how i behave.
remorse. forgive me, will u ? :(
*crying*

2008-03-08T22:15:00.001+08:00

todae was superb-ly awesome ! had CIP todae. met wani den off to orchard ; shaw house. collected d donation tins den off to macdonalds. decided to eat but, gawsh ! xo X. cant afford lurh. den went bec in to d mrt station & met up wit sum of 4B1 mates. toked fer a while den me & wani followed demme to d tin collection area. den waited a while & den off to bugis wit daus.

to0k mrt to bugis. den walked down to raffles ; banquet. had lunch. honeydew juice was superb ! haha. after lunch. did a bit of d CIP. den diz grp of JC stewdents, doing wad we r doing t0o fer CIP. deres negeotiation (if im not wrong bowt d spelling) dere. hahas. c0ol gitu seyh. hahas. great ppl lurh (: i was xo not in d m0od fer d CIP. den walked down to mrt station. st0od dere. asking fer donation. sum juz brush thru as if we're transparent. watever ~ styl deres sum nice ppl out dere hu donated. thengkiew ehk. gawsh, den deres a quarrel broke out btwin diz couple ? hoho, scary seyh. den walk down & t0ok a rez. tiredd & my legs r aching.

den decided to lepak at esplanade. xo we t0ok a train dere. walked thru d underpass. den lepak at d rooftop. chill down dere. den arawnd 4 i guess decided to go to penin. haha. yea, we haf went to many places during d few hours. hahas. gerek gitu seyh. xplore singapore ? okay, lame. haha.

t0ok a train to penin. walked to penin d one bsyde d hotel. to basement 1. skinnies. gawsh ! i cant c those. make me wanna buy demme. i'll go crazy over skinnies. really. haha. walked arawnd. to one of d shoe shop den saw diz shoe. converse ! superrrrrrrr niceeeeee ! nid to save 60 bucks ! den saw diz guitar. wani & me was lyk, OMFG ! AWESOME ! d skulls & roses. preeeeeetaye sak. xo in love wit it. haha. den walked to d famous brands shop. sorie ehk daus, dats juz d wae we gurls r. maner maner kedai seme nak masok. shopping iz our bezfren kans. haha. saw diz palm ? shoe. shinyyyyyyyyy blackkkkkkkkkk. nice oi ! den walked to d mrt station den head bec to orchard.

returned d tins. met jason, toked a while den went seperate waes. me, wani, daus t0ok a train bec to yishun. lek lek chill chill. listened to songx. tireddd + aching legs. den alight at yishun. decided to lepak, again. haha. xo, t0ok a bus to safra. toked & laughed bowt lorts of stuffs.

arawnd 7:30 decided to go home. daus, went home walking. me & wani took a bus den alight at d bustop opposite d CC. den walked home. tot of going home a bit later. but we're tiredddddd. xo ya, we head bec home.

had fun lurhs todae. gerek-ness ! xo much of hahahahahahahahahaha =D

imy dear.

2008-03-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL SPORTS CARNIVAL ! sungguh hapie ! superb-ly great ! gerek oi. njoyed mysef xo much-ness. Im in d mass skipping competition. We’re hyper ! really hyper ! haha. Had a lil practice before our claz turn. After skipping, was sweating profusely. Phew !~ hawt-ness. Hahas. Managed a total of 194 jumps ! got 2nd position in sec4/5. w0oh0o ! proud of u peeps (: dance marathon, irfan emerge 1st fer d sec4/5 ! anti drug poster design, elson emerged 2nd fer d sec4/5 ! yay-ness ! 4B1 ’08 rawkx ! =D

after our event. Wit gernette, went up to the hall & sit wit zalikha & d rez. Lepak-ing before d prize presentation. Take pics =D Media tech turn on songx. Superb songx coz it is ROCK ! haha. Dedications were allowed & deres d sweeeeet ones. Awwww (: den arawnd 12, d whole skewl gathered in d hall.

Firman & bob was lyk. Nemind. & man, jgn luper kasi aleq aku nyer black band ehk. After d prize presentation, head to sembawang wit nadz & zalikha. T0ok 856 dere. Our purpose to sembawang was to eat mee soto. Heheh. Zalikha & her z0om mee soto ?? hahas. Kekek seyh. Den nadz went bec ferst. Zalikha & me bought bubble tea. After dat to d bustop & met nadz again. Den zalikha & me decided to take 962 wit nadz. nadz alight ferst, zalikha & me alighting at causeway point.

In d bus. Was bowt a’an. Hahas. Zalikha, aku lang ehk ? heheh. & alemak ! saw _____. Urgh. Whatever. Lucky dat we din confront each other. If nort, a cat fite wyl sure broke out. & btw, juz admit it lurh. I’ve admit it okay. Okay. Whatever. T0ok 858 bec to yishun. Zalikha missing wo0dlands. Babe, sorie urh psl aku JIWER yishun. HAHA.

Den mrayap at northpoint. Din wanna go home early. Wyl b boreddd to d core seyh. Went to power 9. saw diz billabong pouch. Xo preetaye ! another 20 bucks to save. Heheh. Toking bowt power 9, ayun, bler mau g tembak ?? ceyh. Hahas. Den went to mini t0ons. Gawsh ! I xo love dat micky mouse pouch. Nice gler ! another 20 bucks. Okay, not buying dat billabong pouch. d mickey mouse one wyl do =)

Den to popular. Belo sak aku ngan zal. Hahas. Syiok sendiri kat saner. Played wit kids toys. Pressing d buttons here & dere. Winx club fans ! ahakzx ! den deres diz guy, cam gler seyh dier. Aleh aleh jer dtg bobal. Lyk, huh ???? okay, watever jer lurh. we r criouzly belo-ing seyh. Hahas.

Den down to john little. At laz bought a new handfone pouch. But I doubt dat I’ll b using it fer my fone. Wyl b my purse rather. Hahas. Bought silver & grey eye shadow t0o. d French manicure was nice seyh. Heh. Den decided to chao.

800-ed home. One round turn as usual. Den lepak at our usual spot fer a while. Den went home & hah ! met LINA. Heheh. Decided to go to my house void deck & lepak wit her a while. Babe, kekek siots kau. aku ketawe sampai perot aku saket sak. HAHA. We’re super hyper seyh ! im turning into a laughing monster s0on :P

den came bec home & had a long cold bath. Feeling xo fresh after dat. Din go fer madrasah todae. partly coz i dont feel lyk going. Had leg cramp & having fever. Ahhhhh, I hate block nose ! pffffft.

Tomorrow had to go fer CIP. Shaw house area fer flag dae, lyk again. Pffffft. How boring. Im reallie sorie iqa, cant mit u tomorrow. Blame my CIP. Sorie babe.

Mama & me had a quarrel. Haix.. I hate it wen we quarrel but I really cant help it. I always regret after a quarrel or a fite wit u. but ma, u gotta understand. Y cant u ? I don’t understand. Really. U cant force me to do stuffs dat I don’t lyk. It wyl even make it worse. U shud noe by now how I wyl react or retaliate wen im forced to do tinkx dat I don’t lyk. Ur juz making tinkx worse fer me. Sorie to say. But its d fact. U said dat im stubborn, veryy. Yea I agree. But I bcame stubborn coz u don’t understand me. I tot u do. But slowly I realized, dat u don’t. sad :(

U said dat adeq iz much better den me & tinking y I cant b lyk her. & dat really pissed me off. Really. It hurts me wen u said dat. It sounds as if u love her more den me. Pilih kasih ! :( im sorie ma. Coz I cant & can never b lyk her. Coz dats her & nort me. Im juz being me. U always complaint dat I don’t study or at leaz revise everyday. But ma, u din c during late nytes. Im studying in d middle of d nyte. Ur asleep dats y u don’t noe. I cn concentrate better at nyte.

I donno how else to do or sae to make u understand me. I admit I sumtymps do sae to u dat I hate u after d quarrel or fite. But deep insyde, I styl love u. :(

byee.

2008-03-06T17:55:00.002+08:00

todae. freezing cold in d morning. even my comforter iz not enuff to warm me up. brrrrrr. met zalikha & off to skewl togeder. lessons were okay. assembly. blablablabla. lessons as usual lurh kans.

history. had tez & im gonna flunk it. y cant d info juz get stuck in my brain cells fer juz dat 40 mins ? pffffft. maths. was okay & fer d ferst tymp i finish my maths humwerk on tymp. heheh. recez. freaking COLD. was lyk shivering even wit my cardigan on. brrrrrr. physics. had tez t0o. i dunno if im gonna pass ? hopefully yes. english. 2 periods ! & again fer d ferst tymp i did manage to finish my english humwerkx on tymp. heheh. MT. okay lurh. mcm fun gitu. cikgu tot uz how to fold clothes. haha. c0ol gitu kans, d wae he fold. hahas.

after skewl wait fer zalikha + nadz. aliaa, expel ?? how cud it b ? *wonder* went to d canteen & had lunch. nadz went fer art & zalikha waited fer me before going home. sorie ehk kau kene wait lamer lamer.

w0oh0o ! gort my claz tee ! hapie ! =D 4B1, one class one soul. superb ! limeeeee greeeeeen ! nicenice. came bec home oni, had my bath & tried on my claz tee. was lyk xo smangat gitu. hahas. okay, im getting over xcited over d claz tee. haha :P

MSN-ing ryt now. twin, ur blog, done. any changes tell me kays. love u lurh twin (: chatting wit mamat & aisya again. im laughing my ass out ! hahahahahahaha. kekek siots. krg ni memang urh. belo sak. ahakzx ! okay, u peeps r turning me into a laughing monster. hahas :P

& oh. sorie bowt ytd nyte if i din pick up ur kolz or reply u peeps msgs. was bz. reallie sorie.

i love my claz tee ! (:

i styl hate u ! hmph !

i miss u dear.

2008-03-05T17:15:00.009+08:00

gawsh ! my water heater broke down ! y muz it happen during dis 'freezing' season. ahhhhhh. woke up to bathe & was lyk freezing. brrrrrrrrr. met zalikha, hahaha, im early. heheh. sorie babe. joking jer. todae xo many tinkx happened. unXpected-ly. tinkx dat i dont want it to happen, oxo happened. ahhhh. ***** !

skewl kinda, okay. nort kinda. but it is really ******* boreddd. pfffft. oh ya, dear, sorie i din picked up ur kols dis morning. sitting wit zalikha at d canteen. den she said dat we shud sit sumwhere else. but in d ferst place dats where we use to hang arawnd before skewl starts. dey r d ones hu 'intrude' our place. ******* ***** ! watever.

assembly. blablablabla. bec to claz. & todae was lyk freaking cold. brought my cardigan along. but styl, i m freezing cold. brrrrr. history was ferst. supposed to haf tez but upon sum of our requez. tez postponed to tomorrow. phew ! more tymp fer me to revise. thengzx. physics next. w0oh0o ! cam gerek gitu. was toking bowt MS fer d ferst period & dey imitate wad lim does. funnie siol ! HAHAHAHAHAHA. second period was okay. gotta revise fer tomorrow's tez. englsih was boringgggggg. ss, free period. MT was okay. cikgu let uz watched d tong hua ( sorie if it is wrong spelling ) muziq video. sad seyh :( den watched ms swan's video. funnie tu funnie. but nort enuff tymp & d video t0ok xo long to load. ms swan video craze was d laz tymp, i tink during our sec 2 daes. HAHA. chemistry s** ! really. she lyk giving uz attitude seyh. urgh ! okay watever.

getting claz tee tomorrow. lime greeeeeeeeen ! c0ol-ness oi =D oh i cant wait fer fridae, 87 march. skewls sports carnival. i dunno y im lyk xo juz cant wait fer dat dae. hahas. going to eat mee soto wit frenz after dat. w0oh0o =D

gawsh ! lorts of humwerk fer todae. oh how i wish deres sumone hu cud do my h/w fer me. im xo tiredd & sleepyyy todae. i cant cope wit my studies !

i hate u ! i hate u ! i hate u ! i hate u !
u lied. how cud u ?! i shud haf juz kick ur ass ! rather den toking to eu !
:(

MSN-ing now. wit frenz lurh kan. haha. & faieq, stop d blushing tingy newsflash ! hahaha :P aisya, burfdae prezen kau belated tau. sorie. aku nga budget urh babe. jumper bsk babe (:

im missing u a lort dear ! ily !

2008-03-04T18:25:00.002+08:00

okay, go. skewl todae was superr boreddddddd. mendak siots. & todae was super cold. im freezing. brrrrr. met hafiq under my blk ferst & bro, dun werrie t0o much. ur gurl, my fren, yana gonna b oryte ya. den went to d bustop mit zalikha. sorie i was late again. den head off to skewl togeder.

canteen's d place before assembly. hoho, we're laughing non stop thengzx to aliaa. HAHAHA. OMG ! bitch ! hahas. morning assembly, to claz due to d rainy weather. oh yes ! haha. silent reading styl goes on. d b0ok im reading now, oh i love d b0ok lurh. nice story. interesting one. paid 15 bucks fer claz tee. its kinda cheap owedie. i was shocked wen dey sae its oni 15 bucks. haha.

todae's lessons, sux. totally. xcept fer maths. chemistry, went thru d theory wrkbk. maths was d next 2 periods & luckily dat maths was nort boredd. boredom kills lurh. haha. jokes here & dere. mr goh even sae dat my claz iz quite adorable. haha. lesson todae was great. english next. boredddd. went thru synthesis. recez, i had no appetite.

& d next 5 periods was art. pffffft. went to cr2. new humwerk comink up. an A3 size anti drug poster + paper 2. 4 topics to ch0ose from & im doing d one on masquerades. masquerades r preetaye. i lyk. hahaha. task to finish by d end of d 5 periods r dat, 20 research ideas fer d anti drug tingy + 30 images fer d paper 2 topic. its starting ol over again now. art, art, art, art & art =.=

felt really really really cold fer everie lesson. & i cud ferget to bring my cardigan. oh how forgetful i can b. STM :X was shivering during art lessons. was already super cold & we're having lesson in d computer rum. oh how great. okay. dat was a sarcastic one. my nails look black-ish blue its as if i put on nail polish. hahahaha.

after skewl accompany gernette den went to mit dear. at laz. miss u a lort dear ! (: den went home. gort changed. went to mit mama. was otw walking to d bustop den saw quan wei. kinda miss d tymps wen he use to b part of d claz. oh well. after miting mama, went to mac area dere & mit up wit lina, hafiq & irul. lepak a while. den i went home ferst. urgh ! wanted to lepak longer but had menses cramps. its damn painful lurh. lina accompany me home. den hafiq & irul came along to accompnay me home t0o. thengzx peeps.

im sick. again. juz recovered & im sick again. pffffft. slight fever + blocked nose + soar throat. medicines again. ahhh, i hate medicines xpeciallie d tablet ones. its as if deres no effect on me after even taking d medicines. oh well. xo long im nort bedridden im okay lurh.

yea. changed blogskin. im loving dis blogskin (: nice oi. sweetest vanity. heheh. changed song t0o. when it falls apart by the veronicas. i love deir voices man. lyk serak serak rock gitu. cool lurh. hahs.

okay lurh.
byess(:

yana, hold on & b strong. steadies r here fer eu(:

2008-03-03T18:50:00.004+08:00

skewl was fine todae xcept fer sum parts of d dae. went to skewl wit zalikha & sorie im late again. woke up late again. suppose to mit dear but he's late. cant mit him. oh im missing him xo much ! imy ! imy ! imy ! haix..

at d canteen as usual & aliaa was lyk, OMG ! hahas. funnie oi. den assembly as usual. blablabla. dragon cant stop toking to me bowt dat terrorist guy saying he wants to catch him watsoever. hahas. funnie seyh. bec to claz. i was lyk tiredd. xtra tiredd. i cant even climb up d stairs properly. sad case :X

maths was ferst & wad a tink to start d dae. i failed my maths test. sad seyh. sob. sob. sob :(wanted badly to paz diz tez. haix.. a bad start lurh. MT was next. 2 periods & we did nutink. we're juz toking & toking bowt dat terrorist guy. d news seems to b sizzling hawt in my claz. HAHA. PE after dat. mass skipping ! okay okay oni. ss was super boredddd. watched a video bowt d september 11 attack. history was not okay. i fell asleep during dat lesson. pfffft. sorie but i was really exhausted dunno fer wad reason :X chemistry, oh gawd ! 2 periods. but at least fer todae i survived. heheh. english was d laz period. she came in late xo we had oni 20 mins of lesson. xo, its nort xo bad lurh & in claz, HY drew on d terrorist guy face from d newspaper. HAHAHAHAHA. gler maot nyer dok.

after skewl met zalikha. stayed bec fer mass skipping wit d rez of those involved in my claz. zalikha accompany me. thengzx babe (: at arawnd 3:45pm we head bec home. went home wit zalikha + gernette t0o. bought bubble tea before heading home.

gernette went home ferst. zalikha & me t0ok 80o home. as usual, one round turn. toked bowt a'an. suker zal. hehehehe. in d bus, i was freaking cold. super freezing. brrrrrrrrr. my nails tuned blue black. i said to zalikha dat im gonna haf fever wen i get home. true enuff im having fever ryt now. ahhh, mulot aku cabol urh :X okay watever.

den came bec home & bathe. MSN-ing ryt now. okay, mamat & aisya was super gerek ! hahas. lorts of jokes urh dey & firman send me a pic. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. klaka dok. takle angkat babe ! okay, im laughing my ass out. HAHAHAHAHA. chat wit fattah t0o, my pri skewl fren & u're nort bad ursef lurh fren, really. dont tok bec. hahas. he's styl d same. a joker as usual =D

okay. kinda mendak ryt now. okay. off to do my maths humwerk.
& oh ya, bastard get a lyfe !

shake dat ass & do d pari dance ! :P

byess.

2008-03-02T10:50:00.000+08:00

yesterdae nyte was super kecoh. i was bz bluetooth-ing songx from my laptop to my hp. while doing dat. me, mama & adeq waz joking & waz crapping non stop. laugh lyk hella. fun oi ! suddenlie tok bowt sumtink & man toyok came in. HAHAHAHAHAHA. klaka gler maot. tak le angkat babe.

& yesterdae nyte, dear was just oh so sweet. d msg he send reallie made me feel xo loved. i juz hope dat he wyl nort break my heart coz i dun wanna suffer any more heartbreaks. it hurts. it reallie hurts. now, slowly, dear is mending my broken heart. i love u dear (:

okay. wads fer todae. nutink yet actuallie. mama woke up early in d morning to go fer her gym class. i woke up, bathe & now blogging, chatting, MSN-ing. super mendak lurh. pffffft. any suggestions fer wad i can do fer now ?

& oh ya. to my dearest cuzzin, Ayun.
HAPIE 14th BURFDAE BABE !
pssst, act lyk 14 ehk. hehe. mit ya later babe (:

haf juz bluet0oth pics from hp to laptop. sum pics, reminds me of those fun tymps i had wit my frens. memories ~ how i miss those tymps oh xo much. can turn bec tymp ? how i wish. how great. i've recovered from my fever. now i can do wad i owaesh do wit steadies. lepak. heheh.

chatting wit mamat & aisya. my two new frens. gerek oi chat wit demme. funnie, klaka. fun lurh u peeps ! =D okay, im laughing my ass out ! :P

okay. tyl here den. i miss steadies ! i miss sis yana :( i miss dear t0o !
:D

byess(:

2008-03-01T16:30:00.000+08:00

today is super mendak !! boreddd. boreddd. boredd. dunno wad to update. oh well. i'll juz start crapping & lame-ing aite ? click d top right hand corner X if u r nort interested ya. bye ! oh great. im sick =.= adeq t0o. she gort from me ? i gort it from her ? watevers. aiya, HEAVY seyh. okay, craps. pffffft.

flu + fever giving me headache. had owedie planned to mit steadies. since im sick, its cancelled. sorie peeps. but i really don wanna trouble u peeps since im sick. u noe wad im lyk wen im sick. i can get pretty grumpy & kinda cranky wenever a lil sumtink gone wrong. next tymp perhaps ? & sorie again, tomorrow i cant. celebrating my cuzzin's burfdae wit my family & relatives. i feel xo bad :(

mama moving on to her new werkplace after d march holidays. w0oh0o ! since she has a higher cert, might as well she quit where shes werking now, apply at a new place & get better pay since where shes werking does not want to increase her pay although she owedie has a higher cert level. & she listened to me & gort herself a new werking place wit a higher pay. ol d bez mama(:

zalikha, blog, done. but babe, i change d becgrwand coz u noe wad. any changes to it, juz feel free to tell me aites.

woke up at arawnd 9am. bathe & haf been on9 tyl now. chat & made new frens. kip in touch yaw. loving eu new peeps. anitnk juz beep me ya (: mama iz home now & she wants to dye her hair ? wo0h0o ! im shocked. really m :P & mama ask me fer help. mama, i'll b sure to help. im pro at diz. haha :P

mama bought me my everyday drug ; bubble tea chocolate oreo ! heheh. she dis-allowed me in d ferst place but i dunno y i started to whine & at laz she gave up & bought it. haha. okay, i noe, i sound SUPER CHILDISH ! i admit it lurh.

i want to haf preetaye & flawless face complexion ! in progress ? haha. okay, craps. lina bought me a complete makeup set. 0oh0o ! thengzx babe (: & deres green eyeliner. hahas. i dunno wen m i supposed to put on dat ? haha. maeb during dat party ? o.0 we'll c.

adeq, sick but has been bz wit my fone. bluetooth-ing songx. i kinda lyk techno now. its lyk suddenlie. but styl setia wit ROCK. coz i hell yeah love rock bebeh ! & now i lyk emo style ?? i dunno. its oni d STYLE okay & nort d attitude. wtf. one more tink, stop koling minah okay. coz im nort one. pfffft.

dear, imy.

byess(:

2008-02-29T16:20:00.001+08:00

todae, was okay, i guess. woke up late, lyk again. but styl i cud take tymp getting readie fer skewl. i was in d super no mood fer skewl & studies todae. came to skewl wit ol d humwerks, undone.

as usual ; assembly & blablabla. bec to claz taking my tymp. PE was d ferst period. at leaz it did cheered me up & pump me sum energy. heheh. mass skipping. i stopped half wae. my bruised toe styl hurts. i want my toe to get better by next fridae. skewl sports carnival seyh. at leaz a dae to skewl without a nid to study. haha. next was MT. okay. i gort saman again. haha. ok, watever. third was maths. super okay. done wit ol d humwerks during d lesson itself. heheh :P english was next. super boredddd lurh. than recez. d black pepper chicken super nice lurh. i want more, can ? HAHAHA. ss after recez. had tez. oh gawd ! im prepared to fail. i forgotten everitink dat i've revised criouzly d nyte before. oh great. pffffft. Lskills laz period. discussed bowt claz tee & at laz everitinkx settled fer d design. sum of demme wyl c d vendor & discuss todae. lime green claz tee. nice oi ! =D

after skewl. went home straight home. msged ayun to teman me. was feeling super mendak. xo everitinkx settled. i went home ferst. she waited fer me down my blk & told her to come up & wait insyde d house. gort changed & how dare she wants to runaway wit my laptop. HAHAHA. ayun, oh no u cant. haha. went to d library ferst & elson, i've returned d b0oks fer eu owedie. den head off to northpoint. din want to go far coz lazy. janji kuwa dari uma suda. heheh. went to get my earstuds. at laz bought d one dat i wanted. den went to mini t0ons, tot of buying dat mickey mouse cosmetic bag but, nort enuff budget urh :( & saw diz pri skewl fren of mine. skrg da nak step cm mat seyh. ok, watever.

went to john little, looked arawnd. actuallie deres lorts of stuffs i wanted to buy. to replace wadever dat is finishing. lyk i said, nort enuff budget. xo, oni bought wad nided d moz & bought concealer. after dat, walked arawnd. ayun & me was lyk crapping non stop. haha. gerek oi. saw d sec3 gurlz. smiled(: saw mu fang & jasmine t0o(: bought mcFlurry den off to d interchange. t0ok 804 home. as usual fer me, t0ok one round to alight. haha. org da tade keje cm gini lurh ehk. saw those mats was lyk, urgh & stop it okay ! i dont lyk it !

was otw bec home & met lina. its lyk we noe wen each other cumink bec home. usually wenever we're going bec home, we're sure to bump into each other. xo, walk bec to mcdonalds at 200+ dere. sat down, chatting & laughing awae. saw fiq & irul. kold demme & dey join uz & we're having a great tymp. i juz love demme oh xo much, my darling frens & nort forgetting d rez of steadies t0o(:

came bec home. bathe & here i m now blogging on todae's stuffs. okay. tyl here den. laptop is charging ryt now.

dear, im missing u a lort !

byesss(:

2008-02-28T19:35:00.000+08:00

wad abowt today, boredd + okay + super gerek ! skewl started late todae. xo ya, cud take my tymp in getting readie. woke up late but styl, managed to mit zalikha. morning assembly was lyk oh watever. blablabla. eng wik closure stuffs & watsoever. lessons were preetaye oryte fer me.

history ; as usual. d subject wic i hate d moz but love to attend d claz. get it ? haha. maths ; urgh ! can i re-take d tez, pls ? oh gawsh ! im xo nort gonna make it lurh. i dont even haf d confidence to say dat i cud improve at leaz 3 marks from my laz tez. sob. sob. sob :( recez ; zalikha told me ......... gurl, dun cry animore. u styl haf me sis(: physics ; oh yeah ! at laz i understood d topic bowt circuits & how to solve in finding d voltage, current & blabla. hapie oi. english ; 2 periods dok. i was lyk so smangat fer english. tink hard to do my compo draft. haha. MT ; funnie seyh. hahahahahaha.

after skewl met zalikha. sat wit her. tok tok. met hada. watched d 12 OP idol finalist performing. awesome performance i wud sae. zalikha was d OP idol fer 2008 ! congrats babe ! hapie fer eu (: went home at arawnd nearly 6pm. at d bustop waiting fer 811 & toking bowt FB. hahas ! we may sound evil but FB iz evil-er. hate FB freaking ultra very much ! grrrr !

went home wit zalikha. waz otw bec & terserempak ngan hafiq. xo, he teman me to my blk as we tok coz he's going to d same direction. d rain, making me sick. having fever ryt now. at leaz nort xo bad lyk i use to haf on rainy daes. thengzx to my bro's jacket. wyl return it to eu tomorrow morning aite hafiq. juz dont b late. heheh :P

okay. im tiredd. gonna finish up on my maths & den to bed after medicine. hope i'll get better by tomorrow. oh ya, juz remembered. gotta revise fer social studies tez t0morrow. i wanna paz diz tez. really. i haf nort even paz any tez xcept fer physics. sad seyh :(

it has been 2 daes since we mit. dear, im missing u a lort. imy a lort dear !

byess(:

2008-02-27T16:30:00.003+08:00

b0o yah ! haha. todae iz juz another dae of normal skewl lyfe. but sumhow todae, its lyk xo mendak lurh. boredd boredd boredd. pffft =.= how boring can skewl be ? oh watever. met zalikha & off to skewl togeder. i dont feel t0o gud diz morning. giddy & feeling nauseaous. dear put a smile before i head off to skewl(:

morning assembly as usual & ewww ! a cockroach from dunno where appeared. i was xo freak out, i jump up from where i was sitting. paiseyh lurh. but at leaz im nort alone. deres d other few. hahah. but, ewwwww ! seyh. haha. bec to claz, lessons as usual.

history ; was preetaye much fine. mr nair, haha. joker seyh. deres owaesh sumtink dat made d claz laugh =D physics ; 2 periods. boreddd + sleepyyyy. i criouzly cant concentrate feeling giddy & nauseaous. english ; free period ! heheh. received O level verification slip. signed. & now i muz really study hard + concentrate =P maths ; oh yea. super fine. at laz a topic dat i can really understand =) ss ; okay. MT ; boring oi. pfffft. kene saman lagi. chemistry ; ahhhh. d period dat i juz felt lyk xcaping. super duper ultra boredd oi. can sleep seyh *yawn*. assembly ; fer upper sec todae. watched d laz two sec3 team standing fer debating. awesome i wud sae. congrtas to d winning team.

d claz tee. i styl prefer d old design wit d bass. super c0ol seyh. but due to d i dont like d design tingy. it haz to b cancelled & d designers r forced to design a new one. dont like, den giv ideas lurh. deres nort much tymp left before d skewl sports carnival.

after skewl, mr lim tok bowt d O & N level tingy. lyk blablabla. den im off bec home. sorie pearl, bowt juz now. aku tak free. get changed, met steadies + hafiq's babe. gerek oi lepak tadi. dey r sucha darling peeps. love eu peeps many many ! muwarhs ! miss those super duper ultra deedooper fun fun tymps seyh at sentosa laz yr. diz year, another outing. styl planning though. yay ! heheh. lina & yana, thengzx ya babes(:

i hate friendster lurh. its getting slower & slower. maken mepek pon ader. hey, stop using other ppl's name to spam other ppl's blog okay ! childish freaks !

k lurh.
byes(:

& dear, i miss u xo much ! love u Y

2008-02-26T17:25:00.004+08:00

okay now. din blog d past few daes. im juz t0o tiredddd. stay up late yesterday nite to do my art. but in d end, its nort done. pffffft. skewl waz preetaye fine t0dae. as usual, went to skewl wit zalikha. met lina downstarirs ferst before miting zalikha. thengzx ya lina. ur such a darling fren(:

came to skewl at arawnd 7am. did a bit of my undone art stuffs. bec to claz as deres no assembly. reading & blablabla d usual stuffs. lessons as per normal. chemistry, urgh ! & freaking boreddd. maths, 2 periods ! was okay. english ; free period ! cher nort in skewl. did art. but styl, its undone. art, 5 periods. had CA1 fer art. & haix.. i doubt i can pass my art final layout. sad seyh :(

after skewl, waz lyk xo tired after d art. went to d canteen wit zalikha. den walked arawnd d skewl & she told me sumtink bowt.................. secret lurh. hahas. its was lyk, freaking-ly ewwww ! okay, i sound evil. haha. but really, lyk desperado seyh dier. oh watever.

dear fetch me & send me home(: oh how i miss him oh xo much ! <3

its reallie difficult to judge a person eventhough u noe demme very well. now i noe d reasons to d qns dat has been kept in my mind. its really saddening dat even ur closest cud hurt u juz lyk dat. oh well. humans r humans. but, dats juz t0o vicious. i've forgotten those pasts. im feeling relieved & beta dat i've gort d ans. g0odbye to those hapie moments we had. i've long forgotten it & never wyl ever want it to b bec. it wyl oni hurt me more. u may say im cruel. but hey, b thankful dat i've forgiven u. but im sorie, we cant b lyk before. we're juz bec to square one. strangers. im evil u sae ? but tink. wad wyl u do wen dat tragedy were to happened to u. u wud haf done watever i've done ryt. g0odbye ex-fren. hell yeah, i've moved on (:

&& one more tink. i juz dont understand bowt spammers ? oh well. watever lurh ehk. i can styl accept if d person type in deir REAL name & tell hu dey really r & spam? fer sum reasons or conflicts dey r having & den mit & try to solve it. its bad enuff but at leaz dey haf real sumtink happening btwin each other. but d one i cant take it iz wen dey dont put deir real name. okay dats one tink & wen dey start to tag bowt craps & tok sh*t. kol ppl names lyk bitch, sundal & watsoever. hey, u tink u r xo preetaye or hansem or perfectly perfect izzit ? pui urh ! damn ! to hell urh ! ppl din do anitink & drg nak carik hal. lyk wad d !? one tink fer those unknown spammers, krg tu kental ! penakot ! kalo brani, dtg jumper tunjok muker urh ! hak pui !!

2008-02-23T13:00:00.000+08:00

Hey, hey
Hey, hey

Sometimes I feel like
Everybody's got a problem
Sometimes I feel like
Nobody wants to solve them
I know that people say
We're never gonna make it
But I know we're gonna get through this

Close your eyes
And please don't let me go
Don't, don't, don't let me go now
Close your eyes
Don't let me let you go
Don't, don't, don't

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We can find some place to go
'Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Hey, hey
Hey, hey

The city sleeps
And we're lost in the moment
Another kiss
As we're lying on the pavement
If they could see us
They would tell us that we're crazy
But I know they just don't understand

Close your eyes
And please don't let me go
Don't, don't, don't let me go now
Close your eyes
Don't let me let you go
Don't, don't, don't

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We can find some place to go
'Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Hey, hey
Hey, hey
Hey, hey

The raindrops
The tears keep falling
I see your face
And it keeps me going
(Hey, hey)
If I get lost
Your light's gonna guide me
And I know that you can take me home
You can take me home

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We can find some place to go
'Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We can find some place to go
(Find some place to go)
'Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
(Love will never die)
Take my hand tonight
One last time
(One last time)

ehk, brani buat brani tanggong urh s**l ! step terror konon ! brambobs urh ! padehal kau tu penakot ! penakot ! penakot ! arif, c'mon. get a lyfe lurh.

2008-02-22T14:50:00.007+08:00

Y Hapie 2nd month anniversary, dear (:
iLoveYou <3

todae waz a preetaye fine dae fer me. i guess it waz okay. went to skewl wit zalikha & d 8o4 bus lyk, nemind. cam budak bodoh croz saner croz sini. haha.

saw _____ on d bus. dont bother. y of ol tymps, it muz b todae ? pffffft. dont bother trying to patch tinkx up to b perfect coz it can never be. we're bezfrenz since primary skewl daes. but d dae u broke my heart into million pieces, dat i realize how & wad u c me as. its true dat i've forgiven u but i can never ferget d misery u crash upon me. now, ur juz another JUST fren of mine. b thengful dat i c u at leaz as a fren & nort a stranger. sorie, coz its juz to painful fer me to take fer uz to b bec lyk d old daes. probs might b solved. but styl, dere r crackx here & dere dat can never b perfect once again. juz lyk a mirror. once broken, its broken. coz no matter how hard u try to glue or stick bec d pieces, d crackx r styl to b seen.

in skewl. sat in d canteen. chat + laugh. usually wen it's 7:20am, deres a bell. but den, todae, deres none. xo no one waz lining up at d parade square. once ms s0o said its already 1 min after 7:20am. everiebodie lyk quickly line up. hahas. kekek seyh ;P assembly, blablabla & zalikha made it to d finals fer d OP idol. weewit ! congrats babe !

PE waz ferst. practiced mass skipping. fun oi ! muz win gold again diz yr fer 4B1. ceyh. heheh. d tymp of d year where wen PE period ends, deres no one moving bec to claz. haha. fun seyh =D MT ; okay urh. boredd seyh asyek pemahaman. cikgu lyk purposely want to saman seyh & i gort 10 cents fine. HAHA ;P maths ; waz okay. but a bit confused. gotta buck up on my maths lurh. weird. claz werk i can do, full markx even. but wen it cumz to tez or exams, i failed ; terribly. i juz hate wen it cumz to subjects wit numbers. pfffft. english ; went to d library. NLB came to our skewl allowing uz to borrow d b0okx from d NLB. borrowed one b0ok. compulsory. watever~ ss ; watched dat movie again. 'army days'. funnie oi ! we finished watching it todae. want watch again seyh. Lskills ; one werd, boreddddd.

after skewl ; went to d bustop at OCBC wit wani to meet dear(: waz walking half wae, den haiqi kold out my name. lyk how does he noe bowt dear ? o.0 waz wif tepon den saw mr nath & mrs tan. waz lyk a BIG PHEW ! dey din caught me & wani. scary oi ! phew~ waz sitting at d stairs waiting fer dear. den saw a rat. i was lyk xo freaked out & RAN AWAY. haha. paiseyh seyh ppl c. malu siak ! rats, disgusting ! & dear send me home(:

alone ryt now. d cat keeping me company. heheh ;P

kay lurh.
slamat doks !
byessssss(:

2008-02-21T17:00:00.003+08:00

HAPIE 17th BURFDAE BRUDDER YUL ! ;D
psst, act 17 tau. hahas. may ol ur wishes cum true(:

skewl. hmm, fun + boredd + sleepyyy + watever. where shud i start ? & ya, dun bother to read if ur nort gonna finish reading it. hahas ;P

as usual. to skewl wit zalikha. in 811, f**ked up seyh ! dat auntie urh. OP stewdents r ol nort scared of eu lurh. dont tink dat ur older den uz u can anihow shout here & dere. how r we suppose to respect u wen u ursef do not respect uz. complain complain urh. ur juz embarassing ursef lurh. nak carik hal jgn nak tarik masok mak ngan bapak urh siak. ur going home & we're going to skewl. wic one iz much more important ? tell me urh. missed ur stop den want to blame uz urh !? WTH ! haf to turn one round, u wont die ryt !? hate hate hate ppl lyk u urh ! tau carik pasal jer ! u admit dat d complaints received by d skewl r by u. nutink beta to do urh ?! oni noe how to complain. sh*ts !

assembly. boreddd gler maot. eng wik stuffs. blablablabla. bec to claz. history ; waz okay. maths ; waz oryte. physics ; waz preetaye fine. english ; had comphre tez. i doubt dat im gonna pass. ultra damn sleepyyyyy. finish up d paper quickly & sleep. MT ; hahahahahahahaha. cikgu, funnie urh =D

1:40, skewl dismissed. went to d canteen wit zalikha + nadz. chat den off to physics remedial. physics remedial, hahahahahaha. funnie oi ! d claz bcame very chaotic. laughing lyk no ones besswax. 4B1 '08 rawkx lurh oi ! =D lovelove my claz. i din xpect d remedial to finish xo early. 45 mins & we're dismissed. heheh. went bec home wit gernette. met iqa at my blk. sis, im really sorie to hear bowt dat. wyl try to figure out sumtink kay. dun werrie sis. steadies r here fer u. cheer up(:

new becgrawnd + header fer my blog. yeap, VERYYYYYYYYY SIMPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, i noe. simple iz d bez. no theme. juz mix & match. dats juz how d wae i lyk it =D dont bother saying anitink, coz diz iz my blog & respect lurh ehk. simplicity rawkx !

okay, dats ol lurh.
byesssssss(:

2008-02-20T15:50:00.000+08:00

skewl lyk gerek urh todae. went to skewl wit zalikha den met dear after dat. came in to skewl genap genap. haha. assembly waz lyk watever. blablabla.

history ; okay. mr nair lyk prasan gitu. hahas. but watever it iz, he's kinda great tcher lurh. jokex r lame but styl it did cheer d claz up(: i wanna noe my history re-tez markx ! physics ; yay - ness ! 2 periods free ! cher absent from skewl. w0oh0o ! lyk at laz deres no physics. hahas. english ; i cant open my eyes. sleepinggggg. d laz 15 mins den im awake. maths ; okay urh. new chapter, chapter 3. xo far xo gud. managed to understand & do it. ss ; hahas. as usual. laughter, craps, jokes here & dere. MT ; had tez. boredddd. lucky deres no peribahasa. chemistry ; another free period ! w0oh0o ! went to d hall. d guys, urm, nemind. haha. rasul & firman tak baeq seyh. krg tanyer soalan seme mepek mepek seyh. hahas. assembly ; fer lower sec todae. sat in claz. chaotic seyh but fun urh. d claz discussed bowt making a claz t-shirt(:

after skewl ; went home. in d bus den saw wani. tok tok den i alight from d bus near chongfu primary. walk up d stairs wit huimin, tok a bit den go seperate waes. otw home, saw irul. chatted a while den go home. da d gurl lurh seyh. laz long kays ?

k lurh.
byesss(:

2008-02-19T17:25:00.000+08:00

todae, hmm, okay okay + fun + boredd + meluat. urgh ! skewl as usual. met dear in the morning(: juz in tymp fer assembly wen reached skewl. assembly waz lyk blablablabla. den daus waz lyk saying loser, DB & i join in t0o. hahas ! lyk irritating seyh drg. step oni. mampos urh sial !

lessons lyk xo d boredd lurh todae. freaking tiredd. chemistry ; boredd-ness lurh. maths ; 2 periods ! was okay but i hate it wen im suppose to ans qns. im kinda slow lurh in maths. ya, a bit dumbdumb :X english ; slack-ness. hahas.

art ; 5 periods ! todae's lesson waz okay. surprisingly mdm loy din sae a werd bowt my werk. haha. did layout. den she sponsored uz by fotocopying our layout into smaller den A4 size. 6 pieces fer colour scheme. many seyh. no idea wad colours to use. was released early. waited fer zalikha & oxo pearl & nadz.

after skewl ; tot dere waz nutink on but den receive news from wani saying dat dere wyl b malay remedial. wad lurh. at ferst lazy want to go but at laz styl haf to go. went up to claz wit pearl. we tot dat we r late but instead cikgu waz late. haha. nort really remedial to sae. juz did d paper, went thru d ans den can go home. wad a remedial kan. hahas. easy ;P

met dear after remedial. he send me home(: now, waiting fer mama to come bec home from werk & help me out to set up d wireless network fer my laptop.

okay lurh.
byesssss(:

2008-02-18T17:00:00.000+08:00

1602 stuffs (continuation) ;
met mama at bustop den off to causeway point. went to courts, looked arawnd. at laz, bought a laptop. my VERY OWN laptop. hapie lurh seyh(: gort a free laptop bag. but, UGLY seyh. hahas. niwae itz free. juz put asyde & let it collect dust =D

1702 stuffs ;
had lunch at causeway point lyk again wit mama & adeq. after dat walked arawnd. saw LINA darling(: bought headfone. another wants, fulfilled(: after dat went home. at arawnd 5pm went out again wit mama. met ibu at sembawang mrt station. borrowed d microsoft word installation cd. to install in my laptop. i dun understand on how to use d microsoft works tingy :X

&& aidil waz dere. dat kiut baby boi ! geram seyh ngok dier. very d bambam !! geram oi ! now he noes how to laugh & smile a lort. ahhhhh, kiutt lurh aidil =D after dat went to sun plaza went to bought d router + d wire. gort discount seyh dat shop. usual price wyl b $89 without wire but diz shop $85 + wire. original, same brand, same everitink. hahas.

today's stuffs ;
skewl as usual. went to skewl wit zalikha. din tok much. cramp lurh. lyk suddenlie came wen getting readie fer skewl. tot of taking MC fer todae. but, aiya, ferget it. bear wit d pain to skewl & ader seyh. watever~

skewl assembly as per normal & lucky i brought my eng storyb0ok along. i was lyk so sleepyyyyyyyyyy lurh todae. dunno fer wad reason. but i slept kinda early yesterday. oh watever lurh kan. bec to claz, lessons. dis & dat. blablabla.

maths ; concentrated. humwerk handed in. MT ; 2 periods. had compo test & i tink im gonna nort pass diz tez. oh gawd ! & diz wud d ferst tymp ever dat i failed my malay. paiseyh paiseyh. but ya, i cant concentrate juz now. i cant stand it. waz juz t0o sleepyy. put my head on d table while doing d tez & my eyes r always closing. tiredddd. sh*t urh. PE ; did nutink. juz dat cher sorting out to those taking part in d skewl's sports carnival. everieone lurh actually. 6 events. i t0ok part in d mass skipping, as usual. boredddddd seyh d events. everie year iz d same. how bored can my skewl be ! pffffft.

SS ; went thru reliability corrections FULLSTOP history ; did nutink dat haz gort to do wit history. went to itr 2, watched video on those waist down paralyse, fergort d sickness or watever. sumtink gort to do wit our CIP. flag dae AGAIN. bored =.= chemistry ; 2 periods. went to chemistry/ bio/ physics lab. anione of it lurh. cant remember. STM :X hahas. did d xperiment. xo easy lurh seyh. ans ol given by cher, juz do practical, no theory. ah, datz wad i lyk. HAHA. english ; dang ! slept in claz. bleaghs ! ;P sleepyyyyy.

4b1 planning to do claz t-shirt. oh yes(: styl in d process.......

after skewl, went home. met AYUN. ate at mcdonalds. den she chao to fetch her adeq. i went home den met hafiq + iqa. chatted & im blogging ryt now under my blk wit hafiq's laptop. heheh. waiting fer hafiq's syg to come & join uz. haha.

okay. tyl here babes.
take kaiiress yaw.
byessssssssss(:

2008-02-16T11:40:00.003+08:00

thank god ! im okay. d doc says im fine. was really scared went d resultz r out. juz bcoz i had irregular meals & diz has to happened. luckily itz oni mild gastric. steadies, maceh fer teman-ing me.

yul & uz r bec togeder as usual. d kecoh glers ! oh gwash ! u din noe how hapie i waz went we r bec togeder as a grp. complete family. we're lyk a family now. true frenz r really hard to find. but i haf mine. 10 yrz & styl counting(: i want uz to laz & oni death do uz apart. gotta mit out s0on kays ? i miss eu peeps lurh.

skewl lyfe ; sux ! i hate sec4 lyfe. t0o much to cope lurh. tried studying but styl. oh well. nutink iz achieved overnyte kan. gotta werk much harder ? yeah, i guess xo. frankly, i hate studying. im nort a goody goody hu stays at home ol dae, stuck in d r0om & studying. was juz tinking on how sum cud study + concentrate fer 5-6 hrz ?! woah !

personal lyfe ; im contented with wad i haf ryt now. a family hu showers me wit love & concern. but i miss my papa xo much :( i juz wish he's styl arawnd but god loves him more. i haf my dear hu loves me. frenz hu owaesh cheers me up & made me smile. relatives + cuzzies hu rawkx my werld. i juz love demme xo much !

im pampered u sae. but yea its true. i waz pampered wen my papa waz arawnd. wen he's gone. haix.... now, no more asking much money from mama. i earn my own money & saving to get watever i want. im no more d one hu owaesh ask money from parents to get watever i want. sum ppl juz dont understand. i dont cum from a wealthy family. normal. sederhana. i dare sae dat i lyk to buy branded stuffs. hu sae dat normal income family cant afford those ? its juz d wae on how eu spent d money. get it ?

i fear losing my loved ones :(

2008-02-15T14:50:00.000+08:00

197th post ;

okay. lemme juz liz down wad happens fer everie period.

d buses came kinda early todae. weird gitu. haha. met him. thengkiew fer d gift dear(: came in to d skewl canteen. sort out my art. my unfinished art humwerk rather. put it insyde dat plastic folder & send it insyde cher's locker. im gonna get a scolding from her diz tues ? oh well. cant cope wit art lurh. fer d sake of finishing her werk, i slept at 3am & i cant do my other humwerkx. =.=

went to d skewl hall fer assembly. had d total defence tingy going on. watched d 'without warning'. boreddddddddd lurh. d siren stuffs & watever & d elctricity iz cut off tyl skewls dismissed & canteens close during recez. watever~

PE waz d ferst period actuallie. due to dat total defence tingy, no PE. wad seyh. next waz MT, was supposed to do d werk given. but standard urh, din do. waz chatting instead. wen cumz to MT, craps here & dere. laughters(: & daus, kau da sampok aku ngan tonggeng kau urh. haha. cikgu told uz dat deres gonna b an emergency evacuation practice. siren wyl go off at 9:15. MT claz ends at 9:10. xo, we hang arawnd d claz area den went to d field wen d siren goes. siren goes off, kecoh sak. luckily its nort a hawt sunny dae, if not, d field, gawsh, freaking hawt seyh.

our field now iz d carpeted grass. we use to pluck out d grass but now played wit d black stuffs. dat rubber stuffs dat covers d playgrawnd grawnd. kumpol kumpol kumpol, lempar kat org. haha. okay, i noe. childish kan. HAHA. lyk wad fattah said, oreo. haha. hapie lurh d emergency happen at d ryt tymp. wic iz during maths lesson ! ahakzx ! skipped maths lesson, fun lurh. but styl gort humwerk. pffffft.

english, very d slack gler maot. had oni spelling. den nutink. but kinda d claz kinda warm. no electricity = to no fan. watever~ waited fer d bell to ring fer recez. recez, d whole skewl iz given bicsuits + crysanthemum or winter melon or green tea. yadayadayada. trying to get uz feel wen an emergency happens. tekak kering siot. im nort hungry but thirsty. wanted to buy drink, but drink stall close, vending machine cannot use, coz d skewl purposely shut d electricity off. pffffft.

after recez, waz SS. went to, errr, cant remember wad ro0m. muziq ? AVA ? watched d movie from d laz lesson. 'army days'. kekek seyh tu cite. hahahahaha. lucky deres aircon wic iz werking. heheh. den after SS, ms chang came in, Lskills, itz lyk no ones paying attention. waz lyk xo cold in d r0om. brrrrrr. den suddenlie everieone waz looking at ICs. haha. den deres announcement from mrs tan after d siren. wasnt paying attention. toking instead. den skewls dismissed !

had lunch in skewl wit daus & zalikha. den chao met LINA darling. den came home. tiredddd urh. kay lurh. dats ol ehk.

byeeeeeess hunny bunnies !
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2008-02-14T20:55:00.001+08:00

HAPIE VALENTINES DAE ! ;D

special THENGKIEW to;
LINA hunney, thengzx fer d bear. INA darling, thengzx fer d p0oh. IQA kecik, thengzx fer d bracelet. IRUL, thengzx fer d chocolates. HAFIQ, FIQ, YUL, KHAIRIL, thengzx fer d sweet frenship msgs. i love u ol lurh(:

todae, skewl, waz okay. during recez, LAME seyh. dedication corner iz created. ya, fer those hu wans to wish any valentines wishes to anibodie. but i find those doing dat without giving deir real names r COWARDS. wad seyh. u lyk, den tell. overcome d shy-ness lurh. watever~

lessons were okay. studied my history overnyte & i juz hope dat i can pass. after skewl ; alemak ! dat pakcik urh. carik hal seyh ! step ah long urh. pegedah ! wad darah org up urh. pffffft.
stayed bec a while with daus & zalikha. den at 3pm, chao ferst. went home, bathe, get changed den met cuzzy, den to np, bought sumtinkx, crap here & dere. went home. to ayun ; glernyer nyanyok ! bleaghs ! ;P

i njoyed my day todae !
love eu ol lurh(:
muahs !
take kaiires(:

2008-02-13T16:50:00.002+08:00

195th post ;

HAPIE 16th BURFDAE LINA ! ;D
may ol ur wishes cum thru sis & gud luck fer ur O's t0o hunney(:

no updates fer 1202 ; im sick. fever + gastric + abdominal pain + vomiting. gawsh ! how much worse can it get ? d pains killing me. to mr goh ; maths tcher, yea i noe, thengzx fer d concern(: to ms chang, thengzx fer ur advice & dun werrie i'll try my bez nort to make it happen again(: gernette, thengzx ya fer updating me on wads going on. it haz been juz one dae absent from skewl & ders xo many stuffs going on. humwerkx piling up lyk a mountain xpeciallie ART.

i dont understand y my art tcher lyk xo kanchong ? lyk really, y ? i simply dont get it or m i juz too dumb to understand ? she said iz fer O levels. ya okay we understand. but O level iz next year & d qns to ch0ose from r nort even out yet fer uz. arts stressing me up ! felt lyk giving up. lyk suddenlie felt giving up on art, fer d ferst tymp. dang !

absent fer oni one dae & aku nie cam d phobia nak absent. haha. suddenlie cum bec to skewl, humwerkx here & dere. cant cope lurh lyk diz ! lyk t0o much fer me to handle. i've started to study fer everie tez. though nort much but at leaz i start to make an effort to at leaz read up on d chapters dats gonna b tested on. eventhough i studied + concentrate, tez marks, lyk hell ! argh ! fed up siak cam ginie !

taking O level sumore diz year. haix.. wen i waz in sec2 i haf tot bowt it. after taking my N in sec4, decided to graduate from opss & continue to ITE. but now.. haiya. wen cums to sec3, im put into d NA through train stream. we'll b taking O in sec5 but wyl nort b taking N in sec4 & oxo taking xprez studies. kinda hapie but slowly as d months paz, i kinda regret getting into dat stream. i criouzly cant cope. itz lyk, xo sudden, dat fer 2 yrz in NA & suddenlie being push to xprez. pffffft.

lortz of medicine to take ; fever, gastric, vomiting, abdominal pain. hate it lurh wen nid to swallow tablet. cam menyekse gitu. haha ;P

skewl todae, kinda boring lurh. at leaz physics cheered me up & made me smile. itz lyk at laz i pass my physics tez ;D waz xo damn gler nyer hapie lurh. 15/25, a B4. hapie siak ! ;D xo far fer ol d subject tez, oni physics i paz. sad seyh :( simple said, my academic, kinda lousy. i juz wish i cud b gud, nort xpecting to b d number 1, but at leaz manage to paz ol subjectx, i'll b really contented.

other subjectx fer todae ; history, maths, MT, english, chemistry ; waz ol okay. but sleepyyyyyyyyyy. fergort dat im going to skewl todae & i ate d medicine dat may cause drowsiness :X social studies, free period. boreddd seyhhhhhh todae. & at laz i handed up ol my english & malay humwerkx, d ones dat i owe my tchers. heheh.

after skewl went to find mdm loy but den she's no where in sight. waited fer her at d art studio wit d rez but she's taking far t0o long. xo i decided to go off ferst. d pain, cant stand it. i guess todae i haf to burn midnight oil. blame d humwerkx. urgh !

okay lurh, tyl here peeps.
take kaiires hunny bunnies !
byesssssssssssssssss(:

2008-02-11T17:00:00.000+08:00

194th post ;

updating upon iqa's requez(:

skewlz okay lurh. lessons as usual. came early to skewl wit zalikha. did nutink. waz feeling kinda sick. dunno y. suddenlie. juz laid my head on my beg. den went fer assembly wit gernette. felt xo giddy.

maths; ah ! i failed my maths tez. y cant i even juz pass ? felt lyk giving up maths but taking O maths diz year. haix.. i nid MORE help cuzzy. at leaz d claz waz nort boring. d were jokes here & dere. MT; 2 periods urh. kinda boreddddddddd seyh. suppose to do surat kiriman but ended up toking moz of d tymp. lortz of humwerk styl nort done urh. pfffffft. PE; fun fun fun ! ;D at leaz it cheered me up(: tot of nort having PE but boredd lurh kan if watch mates playing PE. xo decided to join in. rugby ! recez; din eat. no appetite. drank mineral water oni. went to d toilet to chnage into uni bec & went i l0ok into d mirror. woah ! i criouzly nid a hair cut. nort cut but trim & thin a bit. lion's mane ?! HAHA. ss; okay okay. ah ! fail my tez by juz 1 mark ! xo wasted lurh ! pfffffft. history; went to itr ? cant remember. STM :X kinda great. but i dunno wads xo great ? HAHA. chemistry; 2 periods ! ah ! freakingggggg boreddddddddddddddd fer d ferst period oni. but d 2nd period waz okay. mangaed to concentrate. underst0od d new chapter(: english; sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. din reallie concentrate. lucky d tymp paz faz.

after skewl ;
suppose to haf malay remedial. but i din go. nort purposely okay. waiting fer my mom to finish werk now. den take money & den to d doc. my heads bursting s0on !

stop sending those msgs saying dat if u send diz, ur valentine wyl appear or watever ! its freaking ultra damn irritating lurh ! how many tymps muz i sae urh ?!

gawsh ! i gotta control myself now. nort to lepak & slack xo much. gotta buck up on my studies. how i wish ders a miracle dat happen to me. gotta b more hardwerking. lortz of stuffs to finish todae.

steadies, sorie peeps. aku tak le turon nari mlm, again. reallie reallie reallie sorie. aku saket + de humwerks. aku miss krg many many sak ! maeb thurs after skewl ehk.

take kaiire hunny bunnies !
byessssssssssssss(:

yana, misses :(

2008-02-10T12:45:00.001+08:00

193th post ;

i waz juz doing my art research & i dunno half wae it landed me in my blog. HAHA. im sleepyyyyyy. but styl, humwerk, LORTZ MORE ! yesterday waz nutink. nutink much lurh. stay at home, rot ol dae. wanted to go out. but due to my tiredness + laziness + sleepiness, stay at home, lyk i said, rotting.

mama & adeq went out to buy lunch. gawsh, im nort hungry. haha. sunday, how i hate sundays. xo freaking BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ! btw, stop sending those msgs saying dat by sending diz to ur frenz, ur valentine wyl appear on d 14feb or d guy/gurl u love wyl kiss u, hug u or watever. fer goddness sake, STOP IT ! if u were to haf a valentine on d 14feb dey wyl appear but if u dont, den, ferget it ! it dosent mean dat ur admirer wyl oni appear on valentines dae. i juz dont understand seyh. lyk really. pffffft.

oh ya, half wae researching fer artists paintings & i haf one qn. y do painters lyk to paint nude paintings !? lyk criouzly, y ? an art dey say but its gross !

i want dat PUMA jacket lurh seyh. oh yes, im saving up ;D heheh. lyk deres xo many tinkx i want to buy. okay, muz control. but my main focus now iz to buy a new earpiece fer my fone + headfone ! no more werking, xo, takes a longer tymp to save. at leaz im independent nort lyk sumone hu owaesh ask "mummy i want money to buy diz, plssssssssssssss !" begging fer money in front of uz but dare to sae to other ppl dat we ask money from parents to get watever we want.

ehk, xcuze me, we save up d money from our allowance to get stuffs we want okay ! look at ursef before saying dat to others lurh, hello ! detest ppl lyk u !

syg, i miss u xo much !

2008-02-09T10:00:00.000+08:00

192nd post ;

0702 ;
went to grandparents' place. cuzzins, uncle, aunties ol gathered dere. nenek c0ok cili crab ! yum ! :D watch tv, tok tok. craps here & dere. its been quite a while since everiebodie gathered togeder lyk diz. mama & mak plan to watch movie. titled 'ah long pte ltd'.

xo ya, we t0ok our leave, den walk to d bustop on d opp side. arrived at d bustop, ibu msg mama saying dat dey juz arrived. cannot c baby aidil. wad seyh. t0ok a bus to causeway point. bought d tickets & watched d movie. one werd fer d movie, GREAT ! it really worth ur money. wanna noe more, read on, BUY D TICKETS & WATCH D MOVIE, okay ? haha :P

after dat, went to eat at CAVANA. damn ! customer service, SUX lurh. d palce xo nort organised. dirty. never gonna patronize dat cavana shop again. lucky d f0od waz okay. den went home.

t0ok 965 den 8o4 home. tired but had fun :D

0802 ;
had lunch at sakura northpoint wit mama & adeq. den went to watsons to get sum stuffs & met bird & amirul dere. HELLO. after dat went home. did nutink at home juz having family tymp toking + crapping togeder.

t0ok a bath, 5:45pm went out. sending off grandparents to railway station at tanjong pagar. ibu, ayah, abg fif, abg fifi's gf, ain, mak, ayun, bapak, yah, abg mamat came along t0o. nenek & atok board d train at 8:45pm.

den decided to eat. supper i guess. haha. we eat, tok, craps :D its nice dat d family r gathered togeder & having fun(: i juz love my family !

at arawnd 10:15pm went to mustafa. walk arawnd, bought sum stuffs. den arawnd 12:38am went home. slept at 1:30am. im styl sleepyyyyyyyyy seyh. lucky its saturday. styl haf sunday to finish up on humwerk.

dats ol fer now. to peeps hu wans to get link or relink, it wyl b s0on hunneys. friendster comments wyl b replied by next mon. bz-ness ryt now. love eu ols !

byesssssssssss(:

2008-02-06T11:25:00.000+08:00

191st post ;

its gonna b a shawt + random post !

skewls, GREAT ! haha. im nort exaggerating. hell yeah great. had performance in skewl. sum were BORING. but d dikir barat + d dance waz SUPER DUPER GREAT lurh ! waz toking non stop during d performance. haha. xtra kecoh urh todae. laughing non stop till my stomach hurtz :P

shan chin finish up my 'drug'. haha. niwaes, ur welcum(: d dikir barat performance, reminds me of cikgu cheah's joke. HAHAHAHA. wani & me waz lyk laughing lyk hell :P after dat, wani & me waz lyk planning to buy skinnies ; penisula. we'll c how it goes. budget limited urh :X

estimated fer skewlz dismissal waz 10:30 - 11. but at 10 can chao owedie. how great ! haha. waz walking out of skewl to d bustop & saw _____. hack kaiire ! dun wan to fight wit _____. u mind ur own & i mind my own beeswax, okay.

d bus, nort really full but penoh urh gitu :P wani, haix, takde keje. ciyan. maen tepon tepon org. haha :P waz in d bus, & thengzx ehk wani. i almoz fergort to get down at my bustop. haha. blur jap.

i wanna buy skinnies !

take kaiires hunny bunnies !
byessssssssssss(:

2008-02-05T17:05:00.000+08:00

190th post ;

yesterday's stuffs ; 040208.
went to skewl as normal. waz fine. lessons were okay. juz nort interested. dunno y. my migraine, okay now. d pain juz comes & goes dats ol. but styl deres a bit of soar throat. grrrr !

came home. saw LINA ;D miss her lurh. she's flying to italy after her O's. awwwww :( ayun msged asking me to mit her. had my bath. get changed & off to mit her. && i haf to wait fer her lyk half an hour oi ! met her den she pass me a bag, mak make fer uz cornflakes honey ! my fav ! hahas ! she teman me to eat. no appetite lurh actually. but force myself to eat. den walked arawnd, bought my mascara. t0ok 8o4 home. saw INDAH :D miss her t0o lurh seyh. gurl, bler mau lepak agy ?

as usual, i wyl take one turn before alighting at d bustop. opp d usuals. saw SITI. urgh ! apehal sak ngan kau. org tak carik pasal kau nak carik pasal. gler kaper aleh aleh dtg kat org pekik pekik ?! da sah gler p0n kau !

did my art humwerk at nyte. art theory. oh gawd ! d moz boringgggggggg stuff ever. i can go ZZZZzzzzzzzzz. at leaz i did 5 lyk wad she ask fer. & damn ! at nyte, my fone, d signal, went OFF ! urgh !

TODAY'S stuffs !
went to skewl early wit zalikha. but i waz late in meeting her. sorie gurl, ader bende nak kene settle kat uma. reached skewl, did a bit of my art. den went out to mit him(: i miss u Y
den went bec in, sat wit aliaa reading newspaper. den morning assembly + silent reading.

had CHEMISTRY tez ; okay, im xo gonna get 0 ! i fergort dat todae d claz iz having chemistry tez & i end up nort being able to revise. pffffft.

had MATHS next ; 2 periods ! manage to concentrate lyk finally. understand watever he teaches uz. & deres lortz of qns fer maths humwerk. wad seyh.

ENGLISH waz next ; free period ! cher nort in skewl. waz lyk phew ! i din do her humwerk. wh0opsy ! i guess i haf to do now. owed her two humwerkx ! dang !

RECEZ ; i hate it wen........ ah, nevermind. ferget it~

ART ; 5 periods ! waz okay i guess. suppose to do 12 layouts. but im d odd one out. im told to do more observation drawings ! cher, i take up d challenge ! ceyh ! haha. i gotta do 10 more observation drawings + 12 layouts. waz drawing a chick hatching out of d egg, elson came sitting besyde me, doing layout. & he started to draw stuffs on d newspaper. HAHAHAHAHAHA ! funnie lurh :D

AFTER SKEWL ; went home wit wani. wani, kau sardine urh. haha. t0ok 811 without E. one round. i alight ferst. lyk kiutt seyh. op stewdents alighting at d same bustop. okay, lame. haha :P

iqa waz waiting fer me at d staircase landing at my blk. really sorie sis to hear bowt dat. dun sad sad lagy kay. wyl settle it tom kay sis. cheer up (:

wyl b doing my art i guess later at nytes. btw aisyah, sorie sis. wont b cumink down malam nie. styl on medication. sorie sis. next tymp kay(:

tom, skewl, half dae ! :DD haha.

take kaiires peeps.
byesssssssss(:

2008-02-03T13:10:00.000+08:00

189th post ;

okay, im hell yeah boredddddddddddd ryt now. woke up arawnd 9:30 i guess. had a gud sleep but styl my migraine's nort gone, yet. d pain iz unbearable lurh. due to dat i haf to skip madrasah on fridae.

waz boredddddd. xo ya, i edited my blog header. yea i noe its ultra simple ! simplicity's d bez :D & oxo put in becgrawnd. edited my friendster's proffy. replied to ol comments + taggy-tags. urgh ! humwerkx nid to b done. i've nort even done a single tink.

& my hp's button crack ! oh pls dont b spoilt before my contract iz up. argh ! yea i noe i've been rather hard on my fone. campak here & dere. bleaghs ! :P shud i or shud i nort werk ? hmm..
mama dont allow me to werk lurh.

im xo loving secondhand serenade songx + spongebob + honey goldflakes ! haha. oh, i nid to trim + thin my hair. haha. dont want it to l0ok lyk a lion's mane. haha. i guess i haf to dye black my hair, AGAIN ! pfffffft.

OMG ! sumone haz rather been acting. acting preetaye. acting kiutt. acting popular. urgh ! oh c'mon ! can c fer ursef how ppl react towerds eu. b urself lurh. acting to b sumone else. dats xo nort original lurh. && tok bad bowt me again ? haha. eu want dat to happen again fer toking bad about me ? u ch0ose. oh well, stop acting !

2008-02-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

188th post ;

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I cared.
And suppose that I've spent all my nights running scared
And suppose that I was never there.

And my eyes are screaming for the sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you.
So I guess I feel lonely, too.

Suppose we were happy,
Suppose it was true.
And suppose there were cold nights,
But we somehow made it through
And suppose that I'm nothing without you.

And my eyes are screaming for the sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you.
So I guess I feel lonely, too.

Slow way down,
This break down's eating me alive.
And I'm tired, this fight is fighting to survive.

Tell me a secret, (I want it)
Tell me a story, (I need it)
I'll listen attentively,
I'll stay awake all night.
Allow me to whisper (so softly)
There's nothing I did mean (please help me)
But it's in my body
It's strong enough to fight (Let's make this right)
Please help me make this right.

Suppose that I was wrong,
Suppose you were here.
And suppose that I reached out and caught your tears
And suppose this fight just disappeared.

My eyes are screaming for the sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you.
So I guess I feel lonely, too.

nutink to post about. im sick. migraine + feeling nauseaous. slept early. real early i mean. arawnd 9pm after i ate medicine. lortz of humwerk to b done. haix.. i guess i do it slowly. its raining. im cold. brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

changed song. im loving secondhand serenade songs(:
dats all i cud post. yea, its lame.

take kaiires.
byessssssss(:

yana, 6 mths gonna pass faz. i really miss eu sis :(

2008-02-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

187th post ;

skewls kinda great todae. i waz late in meeting zalikha juz now. sorie. woke up late. ya, help adeq wit her maths humwerk. slept at 1+am. waz rushing over tinkx. met lina otw to bust0p(: boifey anta naeq motor seyh. action urh matair kau aru dapat lesen. haha. sorie ehk faizal, joking jer :P

PE ferst; oh, FUN ! but d field sux. really. fake ones; carpeted. no more mud to play with. haha. but really, nort fun urh wit d fake grasses. oh well, continued wit PE though. rugby fer todae. we learn d techniques. kinda slenger lurh me. haha. but fun lurh oi ! :D

MT; waz okay. copied watever cikgu ask uz to copy den revise maths. having tez d next period. thengzx to wani + firdaus fer helping ehk. i criouzly felt nervous seyh. lyk suddenlie want to study. haha. waz having probs remembering d formulas. i mean formulae :X

MATHS; tez ! haix.. nervous. i cant do. i hate it lurh seyh. wenever tez, im nervous. wen im nervous my mind went blank. grrrrr ! no tymp to finish all d qns.

ENGLISH; had spelling. heard werds dat i din hear before. sum sound xo, weird. haha. manage to paz. clap hands everiebodie. hahas ! joking ! :P muker tak tau malu siak aku ! haha !

RECEZ; as usual. rice + chicken + beancurd + apple juice. heheh. SS; nutink much. juz copy notes. LIFESKILLS; nutink much oxo. BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

AFTER SKEWL;
alone. miting my fren. in d bus, firman waz sitting besyde me. & he told me sumtink. biya benar seyh ? nta tol ke tak. wad he say, i find it, kinda weird o.0 oh well.

laz min decision, sms ayun asking if she cud teman me. den met her at our usual place. den she accompany me go eyebrow threading. i'll sure recommend dat place if anybodie wants to trim deir eyebrows. den t0ok buz to np. went to popular. bought my A3 art file + puncher + pens.

oh ya, saw sumone. nemind, ferget bowt dat sumone. den t0ok 8o4 home wit ayun. i 'turn' one round & alight at d bustop opp where i usuallie wyl alight. im juz tired, xo t0ok one round turn. haha. i noe it sounds slenger. haha. listening mp3 wit ayun. den saw my pri skewl fren.

ayun alighted & it started to rain. & i din bring my umbrella todae. i practically walk home in d rain. wet from d ends of my hair to even my toes. damn ! sure to get sick. oh, how i hate it wen im sick. feeling a bit feverish now. but at leaz d weather iz much c0oler den in d hawt sunny daes.

y do ppl lyk to tok behind ones back ? i dont understand seyh. lyk criouzly lurh. dont tok behind other ppl's back lurh wen u ursef r nort perfect. hello, wake up. everieone in diz werld iz nort prefect okay. dont u noe dat ? oh well, juz shut ur freaking mouths up. before saying anitink, look ursef in d mirror & r u perfect ? bunch of kids lurh eu ppl !

take kaiires.
byesssssss(:

2008-01-31T05:25:00.000+08:00

186th post ;

skewlz okay + oryte as usual. nutink much. went to skewl feeling quite sad. yana. oh gawd ! i criouzly miss eu sis. been tinking of her situation d whole morning. came to skewl wit a mind to revise again my physics fer a tez later on but.. hopefully d culprit wyl b caught lyk hell yeah s0on !!

HISTORY;
went to d hall fer relieve period. yeap, mr nair absent from skewl. ferst period oni, slack. haha. everiebodie in 4b1, almoz i wud sae, was juz lazying + slacking arawnd & im one of demme as usual. haha. watched d other sec4 claz having PE in d hall ; volleyball. haix.. reminds me of d tymps d steadies had fun went we were in sentosa. xploring & playing beach volleyball. oh, i miss those kicking ass fun tymps ! rewind can ?

MATHS;
went to d toilet ferst & i nid to trim my hair ! HAHAHAHA. as usual. went thru humwerk ; a pre test wrksht actually. & i waz criouzly surprised 0.o i actually gort 26 out of 28 marks. oh, how i wish diz waz d REAL test & i wud haf passed my maths lyk fer d ferst tymp ! not including sec1 + 2 maths. heheh.

RECEZ;
ate wedges + patty & of course my apple juice. heheh :P revise my physics at the same tymp. & diz guy, our levelmate. p0or him. a bowl of n0odles spilled on him. he smell prawns. really.

PHYSICS;
had our claz test. & urgh ! im nort confident in doing d tez. kept pressing my heart trying to get d ans out. im xo nort gonna do well in diz test. i really wish i cud c d tymp where i can paz my physics.

ENGLISH;
2 periods ! put on my cardigan. i suddenlie felt cold. sick ? i dunno. had writing practice ; composition. i was xo nort paying attention. really. i wanted t0. but i guess im juz t0o sleepyyyyyyyyyyy. mrs liew waz xplaining, errrr, i dunno wad & we're suppose to do our compo planning but i waz juz resting my head on d table holding a pen & scribbling shits on my f0olscap. slacking basically. haha. weird. i cud draw simple japanese cart0ons lyk suddelie. HAHAHAHA :P

MT;
cikgu absent from skewl again. xo ya, went to d hall fer relieve period. sat down. wanted to read actually. but went firman starts wit hiz craps, i cant concentrate. haha. wit him, ppl can go crazy ! hahaha. joker lurh kan. craps + laughters. had fun :D & hes a great fren.

AFTER SKEWL;
had maths remedial at 2. went thru d laz year O level maths paper 2. & 4b1 felt really sleepyyyyyyyyyyy. xo ya, din finish going thru ol d qns. stopped half wae & end of d dae. went home wit gernette. bought oreo choc bubble tea t0o. den i alight at d interchange. t0ok 8o4 home & gawsh ! d bus STINKS !!!! lyk hell ! it reeks wit dried vomit ! BBLLEEAAGGHHSS ! makes me wanna vomit. luckily im dropping off 2 stops awae. alight d bus & phew !

saw INA hunney wit her boifey juz now. dey ask me to come along wit demme to vivo to chill wit d rez. wanted to go. but sorie peeps, i've gort lortz of humwerk dat nids to b done. perhaps next tymp kay. & i mizz u ppl lurhs.

my legs aching. eyebags, urgh !

tags reply;

ina: yes.....we're gonna miss yana lyk hell! sad,misses hope d culprit wyl b caught SOON!!
atin reply; yeah. miss her. miss her kecoh-ness dat cheers uz up :( ya, lyk real s0on !!

hafiq: hehee..sorie ehk..wanted to tell u peeps wen diz sat mitup coz i'll b bringing her t0o & nak intro skali.tapi kau ngan lina da nmpk.haha.thankx la kawan.u haf my blessings t0o.may u & him laz long t0o & ya....yana...will miss her la kan...how do our fren end up dis wae??im gonna get dat culprit!
atin reply; ouh. icic.haha. aku ngan lina da nampak. eu welcum br0. hee. thengkiew. laz long wit her aitex. ya, miss her :( we're gonna get d culprit !

fiq: tin....feeling d same t0o bowt yana..sad:(....will vizit her,yes..ol of uz wenever we haf d trymp...miss her presence...
atin reply; sadness + misses :( yeap. oh yes we wyl.

ADIPURE: got problem ah..tell me lor..hahas..then i help u lor..hahas..yah..y ar??ni pusuong ah??hahas..(:(:
atin reply; replied to ur blog(:

take kaiire.
byesssssss(: